#dear sam

Sam, sniffing: Do you smell that mister Frodo?

Frodo: What is it?

Pairing: Sam X Reader

Word count: 650

Warning: Angst, self harm

A/N: Phew! Been a while right? I am on training wheels again, so please bear with me and let me know how this is?

14th August 2018

Dear Sam,

I…. Geez, I think I am drunk as fuck??? But, tell you what? My grammar is still fucking impeccable, isn't it? Well, that's what I get for being a lit major now. I can imagine the look of Professor Astor's face as he would bend down over me with that shriveled face and thick horn-rimmed glasses and go, "You got mad talent Y/L/N. You know that?"    

Hello again. So I have to be honest. I think the catalyst for creating a blog to was to better articulate some of the issues I've been having with my relationship. First, some background, I have been in a relationship going on 5 months now and I suck :P Seriously I've been having a hard time navigating my emotions and how best to express myself in this relationship. This is my first relationship and it is becoming very apparent that I do not have any idea what I'm doing. This makes sense since this is a first-time thing for me I just tend to think I should know everything, which proves to be its own challenge. But I digress. I feel as though I am actively hurting our relationship. See, I love Sam. Very much. I feel that my absence of a romantic partner or even success in my platonic friendships hurt him and I hate that. I hate that it reflects in our relationship. I understand that I should give myself more grace with such a new experience but I often find myself wishing that it wasn't such a costly toll on each of us.

I shared with him the other night a scary thought, but a thought that remains true. "I don't think I was ready for a relationship when we first met." I'd say most people have their first relationship at much younger ages than me a 22-year-old. (yes, this is stupid) I just wish I had a few other relationships under my belt to make mistakes with rather than risk losing the love of my life. I wish I was just better prepared for him. I hate subscribing him to someone insecure and naive in love. I let my past relationships and trauma infect our relationship like mold on last week's leftovers but refuse to toss it out. -The dilemma: I hurt someone I claim to care about but I cannot even begin to think of a world without him. Is this selfish? Or am I putting complete faith in my man?

Neuer Wandschmuck - Poster von Dear Sam | mitkindkegelundkaffee.de Heute habe ich wunderschöne Poster für euch + einen Rabattcode. Seid gespannt!

Hallo zusammen. es wurde mal wieder Zeit für neue Poster. Da kam Dear Sam genau zur richtigen Zeit auf mich zu. Und da der Herbst kurz bevorsteht (oder schon da ist), habe ich mir gleich mal ein paar herbstliche Poster samt den passenden wunderschönen Rahmen herausgesucht. Neue Wandbilder Dear Sam hat so viel Auswahl, dass mir die Auswahl wirklich schwer fiel. Ich habe mich für wunderschöne…