i am so intrigued by golden hour and self-burning sun for the wips game đ
you got! two traditional wips of mine hehe. pardon the kinda shitty phone photos
golden hour- this one's an acrylic painting! and pretty small at about 8 x 8 in..? i'm gonna get experimental with this one and stamp over it with a lino block i carved, but i still gotta seal it with another layer of varnish before i do that though and i keep forgetting hgkdfl this one is honestly really close to begin finished i just keep getting distracted orz
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self-burning sun- the next piece in this sort-of-series !! this one's super slow going because i'm not entirely satisfied with the sketch and keep putting it away for a while, then taking it back out with the hopes that i'll have some epiphany as to how to fix it. paws are fucking hard to draw hgkldhfg
thank you for the ask !! i appreciate it a ton hehe
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I'd love to hear about Bittersweet QuinFox or aro4ace codywan!
Oh thank you dear đ I'm going with the aro4ace CodyWan on this one! It's a relatively new WIP spawned by a chat with @loverboy-havocboy (who didn't want to write it so ig it falls to me). Basically, after the war in a no-O66 AU, Cody decides to ask Obi-Wan out and it Does Not Go Like Planned because Obi-Wan is aromantic and he does like Cody A Whole Lotâąïžbut not quite like Cody likes him? That's about how far I've come but they do make it work (and Cody in the process finds out that he's ace which further complicates things but that's why it's so much fun).
Lil snippet:
The war was over. They were general and commander no more. Now, they were only Obi-Wan and Cody. And Cody had cleaned up nicely, in his own opinion, had wrapped himself in an ocher-colored tunic heâd bought with his first paycheck, had combed back his curly hair as best he could and had put the subtlest of glosses on his lips. Also, heâd bought flowers, blue ones, blue like Obi-Wanâs eyes, and long-stemmed and elegant, just like the man himself. And he kept remembering the way heâd sometimes turn his head on the bridge or in the command tent to find Obi-Wan swiftly looking away, an unmistakable blush blooming on his cheeks.
Not sure if you're still actively working on this, but I am so enamoured with all of it! I wanted to ask - do you have any ideas about sign languages on Naboo?
Oh, thank you so much! I haven't been super actively working on this recently, but I'm always interested in thinking of new aspects of it!
I can't say I've developed any solid ideas on the sign languages of Naboo, but I have some thoughts on what they may be based in.
To start off on a slight tangent, I have some complicated thoughts re: disability in the GFFA, which gets a pretty weird treatment through the series in part because we have so many people with limbs chopped off lol. Obviously a galaxy with species with vast differences in mobility would need to have mobility and communication aids. So first I guess, is there technology that could act as a substitute for non-verbal forms of communication by 'interpreting'? Star Wars has all kinds of weird technology.
On the flip side: should there be? Both in terms of worldbuilding and in-universe.
That little tangent out of the way - I would say there is probably a primary school of sign language that has been developed intentionally over time and is fairly well-established, though I do wonder about its use and the politics of that - but I don't know enough about sign language myself to speak to its details.
Instead, what I can do you for: a couple of parallel developments in sign language (or equivalent) on Naboo!
One of the major resources in the south-west of Naboo, esp. in the swamps of the Danank region, involves a lot of mining that it is pretty dangerous to do things like "inhale" around. I imagine that mining communities there + people who just live in the vicinity of the swamps have developed their own sign languages.
The same I think may be true for the highly industrial sectors in HalĂąn. HalĂąn I think is one of the areas in Naboo which has a fairly distinct language (dialect, maybe) because of its relative remoteness, so this may reflect in its sign system as well.
And also in the more remote spaces of Arind, particularly in the forests that were known for their shrines and Shiraya followers who were on oaths of silence (either temporary or permanent), I think they would have developed fairly elaborate communication systems involving their fans and staffs (which form a significant part of the material aspect of their faith), which probably survives in somewhat relic-ised form in religious performance and so on.
Hope this was kind of what you were looking for, and thank you for the interesting question!
Hi! I saw you are generally a small in clothing, as am I đ What her universe items do you have besides the skirts that you listed in another ask?
