#deeppeach

Things I'll never get closure for:

I'm not angry because of rejection. I'm angry I trusted someone with my heart who was so careless with it to begin with.

But of course, no one really has your best interest at heart. They'll tell you how special you are and how beautiful the world is that you exist. And throw your feelings and being to the streets once they see your vulnerable side.

I'm sad I thought you were like me; different. Considerate of those who wanted to be there.

And today I say goodbye to the person I didn't want to let go of, but who easily let me disappear. I hope you take care of yourself.

I'm not sure if our paths will cross again, I feel this time has been for lessons and transitions only. So perhaps not.

But I'm happy to have had this opportunity to know my worth and take action; proud of myself for knowing my worth occasionally💜.

Better days will come🌼

Sincerely,

This weekend was pure bliss and I couldn't help but feel extremely grateful to be alive and who I am today. Not that every other day I wish I was dead, but I went 2 whole without saying "Kill me" lol.

I feel accomplished for driving 5 hours to and from Moab, and all through the valley while there! Up at 2am til 11pm driving, then hiking then camping. Tried desperately for night photos and got the moon, but no stars unfortunately!

We hiked Mill Creek, Corona/Bowtie Arches, Lions Park, and Arches National Park! Also did some off roading with subie was super intenseeeee.

While at Lions/Arches our tent broke in the wind and it was extremely windy so we had to pack up camp the 2nd night. But to enjoy the last bits of our trip, we went to Glenwood at 7pm to hot spring before our drive Sunday.

I love that I'm finding people who make the best of situations and truly live in the moment rather than focusing on a mistake or really anything that could prevent you from being happy.

Fulfillment is through perseverance and accomplishing dreams, and I'm feeling the radiance of my decisions entirely.

Will be visiting Utah here in the coming months! Already in love🥰

PS: Utah is insanely green right now!

Love,

Today, I hiked 5.6 miles at Mt. Vernon on 2 hours of sleep. And all I'm thankful for currently is how much hiking has improved my mental💜. I've been down and depressed with my existence, and sometimes that's the only thing that saves me. The clarity of walking through pure hills of snow and the dead silence of the forest. It's soul touching, and the trek regards me with strength. I heard a frog croaking, on the 1st day of spring! Such a great start to the Spring Equinox💫. Many things I've taken for granted lately.

So fortunate to have something that brings me to life like this whenever I'm feeling defeated💜

Love,