Your ask already gives away the central thing about you. You open with excitement about someone else’s deductions before immediately asking for your own, but the wording collapses together into couldypudomeplease, as if you and I are in a real life conversation and you half-expect me to ignore it.

Your entire blog reads like someone trying to convert internal chaos into external structure before it overwhelms them. It is funny on the surface, but underneath it there is exhaustion baked into the phrasing.

What I noticed is that you build identity through accumulation.

Most people make intros by summarising themselves. You make intros by stacking details until a silhouette forms. Pronouns, fandoms, wolves, musicals, shapeshifters, playlists, userboxes, random phrases about skin theft, Australia in all caps, MAO, Tangotek obsession, commissions, ancient mythology, werewolves, body horror jokes, mutual affection, sleep problems, Minecraft rain. None of these individually define you. Together they do.

That tells me you do not experience yourself as one clean, stable category. You experience yourself as a constellation of hyperfixations, moods, aesthetics, jokes, attachments, and emotional fragments that only make sense when viewed together.

Your communication style is deeply social, but in a very specific way. You are constantly trying to reduce friction between yourself and others (your ask is a good example). You explain your nicknames, explain your phrasing, explain your boundaries, explain your commissions, explain your tags, explain your comfort levels. That usually comes from someone who has spent a long time worrying about being misunderstood, too intense, or accidentally rude.

Therapy time because I'm like that: Don't give a fuck. Who are they to care? It's your life. Frolic around.

Anyways back to the deduction:

Yet despite all that explaining, you are not restrained at all emotionally.

You yell in text. You exaggerate constantly. You repeat phrases for rhythm. You use absurd humour to soften darker thoughts. 'Talking about hiding the body' exists right next to 'I love asks!' and 'cats >:3' (honestly? real twin). Everything gets thrown into the same emotional soup and somehow still remains coherent.

The strongest pattern throughout your blog is attachment.

Not just liking things. You do not casually enjoy creators or fandoms. You imprint on them. The title is 'I am crashing out over this end', which is most probably a Minecraft reference (I only know the Unstable smp so I can't. really be sure). The way you talk about TangoTek specifically is almost protective, like excitement becomes loyalty in your brain. You repeatedly frame interests in emotional terms rather than analytical ones. You don’t engage halfway.

That same intensity applies to people.

You repeatedly emphasise mutuals, asks, interaction, tagging, community, nicknames. Even your commissions are framed less like transactions and more like collaborative enthusiasm. You want interaction to feel alive. You want evidence that people are present with you, not just near you.

The shapeshifter, vampire, werewolf, goblin, monster imagery is not random fandom residue either. It all points toward the same underlying thing: discomfort with stable personhood. You consistently gravitate toward identities that are mutable, hidden, transformed, or partially inhuman. Not because you genuinely think you are nonhuman in a literal sense necessarily, but because those metaphors feel more accurate than rigid social categories do.

You also have a very obvious sensory and emotional orientation toward the world. Music, rain sounds, textures, aesthetics, old-fashioned clothing, Minecraft ambiance, playlists, visual boards. You organise emotion through atmosphere.

And then there’s the exhaustion.

Buried underneath all the humour and capslock and feral goblin energy(?) is someone who sounds perpetually overstimulated. You mention insomnia, anxiety suspicions, crashing out, inconsistency, forgetfulness, feeling trapped, not knowing who you are anymore. But instead of collapsing inward, you externalise all of it into performance, community, jokes, and creation.

You present yourself simply, almost to the point where it feels intentional. 'Hello'. 'Lily'. No dramatics, no layered irony, no attempt to stand out immediately, unlike some blogs I deduced. Which is not a lack of personality. It's restraint. You are choosing not to overwhelm people at first contact, which usually means you are more comfortable revealing things gradually rather than all at once.

Your ask follows the same pattern. You make the request, then immediately give me an out. That is politeness, yes, but it is also risk management. You are reducing the chance of rejection feeling personal by framing it as optional from the start. You are not unsure of what you want. You are careful about how you ask for it. And you got it, so. Win-win :D

Your blog itself is deliberately unstructured. You state outright that there is no set theme and that you will post whatever you feel like. That is not laziness. It is flexibility. You are allowing your interests to shift without locking yourself into a single identity too early. Given that you are writing multiple novels and exploring different creative outlets, that makes sense. You are still in the phase where exploration matters more than consistency.

The way you describe your skills is very specific. 'Beginner level, please don’t assume I’m good'. 'Very slowly learning how to draw'. Some may say it's false modesty, but to me it looks like expectation control. You are making sure no one builds you up to a level you feel you cannot meet yet. You would rather be underestimated than disappoint someone who expected more.

