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Lost in thought Alec almost walked straight into the huge black door. He stopped before hitting the door and he took a quick step back, his heart beating fast, this was a risk, he was early. He knocked on the door, five rapid knocks. He always used that knock to signal who it was. Within seconds the door was open by Magnus Bane, one of the most powerful warlocks in the world. Oh, and also the most beautiful, sexy, man Alec had ever laid eyes on. Today he was dressed in a deep blue shirt with black chinos with two gold strands from the hip, down to his ankle. The shirt wasn’t buttoned all the way up, revealing his chest, causing Alec to lick his lips. Magnus looked at Alec with a confused face.

”Is anyone else in there?” Alec whispered, his eyes moving all over Magnus, from his sharp jawline, to his eyes with black eyeliner around them, down toward his adam’s apple.

”No.” Magnus shook his head, a smug smile on his face. He was perfectly aware of what was going through Alec’s mind. ”But you’re ea..” Magnus never got the chance to finish his sentence before Alec had taken one step inside the door, pushing Magnus up against the wall. Pinning Magnus between his body and the wall, kissing him hard. The first two seconds or so, Magnus was surprised, caught off guard by Alec’s sudden move, however he recovered quickly, kissing the other man back, wrapping his arms around him, pressing him closer. Their hands hungry for more, touching every inch of each other. Magnus moved his kisses down, stopping a second on Alec’s jaw before moving down to his neck, kissing along the deflect rune on his throat, making Alec moan. Magnus smiled as he felt Alec’s long fingers start working with all the small buttons on his shirt and he started tracing the rune with the tip of his tongue, knowing it would drive Alec mad. This time his moan was louder and his fingers clenched around his shirt.

”Rip it.” Magnus growled in Alec’s ear nibbling on it. The shadowhunter wasted no time and easily ripped Magnus’ shirt open and dove down, starting to kiss, suck and lick along Magnus’ abs. It was Magnus’ time to moan and his hands gripped Alec’s hair for more leverage. As Alec made his way back up toward Magnus’ head, he tried to catch his breath. He couldn’t show Alec just how much power he held over him, how much he craved him and only him. Their people were sworn enemies, this could only be physical, some really amazing sex, that was all. Magnus knew it wouldn’t last long, he’s surprised that it has lasted this long. But Alec kept coming back, kept craving more. Magnus guessed it wasn’t just because Magnus was hot, he was positive that it mainly depended on that shadowhunters was homophobic, that Alec would never get what he wanted, that soon he’d be forced to marry a woman. He felt bad for Alec, he wasn’t like other shadowhunters. Magnus also knew how it felt to be forced, he’d been alive for decades so he’d seen and felt homophobia throughout the ages.

”Bedroom. Now.” Magnus growled pushing Alec back.

”No.” Alec denied with a husky voice, surprising Magnus. Alec rarely protested. Magnus didn’t know what to say or how to react, but he didn’t have to, Alec only waited a second before pushing Magnus back against the wall, holding his hands above his head with one hand while he unbuttoned Magnus’ pants with the other.

Alec was wrapping a towel around his waist, his hair dripping water but he didn’t care, it was an excuse to stay a little longer, he loved spending time with Magnus. He’d never admit that to him though, he knew he’d never get to come back if he did. Alec played along, pretended it was all physical and nothing more.

”So you decided to save some of my water” Alec heard a voice from behind, he turned around to see Magnus in the doorway, arms crossed. ”I’m starving.” he was now in a red silk robe, loosely tied around his waist. It was so sexy that Alec wanted to do a rerun of what they’d just done. ”You want some food too?”

Alec nodded, he knew he was probably supposed to be going soon, he couldn’t be away for too long. It’s just that, this was the first time that Magnus had asked him to stay after they’d had sex. It gave Alec a tiny spark of hope that Magnus might have feelings too, ignoring the fact that it wouldn’t matter, they could never be together. ”Great, I have some left over pizza.” Magnus smiled and walked out of the room. Alec put on his clothes before joining Magnus in his kitchen, sitting down on the opposite side of the table, grabbing a slice.

”Any specific reason as to why you came early?” Magnus asked while Alec took a bite of the pizza. ”And why you were so .. eager?” Magnus raised an eyebrow and smiled.

