#damnthoughts

I know it's been a very old and cliche thoughts.. what if the people who's with me now not the one who will be my forever? Why it so sudden? So there must be a background story for it.. About 4 months before.. i got a flashback which was quite weird. I've never experienced it. I've never want it either.. In the time when I got a partner, I love him, We just all fine.. I got this flash, in my mind, to someone, a guy that I met in my fresh year of college. "He will be mine for good" Just like a SNAP! And DAMN! I was shocked and hated that thought. I feel bad as well.. There must be a scientific explanation to this. I need to logically accept this. Finger cross, I won't be a b*tch to my partner

Akala ko pag inUnfriend ko na sya, wala na, mawawala na ang feelings ko para sa kanya. Alam ko naman kasing infatuation lang to e :( Kasi pag nakikita ko sya, saka lang naman ako kinikilig. Pero bakit ganun? Saka naman sya pumasok ng araw araw, tapos pinansin pa nya ako :( At inasikaso ko naman sya :( Tapos napansin nya effort ko FINALLY! After 10 months, ngayon lang sya nagThank you sa effort ko <3 Tapos saka ko nanaman malalaman na may girlfriend nga sya. E ano ba naman kasi ang pakealam nya sakin, e sino ba naman kasi ako :( Bwiset naman oh :'( Hindi naman dapat ako nasasaktan diba? E kasi hindi naman naging kami, at 10 months ago lang naman simula nung nagkakilala kami. :'( Pero bakit ganito? ANG SAKIT SAKIT :'( Yung sakit e unbearable :'( Alam mo yun, yung tipong ang sakit e higit pa sa sobra </3 Di ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman :'( Di ko naman sya masisi kasi ako lang naman ang nag-assume :'( Di naman sya nagpakita ng motibo. AKO LANG TALAGA TONG NAG-ASSUME :'( 

At first I thought she was just a girl like me; a girl that's just crazy for you, dying for your fucking attention. But then the words came from her and started telling me that she' your girl. For a couple of days or weeks I pity her for saying that? Why? Because I thought she's just assuming. But then I saw it in my own eyes that you two are really together. I'm not supposed to hurt this much, because you showed me that I shouldn't expect anything from you. I don't wanna cry because of this shitty thing but I don't know why these tears are rushing down my face. Now, I pity myself finding out that i'm the one who really assumed a lot to be liked by you. I thought you were my remedy but the truth is you're my tragedy.