#dee life

How many times Have I abandoned my page?? Way too many and I feel terrible. Work was the worst always waking up at 5-6 am and working from 7 am to 3 pm packing boxes and all the heavy lifting always left me exhausted, when I inally left the job I had a pretty rough time and just recently have I been getting up on my feet. 

Im looking for work again although Ive had no luck I hope something bites and I can start saving to help at home more since we just moved from renting a house to a more affordable apartment.

while playing around with my theme I somehow ended up loosing it and I had to find a new one I liked, I guess Im satisfied with what I came up with, but its not %100 it’ll grow on me I guess.

So uh, next Friday is my birthday, and a great birthday present would be getting a job at this interview I have on Monday I’ve heard good things about it, its cleaning offices or something, and honestly the way things are going I’ll take anything I can.

I dont mind cleaning and stuff like that, and the only thing that is a bit bothersome is that its an afternoon job 5 to 10 pm 

Im kinda back??? it has been a while hasnt it?

My computer wehnt through a big reboot and p much nothing was saved, not my wallpapers, my notes, firealpaca, sai, not even my tablet program all is zero and not even word is in my computer, right now I’m very slowly getting them back, so far I got chrome, and then I have to get FA back and I have to find my tablet’s model to download and then MAYBE I’ll do something.

Life hasnt been easy, I left my job and I havent found one yet and money is short, Im close to getting one I guess. But mom isnt very patient and is always urging me to get a job and even made me apply for ei- still waiting for that one.

I guess things are going ok here at home, though mom misplaced my comps charger in an attempt to ‘ground’ me for finishing my shower at eleven at night (when most of the time she showers and comes out almost at midnight) she moved stuff around her room and now I have to remind her everyday to look for my cable to which she says she will but that was three weeks ago.

At work things have gotten rly stressing since my ‘patrner’ never stops talking and just wasted everyone's time but I guess its only me since all the women at work like to talk in their language which we arent even supposed to do.

I think at work im staring to be seen as a joke with the lasied poking my stomach even when I ask them not to, I finally snapped at the lady that did it the most and I am staring to just not talk with the lady that works besides me, all I do right now is go to work from 7 am to 3 pm and the get home walk the dog eat feed the dog and the spend the rest of the day in my bed, work is that tiring and so stressing. I guess I should be looking for a new job? talk to a supervisor that I dont like the people I work with? Be changed only to be with someone who is exactly the same?

Ugh. In a better note I guess Im slowly getting better at customizing dolls?? although my first try was horrible my third one is looking a bit better. soon I might be brave enough to re-paint one...

i havent even been doing my ask blog (sorry steph)

i cant even make youtube vids (what ive been doing instead of tumbling all the time)

so tired.

so, so, tired. 

just want me some royai fluff, and movies QwQ/

i want to do volunteer work, i want to travel the world

but i also want to have a cosplay and prop and art shop and make videos everyday...

i dont know what to do.