At the same time, you are clearly ambitious. Writing two novels, even if one is paused due to writer’s block, is not casual. You care about storytelling enough to commit to long-form projects, even when progress is inconsistent. The fact that you openly call a whole paragraph 'irrelevant' because of writer’s block shows that you are a little frustrated with your own pace, but not enough to quit. You are still holding onto the projects.

Your interests are wide but not random. Sharks, music, fandoms, writing, language learning. There is a pattern of curiosity and quiet fascination rather than intensity. You are drawn to things because you like them, not because they fit a particular image. That gives your blog a kind of soft, drifting aesthetic rather than a sharply defined one.

Now this is. going to be either very accurate or very wrong. so.

I would say that you have a slightly offbeat way of engaging with the world that is more sensory and internal than socially reactive. You latch onto things because they feel right, whether that is the way something looks, sounds, or flows, rather than because of how others perceive it. You are not always tuned into subtle social signals, which would makes things like flirting or reading intent more difficult than they probably should be. Your attention doesn’t like staying still for long too, so you may often fidget or daydream. You spend a lot of time in your head, building scenarios, stories, or just letting your thoughts drift alongside music, which I dare say would be one of the more consistent anchors in your routine.

You present yourself as directionless, but not in a helpless way. 'No Idea What I Am Doing' sounds chaotic on the surface, yet the way you actually post suggests something quieter. You are not spiraling. You are drifting, and there is a difference. Drifting implies movement without a strict plan, but still with awareness of where you are at any given moment.

Your ask is loud compared to the rest of your presence. Multiple question marks, no softening, no apology. That tells me you are comfortable jumping into interaction when you feel like it, even if your usual posting style is more observational. You do not overthink every interaction, only the ones that matter.

Your content splits cleanly into two modes. One is everyday commentary, which reads as humour but also carries a trace of self-awareness. The second mode is fandom engagement, where you focus on whatever has currently captured your attention, hence nowadays, it's Paris the musical. That suggests you move through interests in phases rather than maintaining a fixed set of long-term obsessions. Hence your username.

Judging by your overall posting style of your irl interactions, I think you are not overly defensive, but you do pay attention to how others perceive you, even if you respond with humour instead of direct confrontation.

You do not have an intro post, which usually means one of two things. Either you do not feel the need to define yourself for others, or you have not decided how to yet. Given the rest of your blog, it leans toward the first. You are not trying to package yourself into something easily understood. You are letting your posts accumulate into a picture over time. Which is bad news for me apparently :'D

Adding on to this, the first thing I noticed about your blog was that you barely customised it. People will usually insert a silly little header image, change the blog title's font, add a blog description, etc etc, but you minimised those changes. Which tells me that you really don't care how you come off the first time; you prefer making your identity clear whilst interacting.

Your ask button being simply 'Ask things' fits that pattern. It is neutral, functional, and not particularly expressive. You are open to interaction, but you are not trying to shape how it happens beyond the basics. That suggests a preference for low-pressure communication rather than highly curated social dynamics.

You don’t hesitate when you present yourself. You stack identity, fandoms, opinions, boundaries, and jokes all in one place and just… let it sit there. That is not subtle, but it is honest. You are not trying to curate a mysterious or aesthetic persona. You are trying to make sure people get the full picture quickly so they don’t misread you.

The way you write is loud on purpose. The caps, the repetition, the slightly chaotic phrasing like “BUBBLE IS MY PRIDE AND JOY HE IS THE WONDERFUL” is not just excitement. It is emphasis. You want people to feel your interests, not just register them. That kind of expression usually comes from someone who is used to being very enthusiastic and not always being taken seriously for it, so instead of toning it down, you lean into it harder.

At the same time, your boundaries are very clear, and much sharper than your tone might suggest. You explicitly state that you are a minor, you tell adults not to be weird, you reject hateful behavior, and you set limits on what kinds of asks you will respond to. That is not random. That is awareness. You know that being open and expressive online comes with risks, and you are trying to control those risks in a very direct way. Good good.

Your identity section shows that you are in an active process of figuring things out, but you are not confused in a passive way. You are experimenting, labelling, adjusting, and even joking about the labels themselves. Saying 'maybe that’s a form of aroace, idk' is not ignorance. It is flexibility. You are allowing yourself to refine your understanding instead of forcing it into something fixed too early.

Your interests span a mix of darker media and more playful or mainstream fandoms, which suggests you are drawn to strong emotional or dramatic storytelling, but you do not limit yourself to one tone. You can engage with something intense like “I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream” and then immediately pivot to something more chaotic or humourous. That range is is curiosity, I think.

The way you include your religion and then immediately clarify your political stance is particularly telling. You are aware that people make assumptions, and you are pre-emptively correcting them. That shows a level of social awareness that goes beyond the rest of your chaotic presentation. You are managing how others might interpret you.