...And Again Into the Light - A Co-written Elucien Oneshot
Relationship: Elain Archeron x Lucien Vanserra
Status: Rated M, ~10,000 words
Summary: Elain has a vision that takes her and Lucien to the continent. In desperate need of rest, they rent a room for a night in an eerie inn that has an unnatural presence. Horror/Romance.
A/N: We're back! We (@zenkindoflove & @crazy-ache) decided as our next collaboration to try our hands at some horror writing. Think of this as an spooky ghost story surrounding an Elucien romance.
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Warnings: a/b/o dynamics, rut (mention of heat), scent kink, breeding kink, biting, blood, knotting, cream pie, jealousy/possessive behavior (this is happy end timeline bike racer mikey btw)
A/N: My submission for @haitani-plague  omegaverse collab! (im so sorry Im late!!!!) thank you so much for letting me join!Â
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Something was up the moment the door shut, the heavy sound startling you in the kitchen. You looked at your phone and noted the time, seven thirty.
âHow was the meeting?â You called with your back to the island and foyer. When Manjiro was quiet except for an irritated grunt you expected him to start telling you all about what had happened to make him slam the door like that but the moment you turned to call to him again and get his attention you realized he was standing in the doorway, looking slightly disheveled. His cheeks were flushed, pale skin burning a deep rose, and his eyes impossibly dark as he seemed to drink you in with an almost satisfied hum. You were about to ask him what was wrong, ask him what his PR team had done this time to upset him, until you caught his scent. The musky scent of burning amber intertwining with his natural cinnamon had excited goosebumps raising across your skin as you hadnât realized three months had passed already, bringing Manjiroâs rut around again. You could see he was sweating, his short black hair sticking to his forehead.
âHow are you feeling?â You asked, setting the towel you were using to dry your hands off to the side and slowly walking up to him. Manjiroâs hands were on you immediately, fingers gripping onto your waist as he pulled close to bury his face against your throat, his mouth going to kiss across the mating mark, his tongue smoothing over the scarred skin and sending heat liquid to your abdomen.Â
âBadâ He murmured, finally answering your question after a long minute of him barely restraining himself. He was burning up, fever from the rut making his skin hot and clammy with sweat as he pushed himself against you as he could mold into your form.
âYou need a cool shower loveâ You said, rubbing your hands up and down his arms, pressing a kiss to his temple as he steadied himself.Â
âNeed youâ He groaned, âNeed your pussy, right nowâ. His hands were shaking as he sucked a small bruise up just below your collarbone. You gasped as you felt his teeth prick your flesh, a soft whine on his tongue as your omegan scent invaded every sense, every part of his body and mind slowly becoming a sacrifice to you as he fell deeper and deeper into his instincts grasp.Â
âL-Letâs get to the bedroom" you stuttered as his musky scent made your head fuzzy.
Mikey had been waiting all day to have you, irritation sitting just below the surface as he fought through the brain fog all day until he was finally seated on his bike, on the way home to you. Finally. This rut was worse than the others, heavier, insistent. Absolutely all consuming until he was fighting himself not to pull over and fucking fist his cock in an alley just to get some sort of relief but he was going home to you. Your beautiful face, your body, your mouth, your sweet pussy, he was practically panting at the red light. And the moment he had stepped through that doorway to find you so pretty in one of his merch t-shirts it was over. He had to have you. NOW.Â
"No" he said gruffly, hands beginning to maneuver you to the living room though you tried to drag him further into the bedroom. He wouldn't make it that far and he knew it.Â
You had thought Mikey was in somewhat of a clear head space as you tried to coax him to the bedroom but when a sharp snarl fell from his lips as you tried to pull his hands away you knew he was too far gone already.Â
âMikey wai-â you didnât even get to finish pleading with him before his hand was around the back of your neck, pulling you forward until your lips were pressed in a feverish kiss. His tongue snaked its way into your mouth to intertwine with yours, both of you groaning at the pure taste of each other like you had been starved for a thousand years. With Mikey becoming famous in Japan and going on world touring events it had become harder and harder to have any time to spend together so this rut would allow you both a little reprieve to indulge, to just be one again. He was panting against your lips, hands pulling and tugging at both of your clothes until he was whining in desperation, watching with big dark eyes as you undressed quickly before going to work on his clothes. The cool air of the penthouse must have been heavenly with the heavy sigh he let escape as you freed him of his shirt and then his pants, Mikey growling fiercely as he shredded his boxers off himself and went to grab you again. You playfully moved just from his grasp, his fingertips grazing your arm in a frustrating burn. As badly as you wanted to tease him, Manjiro was too far deep in rut head space to play along, a warning growl building in his chest as you continued to dodge his grabbing hands.
