i love working with isis because she really does show up in so many ways <3
sometimes she’s weret-hekau and iset rekhiet — teaching me new forms of magic, passing on her immense wisdom, helping me have a bigger and better impact on my community.
other times she is the queen of heaven, master over fate. sometimes she even lets me in on her work; she allows me to do the equivalent of sitting in her office, spinning on her fancy CEO chair while she works away at ordering the cosmos.
on occasion she is isis uraeus, iset neseret, nebt-neru; the fiery one, the lady of awfulness. she is furious on behalf of her children; she rages and fights back against the forces of isfet because of her great love for humanity.
in quieter moments she is iset khunet-noferet, the foremost beautiful one. when i am lost, she is iset-sopdet, the dog star in the sky, the luminous one who lights the way. when i sing for her, she as shemayet, the chantress, harmonizes with me. when i dance or play or share my interests with her, she is the one whose heart is satisfied with revelry. she is the lady of life, present in all things, from the family of quail outside my window to the rising of the sun and moon to the nourishment i get from food and water.
but she is always, always isis soteira dikaiosyne, isis the savior-who-is-righteousness. she is the goddess that saves all because it is just, it is right; because everyone deserves to be saved from a bad death; because her role in the cosmic order is to be the compassion that goes OUTSIDE of mortal conceptions of right and wrong, of deserving-ness and undeserving-ness.
my ocd tells me that deep down, i am a horrible and impure person that taints everything i touch, that i am inherently wrong and bad an undeserving. i will never know if that is true; i will never be able to “get to the bottom” of that and discover my true nature. attempting to do so is futile, since it only feeds the ocd further, and there is no proof convincing enough for my ocd. but isis says: it doesn’t matter if i am inherently good or bad. it doesn’t matter if humanity as a whole is evil or good at its core. isis will be a saving, compassionate force because that is what is owed to everyone, because justice is compassion, because everyone is deserving of her saving grace.