Iâm also interested in any loungefly bags you have.
uuuuuuhhhhhh a LOT. without going to dig through my storage, where I'm sure there's a lot of stuff I've forgotten about lurking, the nicer stuff --
skirts: Naboo, Hoth, lightsaber, TFA stormtrooper
jackets: Ahsoka (faux leather), Sabine (faux leather), Darth Vader (faux leather), ANH 40th anniversary (bomber), "May the Force Be With You" (jean jacket), BB-8 (bomber)
There are definitely a few other things; I'm not positive if some of the dresses I have are HU or from somewhere else (I've got the droid bodycon, which doesn't look good on me because I have crooked hips, and the We Love Fine Jedi dress, maybe some other stuff?), and some leggings probably from around TFA and TLJ that I've only worn once or twice. (Also, like, a lot of t-shirts and sweatshirts but I figure don't want those.) From other companies I've got the Leia Endor jacket from Heroes & Villains, two jackets and a poncho/cape from Musterbrand, and a lot of older Padme stuff from Elhoffer Design.
I've got one Star Wars Loungefly, which is the X-wing pilot mini backpack. I've got a few other Star Wars bags I'd be willing to sell as well -- my Dooney & Bourke totes are too beat-up to sell, but I've got another Dooney & Bourke satchel in the 2015 pattern that's gently used, and the Sent From Mars BB-8 and stormtrooper clutches.
ETA:Â Iâve also got the HU symbol (Rebel starbird & Imperial cog) and X-wing cardigans, the symbol infinity scarf, and the striped Ahsoka scarf.
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Context: first chapter of the last version of my novel The Bonaparte Bride before I decided to publish it as Princess Imperial the website
Deviations from canon: Julien is 30 instead of 28, his sister Alexandrine is married and expecting her first child, Julien's birthday is 20 October instead of 23 October, Bonaparte siblings' ages and birth order are shuffled
The Prince Imperial is a man of many secrets. Almost everything we know about the heir to the French throne has come via off-the-record comments from people in the imperial circle or unguarded comments from family members.
âPrince Julien is an intensely private person,â one well-placed source told me. âHeâs reluctant to say anything about his life, lest he reveal too much.â
Itâs a tactic that has worked well for the prince. While his sisters were bombarded with press attention at nightclubs and art galleries, he quietly earned a Masterâs degree in political science from the Ăcole Militaire de Saint-Cyr, Franceâs premier military academy. He served in the military for six yearsâthree in the Army, one in the Navy, one in the Air Force, and one in the Gendarmerieâbefore transitioning to full-time royal work last year. The prince made a handful of annual public appearances during his time as a professional soldier.
Suffice it to say, it was a total shock to learn The Prince Imperial agreed to be interviewed by La Presse on the occasion of his 30th birthday. As if that werenât enough, Julien revealed he has a girlfriend!
âYour younger sister, Princess Alexandrine, just announced sheâs expecting her first child in the spring. How do you feel about becoming an uncle?â
âVery happy, very excitedâthough more for my sister and her husband than for myself.â
âWould you like to have children of your own someday?â
âOf course. Family is one of lifeâs great joys, and I canât imagine my future without children. Iâd like to have a small gaggle of them running around and getting underfoot.â Laughing, he adds, âThough weâre getting a bit ahead of ourselves here. There wonât be any children until after Iâm married.â
âFrance would love to see a wedding. Is there a candidate for the second leading role in your fairytale?â
The prince is silent for a long moment after I ask this. All of his answers have been carefully crafted, as though heâs considering every angle of the question in his mind before composing a response. I get the impression heâs being particularly thoughtful in how he responds to this one.
âYes,â he finally says, âthere is. Iâve been seeing a wonderful young woman, who is very special to me, for about a year.â
âCould you tell me about her?â
Heâs quick to turn the question back on me. âWhat would you like to know?â
âSo many thingsâher courage and curiosity, for startersâbut the crux of my feelings is best explained by Pascal: âThe heart has its reasons, which reason does not know.ââ
âDo you think sheâs the one? Your princess charming, as it were?â
A grin breaks across his face. Despite his duties and the responsibilities heaped on his shoulders, His Imperial Highness is a young man who is deeply in love. âI think I know, but time will tell.â
ââThe Prince Imperial has a Girlfriend! And Other Highlights from his 30th Birthday Interviewâ on The Julien Journal, 20 Octobre
PALAIS DES TUILERIES
PARIS, ĂLE DE FRANCE, FRANCE
20 OCTOBRE
There is a single subject of conversation in the palace tonight. Knots of people stand around the room, speculating in hushed tones about the identity of The Prince Imperialâs mysterious girlfriend. Every once in a while, someone shoots a pitying glance our way.