”Valentine pissed me off.” Alec sighed, he spoke as quiet as he could, he was afraid that someone would hear it and report back to Valentine or the Clave. There was absolute no reason as to why someone in the downworld district would eavesdrop on a powerful warlock and then report Alec to the Clave, still, he didn’t dare to say it too loud.

”Well, he pisses me off daily.” Magnus scoffed.

”He announced a new rule.” Alec sighed, his face fell, there was deep sadness in his eyes that made Magnus’ heart ache. ”Get married when you’re 18”

”But, you’re 20?” Magnus asked his face now serious.

”My parents will arrange a marriage for me but most of the shadowhunters in my age are already married.” Alec looked down on his lap, avoiding eye contact. Magnus could feel the pain in Alec, he knew why he wasn’t like the others in his age. It wasn’t that he’d been unlucky and haven’t met the right woman, it was the fact that Alec was gay, there wasn’t going to be a right woman. It broke Magnus’ heart, he knew what a marriage would mean for Alec.

”Oh.” Magnus said, he didn’t know what else to say, something that rarely happened.

”Anyway. I gotta go.” Alec sighed, still avoiding eye contact as he rose from the chair. ”Thanks for the pizza.” He added before walking past Magnus toward the door, it took a second for Magnus to process, Alec had always been so passionate, so full off emotions and now he seemed empty, he wasn’t himself and Magnus needed to do something about it.

”Alexander, wait.” Magnus said as he stood up but Alec didn’t even stop so he reached out and grabbed his arm, turning Alec around to face him. ”It’s going to be alright.”

”How? How is anything going to be okay?” Alec said with a strained voice, his face expressionless as he shook off Magnus’ hand. ”We’re stuck in a meaningless war and I’ll be stuck in a loveless marriage. It’s never going to be okay, not during my lifetime.” Magnus could see tears building up in Alec’s eyes, though he didn’t let them spill, he stood there with his soldier stone cold face, staring at Magnus. The only thing that gave him away was his hazel eyes filled with pain and anger, a silent scream.

”You can still see me?” Magnus whispered, he knew that Alec was right, but he wanted to comfort him, wanted Alec to think it would be all right.

”We both know that isn’t true.” Alec sighed, running a hand through his hair.

”Hey.” Magnus cupped Alec’s cheek with one hand, forcing him to look Magnus in the eyes. He even let his glamor drop, he didn’t do that with anyone except Alec, he wasn’t sure why. It was one thing that it happened when they had sex, when he lost control. ”We can find a way.” He whispered to Alec, keeping their eye contact, Magnus wanted to hold him, tell him it was going to be fine, but he didn’t. After all, their agreement were no feelings involved.

”Sure.” Alec sighed, moving away from Magnus. ”Should I come in two days as usual?” He asked as he continued towards the door.

”Sure.” Magnus tried to smile but it fell flat. ”Same time?”

”Yeah, sure.” Alec answered, not looking at Magnus as he pulled up his hood. Magnus sighed and snapped his fingers, making it possible for them to look through the door. It was their way of making sure that it wasn’t a ton of people outside, so that the wrong downworlder wouldn’t see Alec leave. There wasn’t a soul out there, much to Magnus’ disappointment.

”Guess I’ll see you soon then.” Magnus sighed, the last couple of months or so he’d been getting attached to Alec, he’d been falling in love even though he’d never admit that. Magnus wanted Alec to stay, he wanted to tell him to stay. At least he’d stayed a little longer due to Magnus offering food. Just as Alec was about to open the door he spun around, grabbing Magnus’ robe, pulling him in for a deep kiss. Magnus was too surprised to respond and when he finally registered what was happening it was over and Alec ran out of the door leaving Magnus frozen in chock. They didn’t do that, they didn’t kiss unless they were sex involved.

Alec ran to the border and when he’d crossed it he gave it all he had. That was until he almost ran straight into Raj.

”What are you doing?” Raj asked, taking a step back since Alec had frozen half an inch from him.

”I was just testing how fast you can run in this terrain.” It was a terrible lie, but it was the first one that Alec could think of. Raj looked at him a little suspicious.