âOmegaâ He said cautiously, voice gravelly as your pheromones spiked in the air and made his cock throb.
âAlpha,â You said back, a teasing lilt to your voice as you ran tentative fingers down his chiseled chest to his abs. You squeaked as he snatched your hand, so fast you could barely see him move, pressing a wet kiss to the spot where your pulse thrummed and tugged you forward. The moment you tugged back to try and race for the bedroom he was sweeping your leg out from under you, catching you so you wouldnât hit the floor but twisting you around so that you were on your knees, his hand at the nape of your neck and forcing your shoulders down. You felt slick begin to drip down your thighs, the show of strength causing your baser instinct Omega to preen in happiness at the borderline rough manhandling. You had wanted to take time, make him cum down your throat before you got to the real fucking but it was obvious from the thick pheromones pouring from him he couldnât wait anymore. Mikey hissed as he fisted his cock, pumping it a few times to catch his breath before running the flushed head along your slit, up and down until it was coated in wet and shining.Â
âSo goodâ He moaned, slipping the head between your folds and pressing lightly at your entrance to tease you just a little. He was trying hard to be easy, knowing you usually needed at least a little prep to take him, but his patience was running hair-thin. The sounds that poured from his chest when he finally sank all the way in were pornographic to say the least, drool nearly running from his lips at the feeling of your warmth finally squeezing around him. Mikey was so deep inside of you your eyes crossed, feeling like he was in your throat as his hips pressed flushed with yours. It felt like he almost came with the way he throbbed against your womb, just barely drawing out before shoving back in with a relieved moan. Endorphins were rushing through your bloodstream as he forced your back into a bigger arch, going as far as to gather your arms in one hand and hold them behind your back, forcing your cheek to the floor as you moaned underneath him.Â
âThatâs rightâ He murmured lowly, nipping just at the top of your ear âLike this donât you?â.Â
âYes!â You cried as he thrust against your cervix, your cute clenching around him so tightly he choked. Your honeyed scent was like fire in his veins, burning away every thought past the feeling of your walls milking him, begging him to fill you up to spilling.Â
"Oh I'm gonna breed this pussy" Manjiro growled, âMy Pussy, all mineâ. his free hand slapped your ass and made you whine. You were so close to cumming that your toes were curling, drool running from your lips onto the carpet. You could feel the carpet burn coming up on your knees but it was worth it to be this overwhelmed with pleasure, shivers running up your spine at being mounted so primally it was making every instinct buzz.Â
âPl-Pl-Please Manjiro, Alpha, Breed my pussy and give me your babiesâ You pleaded as his thrust grew nearly frantic, one of his feet moving up to plant himself and be able to rut into you harder.Â
âWant it, make you a pretty mother,â Manjiro said in a near slur as his orgasm licked up his spine, his nails digging in and breaking crescent marks across your hip and wrists. Itâs all he wants, all he can think about. Your cunt soaked in his cum, your belly swollen with his pups, your breasts swelled with milk. He had to slam his eyes shut to keep from busting, wanting to feel you cum around him first.Â
âCum for me y/n, my sweet omega, cum for me pleaseâ He whined, doubling over your back and nuzzling against your throat. You cried his name as you fell apart around him, your slick squirting up to coat his abdomen and run down your legs as you shook and moaned wantonly. Manjiro nearly howled at the feeling of you squeezing him, your velvet insides milking him and trying to force every ounce of cum from his balls. One last aftershock squeeze sent him over the edge, a panting moan forcing past his lips as he sank his teeth into your scarred mating mark, blood bubbling up against his teeth as his tongue licked the irony liquid away. His cum was hot in your belly, shot after shot coating your insides and sending your head spinning. You both collapsed to the floor, feet from your bedroom door, knot tugging from where it was locked inside of you and making Mikey groan, his hands pulling you closer until you were laying on top of him straddling him. A few soft thank youâs peppered your skin with his kisses as you listened to his heartbeat slow, his body shaking beneath you.Â
âHow are you feeling now?â you asked amusedly after a few minutes of quiet from him, his whimpers no longer breaking the silence. When you didnât get an answer you moved your head away from his throat where the matching mating mark resided and realized after the adrenaline and hormones from his rut died down it had left him exhausted, his heavy breaths gracing your ears as his face was set in a soft slumber. You kissed his lidded eyes delicately, making yourself comfortable until the knot slipped free, because you knew that the moment it did he would be awake and wanting more.