âYou donât have to stay,â I remind my best friend.
Fiona has the poise and graceful movements of a trained dancer. Sheâs tiny, barely over five feet tall, with a waspish waist. Her red hair is chopped into a girlish chin-length bob. It used to be longer, but she cut it as part of The Breakup, and has kept it that way for the past two years. Freckles dot her cheeks. Combined with her full cheeks and button nose, Fiona doesnât look a day over 20. She is regularly mistaken for a college student.
Tonight, she wears a turquoise gown adorned with sequins. Sheâs paired it with yellow diamond earrings borrowed from her mother and the familyâs small diamond tiara. The tiara is positioned like a headband. Unfortunately, this emphasizes her youthful appearance. I didnât have the heart to tell her that this isnât going to be her sexy, look-what-youâre-missing outfit.
âIâm going to stay through dinner, at least,â Fiona says. âFor Alexandrine.â
âShe told me weâre at the same table.â
Fiona nods curtly. âGood.â Then she leans in and murmurs, âWhat if theyâre engaged? He wouldnât have issued a public statement unless heâs planning to marry her.â
âI donât think Julien would do that.â I canât bring myself to look at Fiona. Instead, I survey our surroundings.
The Galerie de Diane is ablaze with light. Itâs named after the ceiling, which is painted with mythological scenes. One standout is a portrait of the Roman goddess Diana caressing the sleeping Endymion. There is also a depiction of Pan, the satyr god of the wild, offering Diana a white wool fleece. Most of the paintings are copies of Carracciâs frescoes from the Farnese Palace in Rome.
Massive chandeliers, at least ten feet tall, are suspended from the ceiling. Like every light fixture in the palace, they feature crystals and gold trim. The walls are lined with enormous oil paintings of mythological scenes. Between the paintings, the walls feature ornate paneling. Gilded benches and side tables decorated with priceless objects line either side of the long hall. Footman are stationed every fifteen feet. They stand still, but looking closely, I can see them warily eyeing the guests.
An elderly woman in a fluffy ice-blue dress and gentleman with a luxuriously thick mustache walk by us. I donât recognize them, but they must be important, as they both wear the scarlet sash of the Legion of Honor, Franceâs highest chivalric order.
Fiona turns bright red. When the couple are out of earshot, she says, âThree years ago, The Duchess of AbrantĂšs always said hello to me. Always. And now I might as well be wallpaper.â
âSheâs desperate to stay in the imperial familyâs good graces. Big deal.â
âShe wants her grandsons to be part of Julienâs inner circle, like her husband was part of Emperor Charles-Napoleonâs,â Fiona corrects. âThey need a way in.â Thereâs a smug note to her voice. I have no doubt that Fiona saw through the Duchess from the start and kept the older woman locked out of Julienâs social sphere. Gatekeeping access to the prince is one of the universally agreed-upon duties of an imperial paramour, whether wife, girlfriend, or mistress.
Before she can remark on the new girlfriendâs skills as a social arbiter, I suggest, âLetâs find our table.â
This is too practical an idea for her to refuse. Fiona grabs my arm and guides me toward the round tables set up in the center of the room. A name card, written in calligraphy, has been placed in front of each seat. The centerpieces are different at each table. This is unusual for imperial events, but I like it.
Weâre not the only ones pretending to study the decor. A handful of other people are making a slow circuit of the tables. Most of them examine the tables on either side of the podium. The Prince Imperial will sit at one. The Emperor and Empress will sit at the other.
The Countess Rampon stops in front of us. Sheâs a middle-aged woman with muddy brown hair, a blush pink gown, and emerald jewels. Her face is suspiciously wrinkle-free. Her forehead doesnât move as she speaks. âOh, Fiona,â she says. âDid you see that Grand Duchess Tatiana is at The Prince Imperialâs table?â
Fiona balls her hands into fists. âIs she?â
âAs is Princess Pomelline of Monaco.â The Countessâ smile is incandescent.
