The Cackling Chronicles: Day...what day is it?
Let's face it, I am terrible at keeping up with a daily journal! XD
Being stuck with a job that has a constantly changing schedule and exhausting, 10+ hours shifts doesn't help.
So what is to become of this journal? Probably an occasional thing that I will keep up not just this month, but in general. A post from time to time, when I have the energy.
So what is this one going to be about?
First of all I never thought my tattoos would take off the way they did. Wondering if I should be very brave and post a picture of me with my gear on, so you can see how they look now that they've healed...and also how everything else looks!
My mate keeps saying that they're a perfect fit for me. She's already having a hard time imagining me without them. Everyone I have shown them to find them very pretty and cool. I feel happy.
My dysphoria comes and goes. It's definitely weakened. Yesterday I felt my phantom limbs a ton. My tail couldn't stop wagging, my ears perked up, my muzzle stretched my face. I even wore my collar outside for the...second? Third time? I keep getting nervous about it. It's like I'm reliving through my gender transition all over again, but this time, I can't exactly come out to everybody. I mean, I could, but I'm terrified to do so.
Terrified of rejection, of ridicule. Of being seen as "freaky" or "childish" for wanting to "dress up like an animal".
I think I've nailed down my dog identity as bernese mountain dog. The big, fluffy, cuddly pup's aura definitely suits me. Still doing research.
My mate and I want to go to a furry convention this summer or fall, if we can. I'm a furry, yeah, I kinda want a full fursuit one day, but the idea of walking around in my gear, and hopefully meet some therians there, is exciting.
I'm in Canada though so conventions are few and far between. I'm hoping we can find something.
In the meantime, have a teaser of the pictures I wanna post online. Give me your thoughts, as well!
