Last week I was diagnosed with conversion disorder which is when your body turns your stress and anxiety into neurological symptoms. For me they are constant and intense tremors, muscle spasms, weakness, pins and needles feeling, numbness and a whole bunch more. I have no control over any of these symptoms because my body is actually doing it (I can’t just tell my body to stop) and I’m in a lot of physical pain and I physically cannot drive, go up and down stairs, or walk for longer than a minute or two so I’ve been out of work since October because of this.
But here’s the joke my doctor thinks my stress and anxiety is caused by my chronic illnesses and chronic pain...so my body decided to give itself more pain because it couldn’t deal with the pain it was already going through??? And my stress and anxiety is subconscious so I don’t even feel like I’m stressed...
Also, I’ve been trying to find a therapist because that’s the way to treat it and I’ve called at least 15 therapists this week and I can’t get an appointment 😭 and I’ve never been to therapy so I’m just nervous about that too
Also if anyone was wondering I have dermatomyositis (autoimmune disease), endometriosis, chronic migraine, fibromyalgia and trigeminal neuralgia 🙃👍