Itâs common knowledge in French high society that The Count and Countess of Rampon are desperate to see their daughter advance in rank. When Julien broke up with Fiona, they were quick to throw the young Lady Rampon in the princeâs path. Le Bon Ton ran a couple articles hinting that the prince was interested in her.
Nothing came of it, of courseâThe Countess wouldnât be trying to humiliate Fiona by hinting that sheâs been replaced by a princess if Julien was dating her daughter.
Another woman comes up behind Countess Rampon and places a hand on her shoulder. The newcomer has shiny black hair, swept into an elegant beehive bun. Like most of the women in the room, sheâs dripping with diamonds. Her gown is a sleek column of green velvet. She wears expensive perfume. Itâs a masculine scent, with hints of gunpowder. It pairs well with the ever-present whiff of cigarette smoke clinging to her skin.
I look away from the two women and pretend to be interested in the floral arrangements. Theyâre quite striking. I expected white flowersâJulien enjoys the classicsâbut instead the florists have paired white peonies with burgundy dahlias and ample greenery.
âDare I assume that you know about His Imperial Highnessâ girlfriend?â Countess Rampon asks.
The Countessâ expression turns stony. She clearly has no desire to be trendy. âI do love emeralds.â
âThey suit you,â I say. I mean it. Her pale skin and brown hair provide the perfect complement to the green gemstones.
âThank you. Now, Mademoiselle OâBrien, how did you say you know the imperial family?â
Itâs terribly forward of her to ask, but less awkward than discussing work in front of the people with the money to purchase the jewels I inspect. âPrincess Alexandrine is a friend of mine.â
âFascinating.â
Too late, I realize Countess Rampon has completed the circuit of the tables. She must have noticed that I am the only person seated at the imperial familyâs tables who is not an aristocrat or government official.
Before she can say anything more, trumpets blare, and the royals sweep through the double doors at the far side of the room. Princess Pomelline of Monaco and Grand Duchess Tatiana of Russia are two of the first to enter. Theyâre escorted by the Hereditary Grand Duke of Luxembourg and the Crown Prince of Saxony. European monarchies are well-represented tonight. I recognize members of the Belgian, Danish, Dutch, Spanish, Portuguese, and Prussian royal families. The Japanese Emperor has sent his younger sister.
Most of the Swedish royal family is in attendance. The only absent parties are Prince Oscarâthe Crown Princeâs oldest sonâand his wife, Princess Ingrid. Their first child was born three weeks ago.
The King and Queen are the last of the foreign royals to enter. The King is old, and bald, with kindly blue eyes. Like most of the men in the room, he wears the red sash of the Legion of Honor. His wifeâs white hair is pulled into an elegant chignon. Her gown is gold. It pairs well with her red sash, and with her jewels. She wears a suite of white cameos set in yellow gold, accented with small pearls. The tiara is massive.
The guards flanking the double doors salute as the Bonapartes appear. Princess Alexandrine and her husband, The Duke of Magenta, arrive first. The Duke is tall and gangly. The cropped jacket worn with white tie attire does nothing to disguise just how long his legs are. Heâs adjusted the Legion of Honor sash to accommodate his strange proportions. His brown hair is slicked back from his face. The top of Princess Alexandrineâs head reaches her husbandâs shoulder. Her strapless gray dress hugs her curves, especially her burgeoning baby bump. The dress turns into frothy ruffles below her knees. Her dark hair is loose tonight. She wears a diamond and ruby tiara with a strawberry leaf motif, along with matching earrings and an elaborate ruby necklace.
Theyâre quickly followed by The Emperor and Empress. Theyâre both innately regal. They both have perfect posture. The Emperor isnât particularly tall, but his face is striking, with high cheekbones and a straight nose. His dark curly hair is shot through with gray. The Empress seems to float into the room on a cloud of dusty blue chiffon. Her hair is the color of freshly fallen snow. Itâs chopped into a cheek-skimming bob. She wears enough diamonds to blind anyone who looks at her. They, of course, both wear the red sash.
The entire room dips into bows and curtsies at the same time, acknowledging Their Imperial Majestiesâ arrival. My legs quiver as I rise.
The Prince Imperial is the last person to enter. Heâs the storybook ideal of a prince: dark curly hair, high cheekbones, a perfectly straight nose, broad shoulders. He bears an uncanny resemblance to his father. The cut of his suit jacket and the sash swooping across his chest do nothing to disguise his athletic form. He escorts the Prime Minister, head of the French government, into the room. Sheâs a tiny woman, with long gray hair. She wears a simple black gown.