”But why would you run from the border between downworlder and shadowhunter land? That’s not where you patrol.” Raj questioned and Alec silently cursed, couldn’t he just have ran into someone else? Anyone else really, he’d even prefer Clary over Raj, at least she wouldn’t ask so many questions.

”My father has talked about moving me here so I’m checking it out to be prepared.” Alec said, hoping that it would make Raj let go of it all. Raj still looked at him with suspicion but he nodded and left. Alec let out a breath of relief as soon as Raj was out of his sight and started walking back to the headquarters. This time he dragged his feet behind him, he didn’t want to go home, it didn’t even feel like home these days. It felt more like a prison, with his parents as prison guards and his siblings as fellow inmates, though they didn’t seem to hate it as he did, they seemed to love their life.

”Hey, big brother!” He heard a voice behind the bushes surrounding their house and as he walked inside their garden he saw Izzy.

”Hey.” Alec answered, trying to smile. But he’d fucked up with Magnus, he was scared of losing Magnus and the whole marriage thing, he didn’t know if he’d survive it.

”Cheer up brother.” Izzy smiled at him and looped her arm in his, putting her other hand on his arm. She started walking and Alec had no choice but to follow her. They walked towards the house in silence.

”I have some news for you.” Izzy stopped and let go of Alec, she sat down on the hammock on their front porch. When Alec stood frozen staring at her, Izzy raised an eyebrow and patted on the seat next to her signaling that he should sit down beside her.

”So what are the news?” He asked swallowing hard as he sat down next to his sister.

”I told our parents it would be better if I told you” Izzy sighed, she didn’t even try to smile and Alec’s heart threatened to jump out of his chest. ”They’ve found a girl for you to marry.” Izzy breathed, she was the only one that knew about his sexuality.

”Who?” Alec whispered, he didn’t dare to breath or move, his eyes fixed on his hands that was clenched together in his lap.

”Lydia Branwell.” Izzy answered. ”She’s pretty.” Alec knew that she was just trying to comfort him but he couldn’t help but scoff, it didn’t matter what she looked like, he wouldn’t be attracted to her, he would never love her. Alec felt sorry for Lydia, she would never be loved by him, it didn’t matter what she did or what she felt. His heart belonged to someone else, someone he’d never get to be with.

”I’ll play happy in front of mom and dad.” Alec sighed and let out his breath, he sank down in the hammock, resting his head on the edge, it wasn’t comfortable but he didn’t care, he wanted to throw up. He was going to have to marry a woman, so that he wouldn’t be a shame to the family, to the Lightwood name.

”I’m so sorry Alec.” She rubbed her neck and Alec saw in the corner of his eye how she tried to smile at him. ”I wish there was a way for you to get out of this.”

”Yeah.” He sighed. ”Is mom and dad waiting in there?”

”No, they’re in a meeting with the Clave.” She answered. They were in Valentine’s inner circle, there was only two people closer to Valentine, Lucian Greymark his parabatai and his wife Jocelyn Morgenstern. Yet another reason why he couldn’t refuse this marriage and probably the reason why they’d found a girl for him so fast.

”Great. I’ll go take a shower.” He said as he stood up.

”Alec!” He heard Izzy shout after him but he didn’t stop, he didn’t turn around. He pretended like he hadn’t heard her, he couldn’t keep it together much longer, he needed to get away. Alec practically ran up the stairs, through his room and into the bathroom where he tore off his clothes. When the warm water hit his face he let go of all the feelings he’d held inside, the tears streamed down his cheeks and he sank down, sitting under the water, crying and shaking.

The next day Lydia’s family came for dinner. Alec was nervous and kept thinking about Magnus. He wished that he could call him, talk to the only person who’d understand. During the day his mother and sister prepared him, tried to make him look as good as possible. Alec would rather die than go to this dinner. He wanted to be with Magnus, not Lydia and the only thing that got him through the day was knowing he’d see Magnus soon. He ignored the worries about Magnus being angry, it would be too much and he’d never keep it together. He pretended like everything was perfect between them, it was the only good thing he had.