Today's @whumptober fic is a Vampire Hunter AU collab I did with @carryingstarlightinherwake ! Thanks again to Lucky for collabing with me again this year! We hope you enjoy this fic <3
Prompts Used: Without Consent, Secrets, Lips Sewn Shut
Fandom: JoJo's Bizarre Adventure Part 5 (Vampire Hunter AU)
Character(s): Fugo, Narancia
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Bucciarati assigns Fugo to take Narancia out on his first mission. However, when it leads them to an asylum, Fugo is reminded of his past in the worst way leaving Narancia to have to figure out whatâs wrong with his mission partner.
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paper hearts | choi soobin [f] ; [c]Â 80s! au, 9.6k words
s u m m a r y ; if there was one thing you wanted to avoid on valentineâs day, it was running into your ex best friend, choi soobin. but when a series of unfortunate events involving too much purple eyeshadow, drunken punches, and one stolen bicycle leads you right back to his side, you begin to realize that maybe you truly belonged with him all along.
c o n t e n t s ; soobin x fem!reader, 80s! au, valentineâs day, ex best friend! soobin, rich boy! soobin, but heâs a major dweeb and the biggest softie, yeonjun is a major prick (iâm so sorry junnie), reader is a part time worker, soobin is best friends with lee felix of stray kids, some themes of social classes, roughly inspired by the 80s movie âpretty in pink,â mentions drugs, alcohol, and single parent households, mostly just fluff, fluff, and more fluff, with a hint of crack/humor
n o t e ; hello friends! this was a very quickly planned, last minute valentineâs day idea, and itâs actually a collab with one of my dearest friends, @chanluster ! she posted her piece of the collab as well, you can check it out by going to the collab masterlist here! this was so much fun to write and i think that 80s! soobin was just too good of a concept to pass up! anyways, happy valentineâs day, i hope you enjoy this oneshot! do leave a like, reblog, or comment if you could, it really helps so much <3
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IF ONE MORE CUT-OUT, CRAFT-PAPER HEART HIT YOU IN THE FACE, YOU WERE GOING TO QUIT YOUR JOB.
Of course you would never actually quit. With your mother out of the picture and your father working nonstop overtime just to barely have enough cash to put food on the table for the both of you, you had come to rely on your minimum wage part-time hours more than you liked to admit. However, the handmade strings of paper hearts that hung from wall to wall throughout the entirety of the record shop you were employed at was enough to make you consider it; not to mention the Phil Collins record that had been spinning all day, filling your ears with melodies embodying the very air of romance, and the embarrassing pink sweater your boss had forced you to wear. You mumbled curses beneath your breath as you pulled at the collar, itching away at your neck.
When you made a step towards a crate full of records, ready to tidy it up after a customer had rummaged through it leaving it a mess, you were met with another face full of cheap red construction paper. With a large growl of exasperation, you swatted at the hearts and accidentally caused the entire string of them to fall to the ground. You cleared your throat, glad that no customers were present to see your little outburst.
Your boss, Jen, still saw it all.
âThatâs not very festive of you, kid,â She said, taking a drag on her cigarette. âItâs Valentineâs Day! Lighten up.â
âAh, my bad. I forgot that I was supposed to be overjoyed on the day honoring the execution of St. Valentine,â You said as you gave her a sarcastic smile. âIâll make sure to smile at the next couple that walks in and ask them how they plan to contribute to the commercialization of a martyrâs death.â
âYou must be real fun at parties,â Jen mumbled. She shook her cigarette at you from behind the counter. âYouâre just bitter because you donât have a valentine. I canât blame anyone for giving you the cold shoulder with that attitude of yours.â
You scowled, picking up the string of hearts that you had sent crashing to the floor. âIâm not bitter, and I donât want a date. Also, I told you to stop smoking inside! It smells awful.â
âLast I checked, this was my shop, not yours.â You rolled your eyes as you approached the counter, handing the discarded string to Jen so she could throw it in the trash. âNow youâre making me do chores for you too? Youâve got some nerve, Iâll give you that.â
âJen, please, Iâm really not in the mood for this today.â
Jen shrugged, bending towards the trash can to throw away the string of hearts when she paused and pulled something from the bin. You glanced over your shoulder and gasped when you saw what she held in her handâa small red envelope with your name scrawled across the front and a pink heart-shaped sticker stuck on the back.
