#crossbow killer

I feel like Helena being touchstarved is a pretty widely accepted headcanon

Helena is definitely awkward when it comes to meeting new people and especially when it comes to interacting with someone she's attracted towards

The more she cares about you and actually wants to touch you, the more awkward and irritable she is going to become

Helena grew up in a very large, tight knit family, all of whom were taken abruptly away from her when she was in, like, middle school

Helena was fairly traumatized by the whole ordeal (obvi) and it stunted her ability to really make relationships

She avoided new relationships at first because she didn't want anything to get the in the way of her revenge. But after achieving her goals, she realized that she couldn't form a relationship with anyone even if she tried

At least not just "anyone"

Her friends were different. Margarita night with the Birds helped her get out of her shell. She ended up living with Harley for a little while and this really did wonders for her no touch policy

Harley is the type of friend that hugs and kisses on others, which was jarring for Helena at first but she got used to it

When you entered the picture, Helena was really really frustrated by the fact that she couldn't just be casual

Helena watched Dinah flirt effortlessly with men and women at bars and clubs, never having a problem with the closness or the touching

And Helena has always felt somewhat threatened by Dinah; relationship wise. She's always worried you'll end up choosing Dinah one day

So she's just a mess like all the time

Helena really feels like Dinah could offer you so much more

She doesn't like that Dinah is stable. She's definitely envious of the way Dinah has held herself together even after everything she's been through

Dinah is quite literally one of Helena's best friends in the entire world. Helena would take a bullet for Dinah. But she is still jealous of her

Helena isn't confident that she can be a good partner for you

She thinks that you should be living a normal, fun life somewhere get away from crime syndicates and mob bosses

Dinah is spunky and fierce and sexy, so why wouldn't you like her? What makes Helena better than Dinah?

She's ALWAYS going to be afraid of losing you

You didn't realize the extent of Helena's problem and decided to initiate a kiss on your own, which ended sort of awkwardly

Helena abruptly stopped you and said she had to go do something, sounding weirdly like Patrick Bateman. So she just left the apartment at midnight and didn't return until the morning, but she brought breakfast and coffee as an apology

Helena was always very tense around you

Always hunched and with taut shoulders

She probably needs to see a chiropractor

She couldn't relax, no matter what

Harley recommended alprazolam but was then removed from the conversation

The first course of action is to just become a daily constant in Helena's life. Really dig your heels in there even if she tries pushing you away

Once she's accepted the fact you're never leaving then she'll ease up

Helena realizes very quickly that she's a physical person and that's so hard for her because she's so afraid to hold you

She spends many a nights laying with you on the bed, her head on your chest as you help her calm down

Please understand what I mean when I say that majority of her physical interactions with others have been comically violent so she doesn't know if she's even capable of being gentle and soft

I forget a lot that Helena basically was apart of the mafia/mob and actively fights in Gotham or Jump or wherever the hell BoP takes place

I wholeheartedly believe that Helena is scared of ruining everything she lays a hand on

Once Helena really becomes comfortable around you, you're done for

It's constant touching all the time

She always wants to be near you

When her anxiety is bad, just hold her

She loves skinship. She likes to bathe with you and just hold you in her arms, or vise versa, absorbing all your warmth and the smell of your perfume

She just feels safe when she's touching you. She feels secure

She panics if she wakes up in the middle of the night and she doesn't feel you, somehow

She is a cuddly sleeper

Give her massages 🥴🥴🥴

I simply want to massage Helena's problems away