#cry inside

TW: LOSS OF A PET, SADNESS, VENTING, GENERAL CONFUSION AND MINOR CRISIS

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If my life couldn't get any more messed up, today I lost my therapy pet...

I can't get over it.

I live in Poland, and we've had a long-standing problem with wild boars here.

They often came onto my property and caused damage, but today they attacked my pigeon.

Yes, my therapy pet was a pigeon named Andrzej.

I had him for a month.

I loved him like a brother and a best friend.

He really helped me with my depression and bipolar disorder.

He calmed my nerves and taught me to care for another life.

But now he's gone, and I feel terrible.

I feel like lying down and never getting up.

I'm starting to hate everything around me again.

I love you so much, god. Forgive me for questioning you but where were you? I felt abandoned.

I feel dirty… could you take that nightmare away from me? Please... I don't see myself like before