#edlor

Taylor´s POV:

“Why though tay? I mean is It too much? Do you want to stop, are you afraid or scared to go on?”

“ Austin calm down, im not afraid,When i look at my life i don´t have any regrets, I mean, i´ve made mistakes but I don´t have many things that I would re-do, you know, everything that has happened to me did so I could end up where I am now, and i´m incredibly happy with where I am, i´ll be taking just a little time off, I used to take about two to three months of vacation but im thinking this one is gonna be longer.” “Well you definetly deserve the break Taylor, I mean, you´re 26 and you have a spotless career, take a break, figure some stuff out and come back if youwant to, i´m sure Ed will be very glad to hear that.”

“Yeah me too, this is way overdue I think.” “Yeah, you´ve been working non stop since you were fourteen.”

“God where did time go?” He looks at me and smiles.

“Time is taking all of us by fools tay.” I chuckle and he stands up.

“I have to go now, i´ve got a project to complete by tomorrow.”

I see him to the door and hug him goodbye. I head to the kitchen table where we were sitting and grab my phone, I dial scott´s number.

“Taylor what´s up.” He´s not much of a phone person.

“I kinda have to tell you something, i´ve decided i´m taking a bit of a break, you know after I finish touring for this album, I mean it´s been five albums and almost ten years plus the years before that of non-stop interviews touring and stuff, i´m thinking about taking some time off.”

“Are you sure about this? What if y-“ I interrupt him before he can start babbling about all the cons of my desition.

“Scott don´t lecture me, I know what i´m doing, you should make a statement or something.”

“Is this because you´re tired?”

“Yes and no, I just wanna take some time off ok don´t question it just make it happen.”

“Ok you´re right i´m sorry, i´ll go take care of that now, bye.”

“Bye, sorry for snapping at you.”

“It´s okay, you´re tired.” I smile.

“Yeah I am, bye.” I hang up and make my way to the piano, where my grammys sit motionless.

“You´re not gonna abandon me are you.” I say mindlessly to them, thinking about nobody wanting me to come back, but i´ve thought about it long and hard and I have made a decision, the right one, I think.

I turn on the TV in the living room and stare at it mindlessly whilst browsing twitter, i´m zapping through channels when E!news catches my eye.

“And pop-slash-country star Taylor Swift is taking a break! Her management made a statement earlier today that she is taking an indefinite break and stepping down from the spotlight, James here will fill you guys in.”

“Yes well it seems T swift is taking a break from fame for a while, her management said and I quote “Taylor has decided  to take an indefinite time of amount off from her career and take some time for herself and her personal life.” Well, since it has been almost two years since Taylor´s fifth album was released people were wondering why no announcements of another one were stirring the web, here is your answer folks. Now, why do you guys think that Taylor is taking time off? Send us tweets and  search us on facebook, what do you think Juliana?

“Well personally james i-“ I turn the TV off before she can start speculating on my future.

Ed saunters into the apartment and as I hear his keys clink on the key bowl I make my way to him, as I reach him I plant a soft but warm kiss on his lips and he deepens it, hoisting me up and taking me to the couch with him.

“I wanna make out with you.” I say between breaths.

“What?” He looks up at me from behind his ginger lashes.

“Yeah well, we´ve never had a proper makeout session.”

“Ok.”

He kisses me again and I kiss him back, sliding my tounge into his mouth and colliding with his, he smiles into our kiss and deepens it further, placing me softly on the couch above him.

After about an hour of just making out I remove my lips from his lock and place my head on his chest. He hums and I feel the vibrations.

“What are you laughing about?”

“When you hum you vibrate and it tickles.” He chuckles and resums aour position, he strokes my hair whilst I draw patterns of my invention on his chest.

“I have something to tell you.” He hums in response.

“I´m taking some time off from my career, to focus on us and on me, no don´t start talking, I was saying, im doing this for me and for us and I am fine with my decision so don´t try and talk me out of it.”

“Ok, are you sure?”

“Positive.”

“Ok.”

“Oh Ed there´s something else.”

“What?” I look up into the blue-green eyes that I will look into until death do us part.

“I´m pregnant.”

Ed´s ´POV:

You know when the most perfect woman in the world who you´re gonna spend the rest of your life with just said something that changed your life forever and you realize you will love her until the day you die?

Yeah.

Taylor´s POV:

I wake up from the cold i was feeling, i move over to Ed´s side so I could find refuge in his warmth and go back to my lovely stupor but when my fingers scratch the empty canvas of the bed reality crushes down upon me. Right.

I hastily make my way into the bathroom and take a shower in which I stay for too long. I sit on the floor as the numbness is slowly washed away and I cry. I sit there for about an hour when I give up, get out of the shower and brush my teeth. I leave the bathroom and snuggle into my pajamas. It´s not like i´m going anywhere today. My album drops in a few days so I have peace until then.

I find him in the living room playing guitar, I hover by the door so I can hear the sweet melody but he turns around and his cold eyes chill me to the bone. I go for nonchalant.

