#drackin

not really a confession abt me but i hope the monsterhighkin who is normally over here (batty🎀🦇💕) has a good day ^_^

It feels so awkward to have to explain to people that as Draculaura I was by no means a teenager by the time the 21st century rolled around. I believe I actually turned 1,800 in the 20th century. I feel like I have to clarify considering I keep mentioning that I have a wife. I feel like that sentence confuses people in general because of the part where I'm mentioning I have a wife and not a husband. However I feel like this information is widely known though considering I may be one of the only active Monster High fictionkins. I just don't need people thinking I'm married to Clawd, that's all. Never knew the werewolf. He seems sweet though.

It is genuinely hard for me to explain that just because I'm Draculaura, doesn't mean that I'm like the canon one. I've figured out that I am an AU kin of her. However it comes with the circumstances that I am basically her exact opposite. I don't like sugar coating it; I'm an asshole. I was in my past too. I was worse than an asshole actually. Most of it was probably from whatever trauma I endured over centuries of being undead, but I feel part of it is because of who I am now, unfortunately also having to deal with a lot of trauma. It genuinely sucks because I love being nice when I can but I'm also notorious for having anger issues. I did so many horrible things as Draculaura that I could probably write an essay about it. It's just never pleasant.

I hope that people don't think that, just because my nickname was Draculaura in my universe, that they have the right to call me that when I am kinshifted. I don't want to be called Draculaura or Drac or anything Dracula related, it is a disgrace to my very existence. My canon self it is obvious someone would call her that, but I speak as me as an individual, I don't want to be called that. I always liked how one of her nicknames was Ula D, that I would love to call myself. But God forbid the other names.

I miss the life I could've had. I always feel envious of her, how her father pampers her, how she gets most of the things she wants, how she has so many friends, and a happy ending. And what I am left with is chaos, endless amounts of trauma, and only my wife by my side. I am always envious of who I could have been, if I was not AU kin, but I could never hate her.

Sometimes, back when I was in the fandom that my kins came from, I would constantly hear fatphobia being spewed around, and to this day it still is. Once, I heard someone ask "do you think the ghouls would condone this?" in question to others making fatphobic remarks. I can say for certain they would not. I do not. It is so heartbreaking to see people constantly tear my canonical self down for being curvy in the newest generation, wait until they hear I am overweight, then they would definitely lose it.

I am finally starting to open up about being Draculaura. It took me a bit, I'd say a few months, but mostly due to the fact I was afraid I was going to get targeted. I feel like expressing this side of myself is doing wonders, no matter how "cringe" others may see me, I am unabashedly being myself and I feel that is all that counts, no? Besides that, I did get my first fang phantom shift and it was horribly annoying considering how long they are.