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if i had a dollar every time i created a vent account on tumblr and deleted it because i regretted it, i wouldn't know how much i had in total because i can't count.

i have decided to call myself novi. i made this account because the urges are urging again ૮ u.u ა i am above twenty years of age, currently in college, and deeply in love with my beloved who is quite literally my only reason to live atm.

‧꒰ა stuff about me... most consistent inconsistent #irlyandere blogger. i've been in this community for more than a decade. it's my entire personality at this point ૮ u.u ა love, love, love intense/obsessive love.

‧꒰ა about beloved... that's what i'll call him here. we're in a yan×yan relationship, but i occasionally feel like i'm more intense than him. we met each other during the lowest moments of our lives; now, we're just trying to get by.

‧꒰ა hobbies... i'm an artist. i got into art school, worked in graphic design, burnt out, and now i'm trying to fall in love with expressing myself again. my reason for creating this account is to have a way to express myself as well.

‧꒰ა spirituality... agnostic. i try to believe in god and have some form of spirituality, but it's really hard. might be because i'm in a rough patch right now </3 i love jungian psychology and humanistic psychology (e.g., maslow, rogers, frankl, may).

tags

#yandereology.txt - yandere studies #anhedonia.txt - depressive vents #cartomancy.txt - tarot readings #questionnaire.txt - asks #nocturne.txt - long, personal ramblings

my last semester ended! i have about two weeks left until the next one starts :') it's been a stressful past few months, especially with the stupid heat waves, but my partner has been a huge support system for me. i've been feeling much better mentally!

i made a new account where i'll post about witchy things and personal life @vesperynne . this blog mainly started out as a vent yanblog, i couldn't really post about other things 'cuz i didn't feel like they fit the nature of it. tarot readings will move there!

i still plan on using this account for yandere-related content, or whenever i feel like venting in general. i have so many drafts awaiting to be published </3 so excited to finish writing them.

anyway, more personal things coming up.

my grandma moved out a month ago. she raised me from birth to current, and i shared the same room as her. now, i have the room all to myself, but it's also been very quiet. i'm happy that she's spending more time with her primary family in the province, but i felt like i needed to spend time mourning her leave. after living with her every day, her not being here at all felt so sudden. i'm adapting to it every day, the television hasn't been switched on since she left.

on the other hand, my beloved and i are doing amazingly well. i don't remember if i mentioned it in detail, that we met each other when both of us were considering ending our lives. meeting him was spiritual to me – if there was an unseen entity out there, they have proven to me that they didn't want me to die, and fulfilled a long-time wish i've been begging the universe my entire life.

our shared goal is to move in together in a house near nature and use it as a space to create more art and fund more charities. seriously considering eloping at this point </3 if we were wealthier, we would've already been away from society (haha).

that's about it. i think i'll write more in the other blog.