âWhatâs this?â Jen asked, opening the envelope and shaking out the contents. A single slip of paper fell out, landing atop the counter. You rushed to grab it, but Jen snatched it up just before your fingers reached the countertop.
âGive me that,â You insisted, face growing warm. âI threw it away for a reason!â
âItâs an invitation to a party?â She seemed beyond surprised, glancing back and forth between you and the paper several times. âYou got invited to a Valentineâs Day party, and instead of going, you asked me to give you extra hours? Why?â
You looked down at your feet, digging the toe of your sneaker into the blue carpet. There were, in fact, many reasons why you did not want to go to that party. They were as follows:
One: Choi Yeonjun was the one who had invited you. After you had rejected his offer when he asked to take you to a basketball game a month before, you could barely make eye contact with him in the school hallway without feeling guilty. That and the fact that he was one of the richest preps in the school, you knew he had just been asking you out for some sort of prank or dare that you preferred to not potentially fall victim to.
Two: you needed to work as much as you could. Money, as always, was tight for you and your father. There was no way you would sacrifice precious hours to go to a party full of rich kids where nothing but humiliation was sure to await you.
Three: your old childhood friend and the one person you couldnât bear to see was probably going to be thereâChoi Soobin.
You had barely spoken to Soobin in the four years you had been in high school. Crossing paths with him in the cafeteria, turning down the same aisle of books as him in the library, all those tiny stolen glances and accidental encounters were the only bits of interaction you had kept throughout all that time. The worst part was, he hadnât done anything wrong.
It was nothing but your own cowardice that had driven the two of you apart, and you were still too afraid to own up to it.
Instead of explaining all of this to Jen, you simply shrugged and said, âI dunno. It just sounds lame.â
Your boss sighed, holding the invitation out towards you. âOkay, Iâm letting you off early. Go to the party.â
With wide eyes, you shook your head immediately. âAbsolutely not. Why in the world would I go?â
âWell, first of all, itâs a once in a lifetime opportunity for you. Who knows when your next chance to go to a party will be.â
You couldnât help but roll your eyes at that.
âSecond, itâs a holiday! The only reason I even opened today was because you were begging me for hours. I thought it was because you were bummed about having no plans, but clearly itâs because you wanted an excuse to be a recluse.â
âHey, Iâm not a recluse.â
âClearly.â She shook the invitation at you once more, brows raised. âIf you go, Iâll raise your pay by fifty cents for the next month.â
Your ears perked up at that.
âWell?â She asked, well aware that she had hit the jackpot. âWhat'd ya say?â
Weighing the risks against the benefits, you bit the inside of your cheek.
âMake it a dollar and youâve got a deal.âÂ
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âHAPPY VALENTINEâS, CHOI.â
When Soobin heard the sarcastic remark coming from his best friend, Felix, he had to fight back the urge to burst into tears then and there. He still wasnât quite sure how Felix had convinced him to come, but he was already regretting it. The last thing he wanted to do to celebrate the day dedicated to love was spend it at a house partyâor, as Soobin preferred to call them, any outcast high school kidâs version of hell on earth.
With a quick peek between his fingers, which he had used to cover his eyes immediately upon arriving at the site of the Valentineâs party, Soobin caught another eye-full of couples getting all too familiar with one another out in the open. He gulped, letting his hands grip the handles of the bike as he averted his gaze, choosing to cast his best glare at Felix, who was busy adjusting his ever-present beanie.
