saving people
oh this show...this cast...these characters...this family β‘
my heart hasnβt felt this sore in a while. after harry potter had their happily ever after i was so afraid that i wouldnβt be able to find that sense of community again, that sense of friendship. you know when it all started you could go anywhere and if you saw someone with hp merch on you could have conversations and start friendships... it might sound so silly but in a scary situation that i was in a friendly stranger in a ravenclawΒ hoodie helped me out and iβllΒ never forget the relief that i felt when i saw that symbol.
that feeling was something that i have so desperately been missing from my life... it was a feeling so safety and friendship in this scary world. thenΒ Β i found you all. i found this fandom/family. my heart hasnβt been this full in so long and god iΒ am so so grateful for every last second β‘
for me this all started with a wonderful girl walking into work and asking me about my deathly hallows tattoo, not harry potter she called out the symbol. then she showed me her gryffindorΒ watch. just like theΒ girl with the hoodieΒ i felt safe and afterΒ threeΒ years ofΒ horrible experiencesΒ withΒ βfriendsβ after movingΒ 8+ hours away from everything thatΒ iβve ever knownΒ that was such a welcomeΒ feeling.
then she started telling me all about this incredible show that has changed her life in such beautiful ways. now over a year later i have a best friend - @ladywinchester1967 , plus our beautifulΒ confamΒ -Β Β @lovelyfantastic and @haylei2013 , the spn family as a whole, and this whole world thatβs now a part of my life β‘
with all of that wonderfulness, i cannot deny that i am so sad that itβs ending. my heart hurts...god does it hurt. it can almost be leveled with the pang felt i felt once harry potter had their happily ever after... i am going to miss them. i am going to miss their adventures and everything else that came along with it all.
that being said, i am overwhelmed with my gratefulness for every last moment. the good, bad, and ugly. the happiness, love, friendship, and family. my heart is so sore but it is also so so full Β β‘ i cannot wait to see what new adventures our spn family goes on and i will be here forever in the backseat of a 67 impala cheering them all on β‘
- how lucky are we to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard -
we will carry on - i love you all Β β‘
- a wayward daughter