“What do you want for lunch?”

“Pizza.”

“Ok, do you want me to order some?”

“Yes. From Dominoes.” He knows I hate dominoes.

“Ok. Pepperoni?”

“Yes.” He turns around and the TV screen lights up at his touch of the remote.

I head to the kitchen and set the table, I order the pizza and go to the living room. He is staring at the TV screen with a blank look on his face.  I sit at a prudent distance from him and curl up on the couch.

“I´m sorry.” I say faintly, more to me than to him.

“I don´t forgive you.” His response startles me. He is exaggerating! It was a stupid kiss that I regret! But it was still cheating says a voice in my head which I brush off.

“Ok.” We sit in silence and the doorbell rings. The pizza guy asks for my picture and I comply. After a generous tip I send him on his way.

I sit perched on the bar stool picking on leftovers from yesterday as I watch Ed gulf down his pizza. Hes on his fourth serving when I burst.

“I don´t even like him! It was stupid and I regret it! I know it hurt you but it was nothing! I love you! I married you! Please Ed!.” He stares up at me from his pizza, considers my words with a blank expression and then grabs the cardboard box and leaves me at the bar. He settles himself infront of the TV and resumes his staring.

“I´m going to the gym” I mutter.

It´s been two days and Ed still ignores me, we only talk when it is necessary. He chose the exact perfect way to make me pay because his ignorance is an icy knife in the heart that keeps stabbing endlessly. I make attempts to reach out to him. Making his favorite foods and complying with the little things that he asks me but it´s futile. I´d rather he screamed at me.

It´s on the fourth night that it happens.

It´s about 3am and we´re sleeping. Well he is. I´m just staring at the ceiling wondering how i´m gonna get him to forgive me. Suddenly he stirs and starts screaming. I shake him and call his name in desperation.

“Ed wake up! It´s a nightmare you´re ok!” I keep slapping and shaking him until he startles awake and his lost eyes meet mine. The expression of loss and despair and, is it sadness? Is replaced by a hooded one of lust and desire as he kisses me with a force that takes my breath away.

“Ed what are you-“ He pauses and collapses on top of me. I take the opportunity to slowly lift my hand and run it through his damp hair. He sighs and closes his eyes.

“I dreamt that you died, and I was mad at you so I didn´t get to say goodbye.” He looks up at me and his eyes reflect ones of a sad puppy who got wet on a winter evening.

“Oh Ed i´m so sorry, you know it was a mistake, it meant nothing, i´m so sorry.” He looks at me, lost for words and just goes back to his last position.

After a while he is suffocating me but I don´t say anything too scared to loose this precious moment that he is giving me. We sit in silence for what seems hours.

“Ok.” I see the ghost of the word leave his lips.

“Ok what?” I lift my head to look at him.

“Ok I forgive you.”

“What? You do?”

“Yes, i´m still mad though, and I can´t believe what you did.”

“I know i´m so sorry.”

“Ok. Stop apologizing.”

“Oh ok, sorry. Damn sorry.”

He chuckles and I see a flicker of playfulness in his eyes. A heavy weight is lifted from my shoulders as I start to see glimpses of him back to me.

“It´s gonna be hard to trust you again.” He says with an air of finalty.

I woke up startled by the darkness that surrounded me, since the roof was made of glass, but then i realized i was underneath the covers. I was so lovey-dovey i didn´t even bother to analyze the fact that i didn´t realize i was under the covers. I pushed them down and saw Ed looking at me chuckling. 

"I didn´t realize i was under the covers and started wondering why it was so dark" I said, fidgeting with my fingers. This led him to kiss me and grab me, pulling me towards him.

We were both naked and i could feel him underneath me. I put myself in a koala position on top of him and he started kissing my neck and breasts as i ran my hands through his hair, pushing his head towards me. I was so ready for him.

"I want you now." I said to him, lowering my head so as to whisper it into his ear. This made him grow bigger beneath me and i started grinding on him, when i couldn´t stand it anymore i lowered myself onto him and he groaned as i pressed my hands against his back, pinching him with my nails.

"Oh Ed, I love you so much." I said as he changed us and lay me down. He started thrusting in and out of me whilst looking at me.

Our eyes were locked with each other until i had to close mine to be able to feel everything. He felt so good inside me. He started kissing my neck and ears and cheeks and mouth until i couldn´t bear it anymore and i grabbed his head, pushing him to my chest and having one of my best orgasms ever.

"That was spontaneous." I said. He was already beside me and i was laying my head on his chest, tracing patterns on his belly with my fingers.

"You were all naked and sexy."

"Right back at you." I smirked and kissed his side, were his ribs were.

I stood up wanting to get myself breakfeast. I made it a point not to put any clothes on so he could see me naked.

I opened the fridge and saw that breakfeast was already there. There was an entire chocolate cake and donuts. I took them out and put them on the table, i grabbed a fork, and without even trying to go for manners, started eating it straight out of the plate it was in. Ed stood up and joined me by eating the donuts. 

