#compulsion mention

Like yes, I can see the argument that it’s a compulsion because he can’t stop until the world feels safe, but it will never feel safe because that’s just not how you end crime for good. But he flat out states in TPs2 that he doesn’t enjoy it.

In fact, the whole plot of s2 basically frames Frank’s relationship with violence as something he can’t escape, like these situations just keep happening to him because he can’t help but clock them, he can’t let it alone if someone innocent is in danger, and no one is competent enough to be able to kill him and end it.

(I'd make this some sort of comic before posting but spoons are incredibly low. Bear with me here)

Let's use an example I run into a lot; sending anon asks.

The average person will probably type up what they want, revise it once or twice at most. By the time they've finished writing, they have more than enough assurance that anon's actually on; they can see it in the top left, and they saw it while they were typing.

But that isn't enough for my brain.

"What if I saw it wrong? What if anon was never on in the first place? My icon IS grey, so it looks similar enough to anon, how can I be sure?"

At first, taking a screenshot was enough reassurance! But then..

"What if I accidentally turned it off in the last moment? What if the screenshot's wrong? Computers are never perfect, it could've faked this!"

So then I had to start grabbing videos. I'll start up a screen recorder, type up the whole thing, hit anon, wait a whole five seconds, before setting my phone down on the nearest flat surface and hitting 'ask' the same way someone painstakingly looking for every single letter on a keyboard one at a time would. A single tiny poke, to take up as little space as possible, to minimize any chance of so much as grazing two inches close to the anon button.

And sometimes, even THAT still isn't enough.

Remember, "Computers are unreliable!" At that point, maybe my phone was just displaying things wrong! It happens all the time, people will think they picked one thing, when really they did something else. How can I be sure? Was it ever really on anon in the first place? "Tumblr is notoriously buggy and runs on spaghetti code!" This is another worry! Another thing that can't be controlled, only worked around, and at the end of the day I can't really do anything except painstakingly wait for the ask to be answered. It's.. honestly pretty upsetting, having to live with the uncertainty, so I'm not sure how I ever denied this was an issue in the first place. This is NOT how a healthy brain works. This is NOT normal. But.. there's not a lot I can do about THAT, either.

Earlier, I tried to see what would happen if I just.. entirely ignored the "proof" part. Just didn't grab the screenshot or the recording.

I don't think I'll be doing that again, because it made things that much worse. Which.. is admittedly pretty funny, but also, damn.

(I'm using ND as short for neurodivergent).

While <this post> was intended for other latine to think about, I can see why others have questions. It's a very short post and I just wanted to get out the way that being latine and neurodivirgent is not mutually exclusive.

So many latines have a complicated relationship with their identity, especially when their culture overlaps with their ND traits- as in other people in the culture find it "normal" or "abnormal" etc.

Digesting the entirety of your identity, putting labels on it, is hard. Especially if the majority of the information being shared is ableist and/or based on white folk's experiences.

However, a lot of people relate to a character for their ND traits, whether they're latine or not. That's normal, that's good. You're supposed to sympathize with people who are both alike you, and different from you.

What some latine are concerned with is, when the <latine> part of the character and narrative is ignored. Because culture is the base of the whole world for these characters, it's the main context. (But remember, being ND also changes your worldview.)

So, if you're asking "Is it ok I still relate to this character for their ND traits?" Yes, of course.

Again the problem arises when the latine part is ignored, as if "overshadowed" by these ND traits- divorcing them from the source material, like Encanto's theme of generational trauma and how it's placed in Colombia.

Note: Bruno's rituals where written purposely as compulsions, that feel necessary for him to do. They're also culturally relevant compulsions. Which is perfect for making him relatable to latines, ND latines, and ND folks in general.

(They can seem like a cultural thing, that Bruno has done more and more to ward off the "bad luck" he is surrounded by in a toxic family or that he thinks himself brings- which then gets into the trauma territory... But is it not traumatic to have your ND traits demonized in an ableist society/family? Like how people misinterpreted his gift? How others misunderstood what he said? To feel the need to hide? See what I mean? Being ND changes how people treat you and it changes your worldview).

I encourage ND latines to add to this post.