#dump.txt

she arrived. i love her. looking at her brings me joy.

gardevoir has always been my comfort pokémon since gen 3. yes, i know about the "other things" she's known for </3

very proud of what i have so far :) imperfect, second-hand, damaged cards, but authentic. i don't open packs myself anymore (too expensive, especially when i only want 1 pokémon from them).

※ dni card-grading fanatics.

i got this gardevoir from an individual seller online for crazy cheap price – i think they sell rejected rares (collectors who grade cards do a preliminary scan to see if they'd get at least an 8 before they pay someone to actually grade them). i could sort of see why this one didn't pass the mark, but that's good enough for me~

wow, idk where to start.

classes are supposed to start today </3 but i haven't received my schedule and classes. no email from profs. my classmates were also having trouble. some professors haven't contacted them at all. it's just like the previous semester.

listen. they only opened enrollments last tuesday as classes were about to start in 2 days. did they really think they were going to settle the accounts of thousands of students within those 2 days? especially when their systems are fucked?

i guess i'm just surprised. for a 100 year old academic institution, shouldn't they know better? the registrar and billing/accounting offices didn't even know what's wrong, and the IT department (which only had 3 people in their team) is carrying the concerns of hundreds of inquiries within those 2 days. what the fuck.

then, they tell me today that apparently, my clearance was on hold bc i didn't fill up a form from last april, something related to the student council (i have no idea wtf this even is).

um? wtf am i supposed to do then? are you going to hold my clearance for-fucking-ever? because of some unrelated, non-academic bullshit?

when i first got into college, i made a friend in my track who lived in the same city as i did. we'd go home together almost every day, and we'd chat about our goals in life and attachment issues, something other people often didn't understand.

she introduced me to a group of friends, who also became my friends. two months later, i was the first to leave after they planned on hooking me up with a stranger. regardless, i was still friends with the girl, even when she hung out with them more and had stopped going home with me.

but i started noticing that she only talked to me when her own friendships weren't going well. she'd talk shit about the group yet still hang out with them. she'd tell me about how she has become the floater friend while also ignoring me unless she cries about them.

anyway, she had already left my school, but i went to her a few times when she felt depressed (either we met on a café walking distance to her home, or i visited her house). when she felt lonely, i went to her place just to quietly sit in her room when she wanted presence but didn't want to talk.

the last streak was planning to meet with me, but canceled the last minute, saying she didn't have the energy to go outside. i told her, "it's okay, i understand. i'm always here when you're ready!"

two days later, i found out that she had met up with a girl from the group. the same people she talks shit about. wow.

just now, she texted, "how are you?" months after no contact. i was about to kindly respond, but i saw how my previous messages were dismissed, and now i'm so... angry? why haven't i felt this angry with her before?

why do some people only like you when you don't wanna have anything to do with them anymore?