#did system problems

Nothing like having people look at you funny when you reference something that happened yesterday like it happened three years ago

I forgot how old we are. Someone asked and I said 18 then panicked cause we are 19. I messed up. Had to correct myself but sounded dumb.

Our therapist wants us to try these mindfulness exercises but every time all of us but one attempts to do it we fuzz out and get blurry. It was a mild annoyance at first but now I can’t enjoy my brownies without remembering I’m supposed to be mindful and turning into soup

At this point, I would’ve preferred to have continued not knowing I was a system and not remembering my childhood. I would’ve been so much better off. Like, every time I remember more or piece together more, it gets so, so, so much worse. It is like an exponential graph of how horrible it all was. If it was possible, I would beg someone to remove these memories. I would rather just forget literally every single memory that is in my brain, and start off as a completely blank slate than have to continue remembering anything that happened in my childhood. I don’t want to deal with this shit. I don’t want to remember any of it. I fucking hate this shit. I hate it so fucking much.

Kuni on the verge of a mental breakdown ⚔️ Albedo trying to study for our exam tomorrow

Not to be all “waah waah I hate flesh prison” but godDAMN feeding the body is so annoying

sick of pretending walking isn’t painful. cant keep up the act anymore. it is destroying the body. gonna make sure the rest stop. its gone on too long

being able to front for the first time in a long time is weird because these memories are old and no one else had them. i had them. now i feel bad :/