Dinner was awful, Lydia was clearly still in love with her deceased husband. It seemed like she didn’t care about who Alec was, nor did her parents, it was a little relief. Though he felt used, they were clearly just going along with this to gain more power, after all, the Lightwoods were an influential family, always had been and their close connection with Valentine helped. The Branwell’s behavior made Alec uncomfortable. Throughout the entire dinner he just wanted it all to be over and when he finally thought it had come to an end, he was forced to take a walk with Lydia. Their parents insisted that they should have some alone time. Alec almost threw up from nerves.

Magnus was lying on his couch with a whiskey in his right hand, head resting in Catarina’s lap, one of his best friends and a fellow warlock. Cat had come over after a phone call from Magnus, panicking about how he was in love. So now he laid on his couch, a little drunk.

”Magnus, dear, what’s so horrible about being in love?” Cat sighed, he still hadn’t told her who he was in love with. It took a second until Cat gasped and said ”no, Magnus. Don’t tell me it’s that shadowhunter boy.”

”It’s not.” Magnus said, sitting up and taking a long sip from his glass.

”Jesus, Magnus.” Cat sighed. ”You’re in love with the enemy.”

”I am totally not.” Magnus muttered and Cat just scoffed at him.

”I think I’ll take one of those drinks now.” She shook her head as she spoke. Magnus had a habit of wanting the forbidden fruit but this was a new record, at least it had never been their enemy before. He’d never fallen in love with a shadowhunter, not even before this war began. Magnus reached for the whiskey and another glass, pouring Cat a glass and filling up his own, as he gave Cat her glass she sighed again. ”I told you it was a bad idea to start seeing that boy.” This comment made Magnus sigh, she always talked about stop seeing Alec before something bad happened. Though it was a little too late for that now. Cat stayed the rest of the day and together they drank, Magnus drowning his sorrows and Cat drowning her worries. At the end of the day Cat had to tuck in a passed out Magnus on his couch before she herself went to sleep in his bed.

Their walk had been awkward, they didn’t have anything in common. They barely talked at all and when they did it was a comment or two about the weather. When they’d gotten back their parents sat around a table on the terrace. They were excited and asked a million questions about their walk. Both of them lied at said it was great and that they’d had a lot to talk about. Lydia did it to gain power and Alec did it to make his parents proud.

That night Alec didn’t sleep much, he was tossing and turning in his bed, thinking about the future, about Magnus and Lydia, how Alec was supposed to make babies with her. He wasn’t even slightly attracted to her, how in the hell would that work? It made him sick and sent shivers through his body.

When Alec’s alarm clock rang he’d barely gotten two hours of sleep however he didn’t waste any time. He got up and threw on his training clothes, going for a jog before training. Alec’s whole day was counting down to when he’d get to see Magnus and avoiding his parents or rather their questions. To get some alone time Alec decided to go for an extra long jog that morning, causing him to be exhausted when he met up with Jace to train. During their whole training session Jace joked about how tired Alec was and if it had something to do with Lydia. Alec laughed and played along, because that was what was expected of him, however he knew that Jace could sense how unhappy he was, it wasn’t always great to have a parabatai.

Meanwhile Magnus was refusing to talk to Cat about anything that had to do with Alec. He just wanted to ignore it all, he knew that Alec would visit him later that day and he looked forward to it as well as dreading it. Magnus put extra time into his make up, he didn’t even know why he tried so hard, it was only Alec.

When the time finally come for Alec to start making his way toward Magnus he didn’t waste time, he ran out the door with a quick ”I’m going out” shout. As Alec made his way toward Magnus’, the warlock paced nervously in his home. Alec couldn’t help but smile as soon as he saw the black door, Magnus’ door. He barely had time to finish their secret knock before Magnus threw the door open and pulled him in shutting the door behind them. As soon as Magnus heard the door close behind him he cupped Alec’s face and kissed him, long and hard. It wasn’t like the kisses they’d shared before, kisses filled with desire, no this kiss was passionate in another way, it was filled with emotions and all the things neither of them could say. When Magnus pulled away Alec tried to catch his breath and before he knew it Magnus had turned away and was walking away.

”Magnus.” He breathed and realized that Magnus probably didn’t hear him. ”Magnus, wait.” This time he spoke louder and Magnus stopped. ”I .. I think .. ” Alec paused, taking a deep breath and licking his lips. ”I’minlovewithyou.” He said it so fast that he didn’t know if Magnus had understood him.