"This is awesome." I said to no one in particular. He chuckled and said he was glad i liked it.

"So, when do we go back to the house?"

"You wanna leave already?" He looked slightly hurt.

"No! I was just wondering cause of the horses being out there and how we dont have that much food. If it was up to me, i would stay here forever and ever.".

"I was thinking we could go swimming today." I said, breaking the silence that had streched between us.

"I don´t have a swimsuit."

"Who says you need one?" I taunted him.

I got up and went to the bathroom, i brushed my teeth and hair, and went out the door. I crossed the room, Ed looking at me, and opened the door. Outside it was warm and  beautiful so without hesitating i threw myself into the water, as i rose up i heard a splash and saw Ed swimming towards me. I went to him and kissed him with full force, our legs intertwined and our hands on each others hair. Before anything would happen i dove down and started swimming in circles. Eventually i got tired and just floated on my back, letting the sun warm me and the water cool me. I was joined by a floating Ed who made is way slowly towards me, like i was pulling him with some weird force.

"You´re sure no one sees us here right." I said, my head getting the worse of me.

"I´m sure."

"I have to, never mind."

"No what?"

"Nothing, enjoy and we can talk later."

I woke up to Ed looking at me with his head propped up on his elbow and a huge smile on his face.

"Hi" I said sheepishly as i rubbed my eyes ant went for my phone It was 2pm in the afternoon.

"Nope, no outer connections today, just you and me. I told you i had a surprise for you."

"Ok fine, im gonna go brush my teeth."

"Meet me downstairs with propper attire for horseride. And wear nice underwear."

"So are we gonna ride horses or have sex?" I asked blatantly.

"You´ll see. Come on hurry up."

I quickly brushed my teeth, put my hair into a ponytail and put my best lingerie on it was lacy and kind of classy but sexy. I put a shirt, some riding pants and riding boots on and headed downstairs. He was waiting for me and took my arm, he led me to the stables where the same horse that i rode yesterday was waiting for me. 

"I love this gal. She understands me." I said as i gave a sugar cube that i had brought from the house to the horse. 

"Well she´s yours."

"What? No way,no i can´t this is a horse!"

"Oh come on, don´t even try to fight me on this. You get to name her too."

"Oh my god thank you thank you thank you! Is this my surprise.?"

"You´re very welcome and no it isn´t, come on lets go. Slow this time ok." I chuckled and mounted my unnamed horse.

We walked for about half an hour talking and laughing, and occasionally bumping our horses into each other. I loved doing that because it made him so scared.

"I´m calling her Lexie. For Grey´s." He laughed.

"You and your Grey´s."

"We´re here." He said after a while.

I lifted my sight and saw a tablecloth on the floor, it was squared, just an average picnick tablecloth. Above it was food that looked very recent and very yummy. Chase, the landlord, was waiting for us, he took my horse as i dismounted. He unsaddled both horses, put ropes around their necks and tied them to a stake on the ground, i said thank you to him and then he was gone. 

I sat down with Ed on the picnick site, he grabbed two glasses and poured champagne on them. I took a drink and felt it bubble from the tip of my tounge to the back of my throat. It felt like i was swalloing shooting stars which were dancing on my taste buds.

"This is the best champagne i have ever tasted oh my god."

"Yeah me too, want more?" I said yes and finished my glass.

There was an exagerated amount of food, from tiny toasts with various cheeses on them to paté and salami. There were nuts and chocolates and sweets. Pretty much anything i could want was there. I ate until i was absolutely stuffed. Trying some of the raspberry filled chocolates and the brie covered toasts. The merengue cake and those tiny but heavenly tasting blinis. 

"That was the best surprise ever, i can´t fit anything else into my mouth. And i´m sorry but i´m gonna dissapoint you when we get naked because im sure i just gained two pounds."

"Well my surprise is not over and i would love you even if you weighed three hundred pounds. I mean, i don´t have the hottest bod and you love me so why wouldn´t i love you if you were gigantic."

"Your body doesn´t condition my love for you."

"Yeah, well. Come on."

He helped me up and we walked to somewhere i hadn´t noticed before. It was a pond. It had a dock with a rowing boat tied to it. I got in and Ed grabbed the paddles and rowed us to the middle of the pond. There were lillies and lilly pads everywhere, the water was covered by flowers that had fallen from the trees that surrounded the pond. There were dandelion tooth in the air and the sun was starting to make it´s way down. The whole setting was out of a fairytale and i couldn´t find an exact spot to stare at since there were so many perfect things going on.

When the sun started to go down and a chilly wind started to graze the ground we went back to shore. I made my way to the horses meaning to saddle them up and go back to the house but Ed stopped me.

"We´re not going back until tomorrow." 

I looked at him startled. He took my hand and we walked for a while, circling the pond to an area with some trees. When we got there i saw something i hadn´t seen on the boat. There was a square concrete structure that stood in a clearing.