#dodieclark

It’s the same person. She and me are the same person, just on good vs bad days.

The “she” who means everything to me, is good days. Days when you feel like the sun couldn’t shine any brighter, days when you’re taking care of yourself. Days when you just feel good. “She smells like lemongrass and sleep.”

But the song is from the perspective of the bad days. The days when you fall back into bad habits: speaking poorly of yourself, not going to sleep until 3 or 4 in the morning. Days when you just want to stay in bed and never get up again. And you know that you should be doing all of these things, that you’ll feel better, more like the good days, but you can’t seem to just do it. “And oh it aches, but it feels oddly good to hurt.”

So many of the lines just fit. “Even when she’s next to me we could not be more far apart.” “She means everything to me.” “I’d never tell, no I’d never say a word.”