”Alexander.” Magnus whispered as he turned around, there was a deep sadness in his eyes, the kind of sadness you got after being alive for centuries, a deep rooted sadness after decades of pain. ”I’m in love with you too.” He sighed taking a step closer to Alec who did the same, they met halfway and Magnus put a hand on Alec’s bicep. ”But we can never be together, you know that right?”

”Yes.” Alec whispered, he wanted to hug him, kiss him, just hold onto him and never let go. ”I’m getting married.” Alec closed his eyes as he spoke, trying to focus on the hand on his arm, the warmth from it and the shape of it.

”I know, you told me.” Magnus sighed, rubbing his thumb along Alec’s arm.

”Yeah, but, my parents have found a wife.” Alec bit his lip, he still felt sick when he thought about marrying Lydia, someone who only wanted him to gain power, that he couldn’t tell no, because who else would marry him?

”Oh, Alexander. I’m so sorry.” Magnus shook his head, the sadness in his eyes grew, it was clear that he felt Alec’s pain. Magnus wrapped his arms around Alec, hugging him. Alec buried his nose in the crook of Magnus’ neck. Oh how he wished that he could stay here forever, that he wouldn’t have to go back, wouldn’t have to marry Lydia.

The rest of the time Alec stayed at Magnus’ was spent like usual. Though a new part was the kisses after sex, the hugs, the smiles, the little touches, all those small things couples did, that they hadn’t done before. Not that they would ever get to be a real couple. They were enemies, they should want to kill each other not fuck each other. But that had never been the case with them, ever since the first time they saw each other. They’d been chasing the same demon and it had almost gotten to Alec when Magnus came and blasted it with magic, weakening it so that Alec could push his seraph blade through it. Alec had been chocked that a downworlder had saved him, that a downworlder helped him kill a demon, he’d always been told that they protected demons. That was a lie of course, Alec knew that now. When their eyes met for the first time the air was knocked out of Alec, he’d never seen anyone so beautiful before. Magnus had asked if he was all right and told Alec his name, Alec barely had time to answer before he heard Jace shouting after him and Magnus portaled away. It should’ve been the end of their story, but Alec couldn’t stop thinking about the fabulous man that had saved him and after a day filled with fights, he found himself running through the woods and somehow he ended up outside of Magnus’ door. It had been dangerous and stupid, he hadn’t controlled his impulses and it could’ve gotten him killed, but Magnus let him come inside. He wasn’t thrilled about having a shadowhunter in his home but he said that he’d never been able to refuse a pretty boy and that was the start of their affair. Months later, they stood on the other side of the same door, the door that Alec had fled to, hugging and not wanting to let go, but Alec had to go home, he couldn’t be out too long, it would raise suspicion.

”I’ll try to come soon.” Alec mumbled into Magnus’ shoulder.

”I’ll cancel all afternoon clients, so you can come whenever.” Magnus whispered in Alec’s ear, giving him a quick kiss on the cheek. Alec let go of Magnus even though he didn’t want to and Magnus did his magic thing to check if there was someone outside, there wasn’t so Alec walked out of the door. He really didn’t want to go and this time he dragged his feet behind him, he wasn’t running like the last time. Something he probably should have done, but how could he know that he was being followed?

Shortly after Alec had left Magnus heard their secret knock on his door, he thought it was kind of odd. Maybe he’d forgotten something Magnus thought and opened the door.

”Alexander.” He said but before he had a chance to process what was happening he was beaten down to the ground and got some weird iron gloves on his hands that stopped his magic, he tried to fight but they were too strong. The blond boy and his female friend dragged him away. He saw the runes on their skin. Magnus tried to fight, praying that someone would see them. Shadowhunters had never had the balls to attack downworlders in their home before, they rarely attacked powerful ones at all, especially when they were just two.

Magnus noticed the border between downworlder and shadowhunter territory and swallowed hard.

”You do know that I can walk, right?” Magnus stated to the two shadowhunters dragging him by the arms.

”Then stand up you filth.” The boy said, pulling at Magnus’ arm so hard it felt like his shoulder would pop. Magnus scrambled to his feet and started walking in-between the two shadowhunters.

