i wish i wasn't triggered so bad by "good" aus of me. aus where my family adopted me much younger. seeing my brothers taking care of me as a baby should be sweet. its not. it makes me feels sick. it makes me feel like people would prefer if i had not been raised as I was. I'm sorry that my harshness is only endearing if its seen as a character quirk, and not a product of severe trauma. I'm sorry i was a murderer at age 10, im sure thats unpleasant to think about, but its what my life was.
I guess i spent so long feeling like my family wished I could be different. people who'd prefer to push the darker parts of me aside and pretend they weren't there. but I had to live with them. I didn't get to be raised by my loving father, I was raised by my genocidal grandfather who wanted me to be a weapon. that was my reality. I don't like that some wish to change it. i'd much prefer if i were just accepted with that as much of a part of myself as my sarcasm and my arrogance and my love of animals. none of those happened in a vacuum. the charming parts of me only exist because of what I endured. stop pretending it didn't happen.
-Damian Wayne (dc comics)