âShut up,â he murmured, slowly sliding off the seat of his bike. He dusted off the worn, tearing cushion, glancing around the area. âNow quick, we gotta put our stuff somewhere safe.â
Felix looked aghast, making no moves to help Soobin in his search for a hiding spot. âWhat are you doing?â
âTryna find a safe place for my bike?â He thought the answer to be somewhat obvious, but clearly Felix wasnât on the same track of thinking. âYou donât know todayâs world! Anyone is willing to steal nowadays.â
âSoobin, your bike is coughing up oil from its chains. It should be in its own care home at this rate.â
âI donât wanna hear your slander, skater boy,â Soobin retorted, eyeing Felixâs ebony skateboard that he refused to be seen without. As if on cue, when he pushed his bike forward, the chains squealed, drawing the attention of a pair of particularly passionate individuals who had been wrapped up with one another moments before. Soobin ignored their annoyed stares, feeling his ears burn from embarrassment. He glanced back to Felix. âHelp me find a hiding spot.â
Felix was anything but enthusiastic, but he began to help Soobin search nonetheless.
âSlide it in here, Soobs,â Felix called a few moments later. He was pointed to an empty space between the homeâs perfectly trimmed bushes. Soobin pursed his lips together, pushing his large glasses further up the bridge of his noseâa nervous tick of his. Felix groaned, rolling his eyes. âOr you can leave it out in the open so itâll spit more oil on the passersby? Is that what you want?â
âFine, fine!â Soobin huffed, wheeling his bike over to the shrubbery, chains squeaking all the way. He carefully laid it beneath the brush and moved a few branches to cover it up nicely. He stood up straight, dusting his hands on the front of his loose blue jeans. âWhat about your skateboard?â
Felix gave the board a pat, awarding his most prized possession a dazzling smile one would expect to see a proud father giving his beloved son. But in reality, it was the schoolâs stoner grinning ear to ear at his old, dusty skateboard. âNightrider stays with me.â
Soobin scrunched his nose, cringing on instinct. He still calls that thing by that stupid name?
Felix clapped him on the shoulder before he could make a remark, catching him off guard when he said, âRight. Letâs go and get your girl.â
There was nothing Soobin could do to stop the flush that rushed to his cheeks right away. Images of you, his ex-best friend and the only reason he had even come to this party in the first place, flashed through his mind. Had he not overheard Yeonjun invite you earlier that morning and then casually mention the encounter to Felix, there was no way he would have even stepped foot out of his house that night. Part of him was peeved, wishing he had never uttered a single word about you to his overbearing friend. Yet, deep down, there was hope within himâthe tiniest sliver.
If there was even the slightest chance that he could talk to you that night, he would do anything. Even if it meant dealing with a stupid party, and the never-ceasing teasing he was bound to continue receiving from Felix.
âDonât even say that,â He said, emphasizing each word as they walked up the front steps. Soobin had to glance down at his much shorter friend to see the devious grin on his freckled face.
âSay what? That sheâs your girl, your woman, your one and only?â
The blush must have been creeping to his neck by that point. He could feel it. âI. . .â There were many things Soobin wished to say; angry words that would hopefully shut the blonde skater boy up real quick. But he couldnât bring himself to say a single harsh word, so he sighed in defeat. âI canât even say it.â
âThat you hate me?â Felix only grinned even bigger, and Soobin couldnât help the tiny defeated smile that slipped over his features. âOh, I know. Itâs because Iâm too good of a best friend.â
They stepped into the house then, instantly being overwhelmed by loud music, boisterous laughter, and drunken yells echoing throughout the halls. Soobin latched onto Felix right away, gripping his friendâs sleeve as someone stumbled into him, a bit of beer spilling from their cup. He pushed his glasses up, only for them to slide right back down as he began to sweat.
âMaybe we should go home, Lix!â Soobin shouted to be heard over the noise as they travelled further into the house. âWe can always try next year!â
âStop being a scaredy-cat!â Felix shouted back, and Soobin thought he might actually begin to cry as they squeezed their way into the living room. Soobin nearly gagged at the strong smell of alcohol as it burned in his nose. The scene was nothing short of a nightmare to Soobinâloud voices, smoke rising in the air, vodka assaulting his nose and sweat beading on the back of his neck. He had never been one to drink, and he didnât plan on starting that night; but he was beginning to understand what Felix meant when he had once told him it was nearly impossible to get through one of these parties sober.
He was about to make another complaint and beg to leave when someone from the crowd hollered his name, causing him to wince when he recognized that voice as the one that belonged to none other than Choi Yeonjun.