Alec was almost home when Raj and two other shadowhunters confronted him, the two others stood slightly behind Raj with their seraph blades out. Raj held in a pair of hand cloves and Alec’s heart stopped. He stood frozen, staring at Raj.

”Alexander Gideon Lightwood.” He said, with what Raj thought was an imposing voice, though he sounded more like a child playing pretend.”You’re under arrest.” Alec hoped that it didn’t have to do with Magnus. The two men behind Raj took a step forward, knocking him to the ground. Alec landed on his back and felt a stone hit his right shoulder, he bit down a scream, he wouldn’t give them the satisfaction. They threw him over so he laid on his stomach, Alec felt the warmth of blood running down his shoulder and bit down another scream when they pushed his arms back putting handcuffs on him, making them just a little too tight.

”This is what happens when you betray your own.” Alec heard Raj’s voice whisper in his ear and he knew that he was fucked. They’d found out about him and Magnus, he just prayed that Magnus was all right. That they wouldn’t dare attack the most powerful warlock in New York.

Magnus knew he had to flee and soon before they got too deep into shadowhunter territory. The only plan he had was to run, surprising them. He yanked his arms together, causing the two shadowhunters to fall over, crashing into each other, letting go of Magnus’ arms. He didn’t waste any time and started running as fast as he could, his goal was to get close enough to Ragnor’s house, getting help from his friend. Magnus wasn’t a runner, never had been and it didn’t help that he had magic. He didn’t like to run, he trained and stayed in shape but he didn’t run. Something he regretted now as he tried to breath while outrunning shadowhunters, that trained as soon as they could walk. Through the trees Magnus could see a hint of red, knowing he was getting close to Ragnor’s house, he pushed harder, he was so close. He was just about to shout when felt something hit the back of his head and the world turned black.

Alec didn’t know how long it’d been since Raj arrested him. He’d been through questioning with the mortal sword and as if that wasn’t painful enough he’d been beaten by Sebastian more times than he could count, he was the son of Valentine and he’d always been pure evil. Alec had managed to drift off into a shallow sleep, plagued by nightmares. He still didn’t know what had happened to Magnus, he’d asked so many times even though it meant that Sebastian would hit him and scream at him, he just couldn’t help it. He was awoken by someone throwing open the gate to his cell.

”Get up.” A familiar voice said, Alec didn’t want to look up, he just did as he was told. As soon as he stood up, the man grabbed him by the arm, pulling him out of the cell by force. If Alec didn’t know any better he’d think that he was here to save him. But Alec had done something his father would never forgive. He was pushed inside an elevator and his father followed him. Alec wanted to ask where they were going but he barely dared to breath. When the elevator stopped, he was met with the sight of the Clave standing in a half circle, with Valentine in the middle, kneeling beside him was a man, his black hair stripy and filled with blood. On his hands were silver gloves and his head was bent down.

”Alec.” Valentine greeted him and his father pushed him one last time before leaving his side, joining the other members. Alec didn’t answer, he just looked straight at Valentine, not showing a single emotion on his face. ”I’ve decided that your betrayal can be overseen and you can escape execution, becoming a silent brother to serve your own kind for decades.” Alec still didn’t answer, he knew that there would be a catch, that Valentine wouldn’t just forgive him out of the goodness in his heart. ”You’ll just have to prove your loyalty.” Valentine smiled a vicious smile.

”How?” Alec spat, he was done playing nice, he was sick and tired of all of this. Of being forced to fight in a pointless war, of never having had a choice in his entire life.

”Kill him.” Valentine smile grew as the pulled back the head of the man beside him, Alec looked down only to be met with Magnus’ face. He was bruised with cuts all over his face and down his throat. Magnus didn’t have his glamour on, Alec thought he would be met by dark brown eyes and gasped as he saw the beautiful cat eyes, their usual flicker was gone replaced with pain. Valentine put a knife in Alec’s hand and took a step back, staring at Alec, waiting to see what he would do next. Magnus was looking up at Alec, pain written across his face. Alec dropped the knife and shook his head, he couldn’t do it, there was no way he would kill the man he loves. He didn’t care what they did to him, he wouldn’t kill Magnus. Alec heard Valentine sigh and the second after something hit the back of his knees, causing him to fall down to his knees.