The royals glide across the Galerie de Diane to their respective tables. None of them hesitates. They have clearly reviewed the seating arrangements. The Prince Imperial scans the crowd as he approaches. His face remains carefully composed, not unlike a Michelangelo sculpture. Tonight, the entire roomâscratch that, the entire world, because this event is being broadcast liveâis looking for a crack in his facade. He never breaks or wavers, though. He escorts the Prime Minister to her seat, then goes to his own.
The Emperor stops at the podium rather than his table. The rest of the court trails to their seats, aided by footmen armed with seating charts.
The Empress sits down. The rest of the room follows suit. I am seated between the Minister of Culture and Marshal Fitoussi.
The Emperor watches silently. For a tiny moment, no more than a heartbeat, our eyes meet. I canât read his expression. He continues his survey of the crowd. I exhale in relief.
Iâve lived in France for six years, and spoken the language for twelve, but my French abandons me as I realize my seat is arranged so the entire room has a clear view of me as well as the podium. Ostensibly people are watching The Emperor. However, I have no doubt that some of them are, like Countess Rampon, noticing Iâm an outlier at the imperial familyâs tables.
I have the sudden urge to adjust the straps of my dress. I canât do that without causing a scene, though, so I donât. I focus on breathing deeply and keeping my eyes fixed on The Emperor. The familiar cadence of the French language is oddly soothing. Unsurprisingly, His Imperial Majesty, as a practiced public speaker, enunciates clearly. This is something of a miracle for French speakers.
All too soon, The Emperor stops speaking and returns to his table. The double doors open again. A series of immaculately uniformed servants in imperial green livery strolls through. They carry large golden trays laden with plates.
The Minister of Culture turns to me. He has a well-oiled mustache and goatee, which make him look like Napoleon III. He reminds me of the priest from my childhood parish, if that priest happened to be in charge of the cultural programming for an entire country. âI donât believe weâve met.â
âNot that I can recall.â
âHow inconvenient.â He holds out a hand. âBertrand Dupont.â
I take it. âEvelyn OâBrien.â
His eyebrows knit together. âIâm certain Iâve heard your name before. Are you an artist, perhaps?â
âUnfortunately not. I work at Drouot auction house.â
I nod. I should engage more enthusiastically with the Minister, but canât bring myself to look away from Fiona. Her hands are shaking, and sheâs pale.
âA tremendous institution. One of our best. You made an excellent choice, Mademoiselle OâBrien.â
âThe quality of its art history program speaks for itself.â
The serving staff lay the starter course in front of us. Itâs blue lobster and crab. Delicious, and oh so French.
âIs there a particular medium or time period you prefer?â
âIâm fond of Gobelins tapestries, particularly from the early years of Louis XIVâs reign.â
âThe craftsmanship is exceptional,â says the Minister. âHave you ever toured the manufactory? If not, Iâd be happy to arrange a visit.â
I only half hear him. Fiona excuses herself from the table and scurries away, out one of the side doors.
âThat would be wonderful,â I say.
From the neighboring table, Julien notices Fiona leave. He looks to me.
I nod. He purses his lips for a tiny moment.
Weâve talked, before, about how to tell Fiona about our relationship. We couldnât come up with anything. Two years after their breakup, sheâs still not over the prince. It seemed better, kinder, to hide the truth from her. We knew it wouldnât last forever. And now the bubble has burst.
I want to go after her, want to explain myself, tell her that I never planned to fall in love with her ex-boyfriend. Tell her that I know she still loves him. Find a way to tell her that Julien doesnât feel the same way. That he wants me. That weâre planning to get married.
But I canât. Not without making a scene.
Princessesâparticularly future empressesâdonât make scenes.
The upper level is lined with windows. The curtains are imperial green, embroidered with tiny golden bees. A full orchestra is tucked into the mezzanine above the dance floor. I caught a glimpse of them before the party started. They watched nervously as the grand basses and cellos were carried out of an antiquated elevator. There are about fifty musicians, all in black suits and gowns. No doubt tonight is one of the highlights of their careers. Not just anyone is asked to perform for the imperial family and their guests.
