#devotional diary

Hermes digital offfering!!

I've been trying to get closer to him lately and include him in my practice he is one of the gods I feel like is always there and helping me.

I devoted some self care time to Lady Aphrodite which is my first act of worship to her. and to say I felt truly amazing would be an understatement. I was truly relaxed and it was the most beautiful I felt in a while.

I don't actively worship anyone aside from Athena right now but I still worship every god I pray and devote things to them when I can.

i have been listening to hymns to the gods, right now I'm admiring the midnight sky and appreciating Lady Selene and Artemis. I love these small acts of worship just basking in the nature of the gods :)

In those five months I made an altar, started praying whenever I could and got quite close to some of the gods.

Hellenic polytheism made the most mundane things seem beautiful to me. Cleaning and cooking is much more fun when I dedicate it to Hestia, saying hello to Helios and smiling at the sun, and getting blinded every morning by Apollo (thanks alot), reading and talking to Athena and just always feeling better after and rushing at the metro praying to Hermes to get home fast.

The last five months since I started were some of the best time I've had. I passed my exams, made alot of new friends, started getting more comfortable in my identity and I was the happiest I think I've ever been.

Just set up my official altar for Lady Athena :)

I put some new offerings and prayed. (hey the flower may be dying but it was already on my nightstand and I'm gonna get a new one tomorrow and maybe even an actual vase lol)

my family isn't home and it has been the first time since I started worshipping where I felt completely at ease and safe to just pray. how I wish it was like this all the time sadly it isn't and I will have to remove the liberations cup for when they come back, but I will savor this small bit of freedom that I got for the time being truly, thank the gods for that.

I'm gonna take a shower and some self care time as a devotional act to Lady Aphrodite and then watch a documentary about war for Lord Ares. I'm really trying to do as much as I can in this day because I won't get another opportunity like this in some time lol.

the gods truly make me happy and I continue to thank them even the ones I don't actively worship (which is everyone aside Athena. it's really all I can do right now 😭)

Praise the Gods and thank them for all their blessings I'm so grateful for them!

It was a candle that I was gifted on my birthday. I lit it a few times before, but it was the only good one that I had. This time though, I lit it to say my first prayer and introduce myself. Right after lighting it the flame went all high and crazy, which never happened before (I don't take candle reading as a reliable form of divination, especially as a beginner, but it did feel like a sign of some kind). I called upon her and gave my candle as my first offering and just sat next to it for a while. I looked up so many prayers for offerings and just random ones. I was so nervous about saying or doing something wrong, I stood in my kitchen saying my first prayer and went to my room and set the candle on my desk. I read some more prayers and just started talking about some things in my life, like my relationship with religion and my confusion about it, that I had no idea if what I'm doing is right or wrong, or if she's even real, That I don't know what to do but well... it's worth a shot. I prayed that if she's there to help me with my life, to put me on the right path, or just anything. I'm completely lost. I kept the candle on for some time and then put it off before going to sleep. I had this feeling of comfort and fear lying in bed that night.

I felt a sense of comfort for the following days. Every day I woke up, saying good morning to her and talking for a while or just lighting the candle for some time.

On April 7th, I made a Pinterest board and dedicated it to her. I put imagery of her, statues, art, things that reminded me of her, altar inspos, prayers, cheat sheets, and things related to her.

April 10, I had a university fair one that I had to talk to people and representatives there. I'm quite shit at that and I had no idea what to ask about or how college works. Before leaving I prayed to Athena for guidance and help, promising to give her an offering. I went there spoke with the first representative, and it went smoothly my dad also commented on how good I was. The rest of the day went perfectly. I was very confident and spoke clearly. I got beads and stuff to make a prayer bead as my thank you, didn't do it yet, but I have offered some food and prayed. I wanted to do it earlier but I had exams.

Not related to Athena, but one night I had a huge fight with my dad and he talked about how he would force us to wake up early morning around 3 am and work, even though I had exams and classes and I couldn't wake up. I prayed before going to sleep to anyone who would listen to help me, my dad isn't very nice, and I didn't want to find out what would've happened that morning. I prayed to Ares, protector of those in need, to Hermes, for any kind of aid, to Hypnos, to make me sleep heavily and not wake up till morning, or to literally anyone up there who could help, promising an offering. That morning I woke up my mom telling me how my dad left to work and overslept and didn't wake up that early morning. I was so relieved. I gave Hermes chocolate, devoted a video I watched to Ares about war, and prayed to Hypnos almost every night.

tonight i presented myself to the gods under my spiritual name and celebrated my first real sabbat. tonight wasn't my initiation ritual that i've been planning (saving that for samhain, since it's the wiccan new year), but it was more just to introduce myself to the gods.

i also did a mabon thanksgiving ritual and blessed my room and my crystal that i wear on a necklace. i feel very blessed and very close to the gods. for the ritual, i filled my little wooden bowl with salt water and five dead rose petals, and let one candle float. i blessed my room with the water, and knelt in front of my altar and prayed. i introduced myself and gave thanks for the good things in every aspect of my life. i then lit five separate candles and that's when i blessed the necklace. i prayed for guidance and clarity, and safety and protection for those around me. i gave thanks for all the things in my life and then ended the ritual by blessing my room one more time to make sure there weren't any unwanted spirits, and pouring the water out. i kept the petals and put one on each point of my pentacle, and left the first candle lit until tomorrow morning <strike>(it's battery operated don't freak out lmao)</strike>