Some of my teaching partners have me feeling extremely insecure/angry/sad these last few weeks. I've always felt like I'm the lowest on the totem pole in our little group, but I always try to tell myself that it's just in my head. When I see a group of them talking in the hall together or can hear them in my neighbor's classroom chatting together, I try to not feel left out. When they talk about getting together to run and blatantly don't invite me, I try not to be insecure. However, at Friday's staff holiday hour get together I tried to start a story three times while being interrupted. The last time I started the two girls I was talking to literally got up and left in the middle of a sentence. Then on Monday's Secret Santa exchange I definitely overheard two of them making fun of me for listing dog toys on my list, which means a third who got the present told them. I'm sorry I don't fit your expectations and am not married with two kids. I'm sorry I'm not thin and don't constantly talk about losing weight and hating my body. I still do a shit load for the team, am a decent human being, and thought we were all genuinely friends.