The Prince Imperial catches my eye. I shake my head. I approved his decision to reveal our relationship, and accepted the invitation to this party. I did not agree to open a ball, thank you very much.
When the music starts, swarms of people line the edges of the room, gossiping in hushed tones. Julien dances with his mother. A few couples move to the center of the room and twirl in perfect timing with the music.
It doesnât take long for someone to work up the courage to ask me to dance. I finish out the first song waltzing with a Senator. He doesnât even know my name, just that Iâm The Prince Imperialâs girlfriend. As soon as he realizes Iâm American, he asks me about New York City, leading to an extremely awkward two minutes where he refuses to believe me when I say Iâve never been there.
I havenât seen Fiona yet. She loves dancing. Surely sheâs here.
Before I can search for her, the Minister of Culture corners me for the third dance. Impossibly, heâs the worst dancer yet. He picks up where our conversation left off during dinner. âAre you interested in the visual arts only, or the performing arts as well?â
âBoth are wonderful.â
His entire face lights up. âDo you have a favorite among them?â
I choose the first one that comes to mind. âI appreciate live music.â
âLike The Duchess of Magenta?â
Heâs referring to Princess Alexandrine. Julienâs younger sister is a top-notch violinist. She undoubtedly selected the orchestraâs setlist for the evening. Nobody else would have restricted them to classical pieces.
âNot nearly as much, Iâm afraid.â
âHer Imperial Highness is a connoisseur,â he agrees, which is the polite way of saying that the princess knows what she likes and ignores anything she doesnât.
âIâm also fond of ballet,â I add quickly, before the minister starts grilling me about concerts Iâve attended.
âMarvelous!â
He brings us close to the edge of the dance floor, past a knot of women in silk gowns. I overhear snatches of their conversation.
âIsnât sheââ
âDo you think heâs going toââ
âItâs about time the prince settles down, butââ
At the moment, Julien and I are separated by a swirl of silks and satins. His dance partnerâs crimson dress shimmers in the light. Diamonds dangle from her ears and twine around her neck. She wears a tiny tiara. When they turn, he searches the room and locks eyes with me.
Something flares in his gaze. Iâm expert at interpreting his expressions, but donât have the time to do so before he finishes the turn, ending with his back to me.
âDo you have any interest in seeing The Nutcracker? The Paris Opera Ballet puts on a beautiful performance every year. Tickets go on sale next week,â says the minister.
I look away from Julien. âMy cousinsâ ballet class will be performing it alongside a dance company in my hometown. My grandmother insists that the entire family attend.â
âNext year, perhaps?â
I give him my most regal smile. I know better than to answer the question heâs really asking, which is whether Iâll be part of the imperial family next year. âPerhaps.â
As the song ends, the minister raises one of my hands to his mouth and kisses it. âI do hope to see more of you, Mademoiselle OâBrien. The Paris Opera Ballet could use a patron.â He then strolls away.
Three men hover nearby, as though waiting to ask me to dance. Two of them are ministerial aides. I have no idea which minister they assist. It could be anyone, perhaps even the Prime Minister. The third man is the Grand Master of Ceremonies. Heâs responsible for planning court events, like tonightâs party. I suspect he already has the christening of Alexandrineâs unborn baby penciled into his calendar.
âMademoiselle,â one of the aides says. He falls silent when he notices The Prince Imperial walking toward me.
If Julien notices the other three men, he doesnât show it. He is dignified and poised as always.
Weâre mere feet apart when the Empressâ primary lady in waiting, the Princess of Essling, pulls him aside and redirects him to another woman. I recognize her immediately. This is Grand Duchess Tatiana. She is fifteenth in line to the Russian throneâwhich is the polite way of saying sheâs a socialite with nothing better to do than flirt with rich men.
âWeâve been back in the country for two days. When did Julienââ
I furtively glance around us. Nobody is close enough to hear our conversation, but I still lower my voice. âHe didnât propose.â
âWhat? But⊠why else would FionaâŠâ
âShe didnât know about us.â
His expression turns stony. âYou didnât tell her?â
I shake my head.
