#desired

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[PT: Attraction stance .PSDs]

Abstainer | Ambivalent | Averse

Desired | Desperate | Drained

Favorable | Giving | Impulsive

Indifferent | Interested | Obsessed

Oscillating | Piqued | Receiving

Repulsed | Starved

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tagging @radiomogai. Credits below the cut:

His presence settles behind you like a slow, enveloping heat. Breath warm, deliberate, it traces the curve of your ear as if he’s memorizing the place you soften. His voice follows ~ low, intimate, steady enough to anchor you ~ sliding into your thoughts before it ever reaches your skin.

An arm gathers you in, not hurried, not forceful, but certain. The world narrows to the quiet rhythm between you, to the space where anticipation hums and certainty lives.

“Mine,” he breathes ~ soft, intoxicating, laced with devotion.

Not possession; recognition. It blooms in your chest, settles deep, and leaves you wrapped in the warmth of being chosen, held and unmistakably valued.

• not now

• later

• when I’m done

• when it’s convenient

It should feel like:

• now

• come here

• I want you

• I can’t stop looking at you

(warning??: i'm yapping and venting and depressed.. and my english isn't all that good)

it has genuinely been eating me alive the fact that I haven't shifted yet, it just hurts, I feel so miserable here, in this reality, not my overall life here is bad but I just hate it. I despite every second I spend in this place that I don't want to be in, in a life that I don't want, in a country that I don't want to be in, with people I don't even wanna be with. It's draining, I hate it, it makes me cry, it makes me want to crawl out of my skin because it feels like it isn't even mine. I don't want it.

Every single failed attempt makes me more and more depressed. More than I already am. I don't have goals, I don't have a purpose I barely even want to live. Shifting is the only thing keeping me from actively giving up on overall living, it's my only hope and only thing I want in life, only thing that makes me want to be alive.

The hope that it is all real, and that this isn't my life and that I'm not stuck here but it genuinely feels like it. I feel alone, estranged and out of place, I feel different and not in a good.

I feel jealous of every shifter that has already shifted, that has escaped and left for good while I'm here. Has done the thing that I desperately want and need, and I'm just here. After years, 7 years.

I've tried everything and it is not even an exaggeration I have tried everything that I could've. I got into LOA, tried not gaf, tried more methods than I can remember, tries to change my mindset, be confident in myself, focus on me and I'm still here and I feel like a loser because everybody is doing it besides me.

"Just be patient, even if it takes years it'll come."

IT HAS BEEN YEARS AND NOT A FUCKING THING HAS CHANGED, IT HURTS IT FUCKING HURTS because I don't have years I don't want years, I want the days it took for that other shifter, I want the week the other had before shifting I WANT THE FIRST TRY THAT THE OTHERS SHIFTERS GET AND I DON'T