#wayward

EVERYONE SHUT UP WAYWARD HAS A TRANS MAN MAIN CHARACTER

i can’t sleep. i woke up at 2 a.m tapos hindi na talaga makabalik sa pagtulog. gutom na gutom din ako but i don’t want to wake up d.

i am using old spice “captain” soap bar and i am so loving it! grabe ang bango even after pagpawisan. it kinda smells powdery pa, which i really really love, after a while. palagi na rin kaming magka amoy ni d. ganito gawain ko noong nasa eastwood pa kami, lalo na kapag nasa work at namimiss ko siya. ginagamit ko ung old spice shower gel niya. buti nga ngayon, napilit ko siyang mag bar soap nalang instead of shower gel. bukod kasi sa mas mura, mas matagal din maubos at guilt-free kapag ginagamit ko. lol.

all i did today was sleep. i’m not sure why. maybe it’s because of my hormones, or maybe because ever since kohi arrived, i haven’t been getting much sleep. so ngayon, i guess my body is trying to catch up. i feel so exhausted, drained, and tired. gusto ko lang matulog nang matulog. i’m mentally and emotionally okay, but my body is screaming for sleep talaga. i don’t even have an appetite (nagugutom lang ako kapag nandito na si d from his ojt).

do you ever watch a life changing show at 5am and not have anyone to tell

i can feel myself slowly healing from everything i went through last year. knowing me, i thought it would take more time since i always tend to drown myself in what happened. pero ngayon, hindi ko alam kung dahil sa pagdating ni kohi o dahil sobra din ako alagaan at intindihin ni daniel, kaya pakiramdam ko nagiging okay na ako. and i really, really like this kind of feeling. mabagal, malumanay, pero may progress.