”It’s a shame, you were a good soldier.” Valentine sighed, pulling out another knife, Alec didn’t even turn his head to look at him, he kept looking into Magnus’ eyes. Someone grabbed Alec’s hair, pulling his head back. Alec felt the blade of the knife against his throat, he didn’t flinch and he didn’t look away from Magnus. ”Last chance?” Valentine asked.

Alec didn’t answer, his eyes still on Magnus, he simply whispered “I love you” to Magnus.

Magnus was so sure that Alec would kill him and when he just dropped the knife and refused, he was shocked. Magnus wished that Alec would’ve killed him when they forced him down on his knees and Alec didn’t tear his gaze from Magnus, they looked into each others eyes and for a moment it felt like they were the only two in the room. Then something glittered at Alec’s throat and before Magnus knew what was happening Alec whispered that he loved him and Magnus barely had time to answered him. The same second Magnus had spoken his last word, Valentine dragged the blade across Alec’s throat, blood splattered on Magnus and he wanted to look away but he couldn’t. He watched as the life left Alec’s eyes, listened to the gurgling as Alec tried to scream. Tears streamed down Magnus’ eyes and he wanted to scream, but he couldn’t. He saw Alec’s body hit the floor and heard screams from Jace and Izzy. Magnus threw himself on the floor, crawling towards Alec’s limp body, tears still streaming down his cheeks. His hands were shaking as he whispered ”oh Alexander” over and over again, trying to hold his face but the gloves made him clumsy. Magnus was thrown back, pinned to the floor. Valentine towered over him with a seraph blade in his hands.

“Really?” Izzy asked teasingly, though with a smile.

“Well yeah! Everyone should come here at least once,” Clary said like it was obvious, squeezing her girlfriend’s hand. They didn’t go on dates as often as she wanted, usually it was romantic walks under the moon on patrol or training together or a quick meal in one of their bedrooms after a mission. Don’t get her wrong, she loves the time they do get together and she knew dating once she was a Shadowhunter, let alone also dating another Shadowhunter,  it wouldn’t be the same as before. But she still wanted some normalcy every now and again, dammit.

Their hands never let go of each other as they made their way around, a fond smile on Izzy’s face as she listened to Clary ramble on and on. Clary always seemed to go above and beyond to make things exciting, to make sure everyone she was with was having a good time. And that was one thing that made Izzy fall in love with her.

Clary made her ride the roller coasters, no matter the fact that they always kind of scared the red head. They went to the nearby aquarium and Izzy dazzled her girlfriend with information she had learned from hanging out with Maia and bought her a stuffed jellyfish before they left, the former mundane all but beaming with how truly happy she was. This was one of the best days they had ever had, no demons or Downworlders or Shadowhunters or darkness or death, just two girls getting to have a normal day. Outside of their runes, they looked just like everyone else. Clary was in a flowery sundress and Izzy went with a dark crop top and jeans, a look that had Clary weak in the knees. She forced the dark haired Shadowhunter to eat every single greasy or overly sweet food that she could find, wanting her to have as many memories as possible.

As the sun went down, and a big cloud of pink cotton candy in her hand, Clary pointed at the ferris wheel and promised her that they could go home after doing one last thing. They got on and Izzy cuddled up to Clary as it climbed to the top, gasping softly as she looked out at the view. They could see so much from where they were, and it was absolutely breathtaking. “It’s beautiful,” Izzy said softly.

“Yeah, it is,” Clary said back, though she wasn’t looking at the scenery. She took in this moment, maybe taking a picture of her girlfriend looking almost childlike in her wonder. She took Izzy’s face carefully and leaned in, kissing her deeply. “Now you’ve had the cliche mundane experience of kissing on top of a ferris wheel,” she teased lightly, smiling against her lips.“Oh, well maybe we should do it again. Just in case,” Izzy smiled back before kissing her again, her heart racing.

Once they got off the ferris wheel their cheeks were flush and their lipsticks a little smudged, but they weren’t the other ones. They were both on cloud nine as they walked back to the Institute, tired and full and so, so happy. “Okay, fine. You were right. I needed to go there at least once. But now I’ve got to return the favor when I take you to Alicante.”