#dissconnect

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Help with dissociation and depersonalization

You're right! These things help me too! I'll call my mom and talk about her day and mine, and it really helps to know that this is real, life is real and I'm still connected to it. This is a great idea!

I'm tried and I despise moving( the packing-boxes kind, not the physical go-for-a-walk kind). I crave something that will refill me. I want to laugh and feel warm waves of happiness radiate throughout my body... but I can't seem to figure out how to make that happen.

It's been a long year. It's been a long semester. It's been a long week. I'm terrified that I'm loosing touch with myself although it's difficult to tell whether that is actually what is happening or if I am simply becoming more aware of the fact that I NEVER really knew what it meant to "be in touch with myself".

Maybe if I can articulate it properly. 

I know such lovely people. I am so, SO, lucky to have this kind of support. But why is it that I still feel disconnected, distant, exhausted and alone?

What is that? Surely it's a fault within myself.

Maybe if I stopped taking the little orange and blue nugs in the morning. Or if I amped up the dosage. Or if I got enough sleep. Or if I ate raw foods. Or if I was better about picking up the phone and talking to people. Or if I did more yoga. Or if I read more books. Or if I threw away everything I owned and lived minimally....

I'm overwhelmed and adrift. 

Choosing is difficult. Commitment is difficult. Patience is difficult. Complaining is easy. 

Animals. They have a way of communicating to one another but have little to no way of communicating to us. In some way I think thats why we like them, because we don't hear thier every thought or every nagging comment or have to listen to thier aweful singing (if they sing). As long as we don't have to put up with someones bitching or whining we are generally happy. The problem I see is that when the animals have no one to talk to because all the other animals they can connect with are gone or not in site. They become dependant on the human whom they have a large disconnect with. In many ways they will try to show how they feel, what they like or dislike but a lot of that is generally missed or just brushed off.

A majority of my life I've felt like that crab trying to communicate or try to get people to understand what I am about or what I like or dislike. But no one understands because there are not a lot of other crabs around and the humans are just dumb founded by whats happening and just move along.