#crazy rants

I was going to go mop, but I didn’t want to do it near the restrooms because there were some old people (maybe two of them with a cane) and the rest had a hard time walking. So I wanted to be nice and start away from them and away from the doors so when they leave they don’t slip and fall. I’m always afraid that they’ll fall, even if I put up caution, wet signs.

Either way, I grab the mop and my co-worker asked where I normally start. I told them near the bathrooms, but I wanted to start away from the older ladies and gentlemen so they didn’t slip and fall and so I was going to start near the far corner of the restaurant away from doors and the elder people. They just snorted at me and told me in a snippy voice just to put a caution wet sign their area and near the doors. If they slip and fall it’s their own damn fault and that they were stupid for not looking.

Look, I understand but they are older and have a hard time moving to begin with. What if someone had a hard time seeing? What if someone was in a genuine rush because of a multitude of things? I know they’ve been their awhile, but at least be polite? I work front line and it’s hard being nice and polite sometimes, but at least I SMILE. They NEVER smile at a customer nor do they check what they want. I’ve seen them mess up maybe two or three orders and the people at drive through had to go and come to me to tell me that their order is wrong and then I get scolded at because I’m the new person and it’s clearly my fault. The fuck? I’m just-they really pushed my button and they really are not nice. Some of my co-workers, ass-holes at times but at least they are alright most of the time, my customers are mostly lovely people and I’ve made quick friends with the regulars.

I was thinking of me, going to college. How much different it will be. Away from my family, my friends. From everything I have known. I will going on a different road, to be honest, I have no idea where I’m going. I’m just following where the wind takes me. What my mind makes up. I’ve think of all my past and future friendships. I follow the road where I feel is right and yet I’m scared to stray from the road I known all my life. I’m going to be in a small college, in a small town, hundred miles away from home and I feel completely stress. I traveled a lot; however, it’s been with people I known forever. I’m going to be by myself.  I’m going to only see my family on Christmas and Summer Break.

Then, I have to remember. This is a part of being an adult. I have to bid them Fair well; however, only for a little while. I won’t ever forget them and with the internet it makes them ever more closer.

Yet I’ll miss their hugs, their smiles, and their love. The love and smile I feel in real life. The thing I’m most thankful is I got to meet three good and lovely internet friends in real life. I can consider them real live friends and I got to hug them and I got to see them smile.With my friends from school, I still get to seem them someday, I pray at least. I’m not sure about my graduated class; however, the ones that I know have at least one year more.

I still don’t know where the road is taking me...yet...despite me being scared, I’m glad as well. I’m glad I’m trying something new and scary for me.