#cptsd system

almost like endogenic systems are real people who's "Plurality" affects their Personhood... almost like they're not a fictional concept, the world is made of pudding, and identity is not a simple belief you can beat yourself out of. and almost like they are not invulnerable to psychosis episodes or dissociative episodes, cuz of fucks like y'all saying, "Do you exist? can you trust your own "beliefs" on Who You Are?! are you sure you are Real?!" ssshut the fuck up. Fuck you mean, "it's kinda like if discussing whether God Exists"? have you ever talked to God, like you can do with endogenics by simply not being an arrogant fuck-up? I am surrounded by ableists in anti-ableism community. It's crazy how exclusive y'all are towards mixed origins and people having complicated/complex self-expressions. I could go on, but I want to doodle more.

(yes, questions are welcome)

And our sys-teens are typically persecutors or holders of negative emotions too. I think it depends on age? If it's 12 to 15 year old, it's more likely a persecutor or trauma holder again, cuz that's around the time we were most isolated. We rarely have exact ages, so it's kinda vague, but like. I think we have only one positive sys-teen out of 70+ headcount, who is exactly 16 year old without being just in an age range, unsure, or agefluid. Man, this is bullshit.

also i think i like animals more dan humans (i stil tend to be abusiv, but not as much as toward myselves or ppl). wow da misanthropy holder can haf normal thoughts. i wan to take a walk in da rain...