âRemind me to punch Julien later.â
âDonât you dare.â
âHeâll understand. He would do the same thing if someone led one of his sisters on.â
âHe did not lead her on. They broke up. And we tried telling her, we really did, but she wouldnât listen. Itâs not Julienâs fault that sheâs still in love with him.â
Hugo sighs. âI donât think you tried hard enough.â
âYouâre her brother. You could have said something.â
âI signed an NDA.â
I stifle a groan. Hugo serves as Julienâs assistant private secretary, meaning he coordinates The Prince Imperialâs calendar and accompanies him to events. He is the only member of Julienâs staff pulling double duty as both an aide and a friend.
Hugo wrote his Masterâs thesis on the importance of diplomats, particularly the imperial family, abiding by an ethical code of conduct. It caused quite a stir at court. Fiona told me her brother was offered a position with the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, but turned it down to work for Julien. Heâs made a name for himself as a staunch defender of morality.
âI donât think NDAs cover Julienâs love life, since itâs not part of your job.â
âThey definitely do. Just this morning, I turned down a 200,000 franc bribe to talk about you. And letâs not get started on my list of tentative wedding dates. The press would kill for a copy of that.â
âJulien wouldnât sue you if you told your sister he was dating me.â
âYouâre right,â he says, âhe wouldnât. But thatâs not the point. You two should have told her.â
âWe tried. I think Alexandrine mentioned something, too, and Fiona didnât listen to that either.â
âYouâve made quite the mess.â
I wince. âI know. Iâm sorry.â
âNo need to apologize to me. Iâm not the one whose best friend has been surreptitiously dating my ex.â His voice is cheery, but the words are still a blow. As the song ends, he says, âIâll find her and try to minimize the damage.â
âThank you.â
He nods, and then heâs gone.
I barely get a moment to process it before Julien is standing in front of me. âThere you are.â
The prince smells of cedar and sandalwood. I want to bury my face in his chest and inhale him. His eyes are the most beautiful brown, the color of smoky quartz.
He holds out a hand. âI saved the best dance for you.â
âHow can I say no to that?â
Julien pulls me into his arms. Thereâs a mischievous glint in his eyes, a boyish tilt to his grin. This is the happiest Iâve seen him all evening.
The music starts, and we dance.
âHow are you liking court?â he asks.
I shrug. âAsk me again in two months, when Iâm no longer a curiosity.â
âVery wise. I think the gossip will even out faster than you expect, though.â
âOh?â
âI give it two weeks.â
I tighten my grip on his shoulder. âYou really think it will take two weeks for a bunch of aristocrats to be comfortable with an American nobody dating their prince?â
âThey wonât like it, but theyâll get used to it. And then theyâll start jockeying for their wives and daughters to be your ladies-in-waiting.â
I wrinkle my nose. He laughs, and ushers me into a twirl.
Around the room, people are pointing at us and murmuring to each other. Theyâre no longer trying to hide their stares. I can feel them examining me, judging me, discussing the odds of me becoming Princess Imperial. I stand a little straighter.
âThe French have one weakness,â Julien says. âBeautiful women.â
âUh-huh,â I say, trying not to sound as skeptical as I am.
Unfortunately for me, I canât hide anything from Julien anymore. Heâs gotten good at studying people. Especially me. So he knows exactly what I mean. âNot this again.â
âItâs justââ
âI love you.â He smiles at me. Itâs a real grin, not the plastered-on copy he shows the public. Itâs warm, comforting, like the soft glow of a lamp in a dark room. Like coming home after a week or two away.
âI love you too.â I resist the urge to lay my head on his shoulder and hold him close as we sway to the music. We can do that another time, when weâre not surrounded by people. When there are no cameras.
âI wish I could kiss you.â
âLater,â I remind him. Though I was offered a guest room, Iâll be spending the night with Julien. He canât sleep alone after that interview. The gossip would be unbearable.
âDarling,â he says, pulling me closer, âeveryone else sees me dancing with my gorgeous girlfriend. Not your nose, not your freckles, not whatever else youâre fretting about. Theyâll be jealous and upset, but they will get over it.â
Out of the corner of my eye, I see Fiona enter the ballroom. Sheâs chatting with her brother, but falls silent when she sees us. Her eye makeup is smudged. She must have been crying and tried to redo it. She swallows hard and looks away.
For the first time tonight, I feel like Iâve stabbed her in the gut and twisted the knife.
I look Julien in the eyes and say, âI hope youâre right.â