Dear Future Self:
I hope you were able to get the job you've been dreaming of. I also hope your kids are doing well and that you've become a better mom. Things are difficult right now, there's a virus going around that's preventing me from working, it's also preventing me from doing activities with the baby and hanging out with my friends.
I hope you're better mentally, cause to be honest I'm struggling. It's been two months since my dad passed and I miss him. I spent my birthday crying, waiting for his call, waiting to hear his voice saying "happy birthday mija, I love you so much" like the many times he'd done before. I miss him, and I'm sure you miss him too. Each birthday, Thanksgiving and Christmas, all those holidays you'll miss him cause he was always there. I hope you teach your kids about him. He wasn't always bad, he had some good times, like when we played rugby and he supported us through it all.
Future Rae, I hope you've reached your health goals, remember there's people counting on you. Remember that your family is always there for you. Remember they're the reason you started, they'll be there to push you forward. Remember it's a journey so it won't always be easy but try your best and that will be good enough.
Remember to BREATHE, parenting, being a wife and working isn't easy, but you can do it. You're strong enough to handle it.
You are strong.
You are beautiful.
You are smart.
You can do it.