âSoobin! Where you been?â
Soobin smiled nervously at the schoolâs heartthrobâand textbook snobby rich kidâbefore he turned back to Felix. He didnât want to leave his friend, but he knew that he would never hear the end of it if he ignored Yeonjunâs persistent calls. âIâll be right back,â He promised Felix, still holding onto his sleeve.
âNo, no,â Felix assured. âYou go. Youâll probably find her around that place anyway.â
Soobin wasnât so sure of that. You were definitely not of the right social standing to be caught amongst the circle of the schoolâs rich boysâwhich was why it had surprised Soobin that Yeonjun had invited you to the party in the first place. Your high school had its own caste system, and you were near the bottom of it.
And, as much as it pained him to admit it, Soobin was stuck at the very top with all the other rich snobs who cared about nothing more than their daily allowances that came straight from their daddyâs bank account.
âWhat about you, buddy?â He asked Felix, desperate for any excuse to remain by his friendâs side. He would have tried to bring Felix with him, but his friend was in an even worse social standing than you wereâhe was poor, and he was most known for being the schoolâs pothead. There was no way Soobin would willingly drag him into a situation where nothing but slander and torment awaited him.
âMe?â Felix shrugged, gripping his board tighter. âIâll just smoke away the night.â
Soobin pouted, glancing back at the group of preps as they called for him once again. He sighed, clapping Felix on the shoulder. âJust make sure you wonât smell too much of it when I come back.â
Submitting himself to his doom then, he turned on his heel and slowly made his way to where the group of boys sat near the sofa, giving them a half-hearted wave.
âWhy were you hanging around that Felix guy?â Yeonjun asked once Soobin had reached their circle. âDid he blackmail you or something?â
Soobin frowned, pushing his hands into the pockets of his jeans. âHeâs my friend.â
Yeonjun rolled his eyes, brushing a hand through his perfectly-straightened ebony locks. âSure he is. Tell me, do you see every kid you find on the streets as some sort of personal charity project? Or is it just Felix andâwhat was her nameââ He snapped his fingers then before he said, âY/N, right?â
Soobin didnât respondâwell, it was more like he couldnât respond. By nature he was a very passive being, but nothing drew him closer to bouts of anger than when the people he cared about were being insulted right before him.
Especially when it came to you.
Yet, as much as he wanted to tell Yeonjun off or give him a nice shove into the smoke-stained walls, words failed him. They always did. Perhaps this was why you had abandoned him all those years ago. Nobody knew him better than you did, so of course you were able to see what he truly was beneath all the expensive clothes and nervous laughterâa coward.
He figured that heâd probably have left himself too.
âDrink up, buttercup.â The chipper voice that belonged to the other Choi in the small gathering of socialites, Choi Beomgyu, thrust a plastic red cup towards Soobinâs chest.Â
He shook his head, throwing another wavering smile in his direction. âNo thanks. I donât drink.â
Yeonjun rolled his eyes. âOf course you donât. Why are you even here then?â
Once again, Soobin chose silence as his only response. He swallowed, patting the front pocket of his denim jacket. As the group of boys began conversing once more, he couldnât help but let his eyes wander around the room, searching every drunken face for the features that belonged to you, trying to hear your name in every conversation, desperate for your voice to break through the blasting music and shouting voices.
âWho ya looking for there, Big Choi?â Soobin grimaced at the nickname. He was skinny, but incredibly tall, and nobody would let him forget that. âBig Choiâ was one of his most common nicknames among the elitists. He despised it, but of course, he would never voice that aloud.
He glanced at Beomgyu and smiled nervously again, shaking his head. âNobody.â
His eyes met Yeonjunâs and he gulped yet again as the latter eyed him with suspicion. It wasnât as though he had anything to hide, but something about Yeonjunâs calculating gaze made his skin crawl.
He needed to escape. Just for a moment, at least.
âIâll be right back. Going to find some water.â
He slipped out of the living room then, apologizing profusely to each couple he accidentally bumped into, bowing in remorse to each personâs toes his big feet happened to stumble over. He ached to be by Felixâs sideâthe stoned skateboarder had become somewhat of a security blanket to the taller of the duoâbut his blonde friend was nowhere to be seen.
After snagging a bottle of water from the kitchen, Soobin managed to slip into an empty bathroom. He slammed the door shut and wasted no time in locking it. Letting out the biggest sigh of relief, he closed his eyes and leaned his head back against the door, taking a big gulp of the ice cold water.
He set the bottle on the counter and carefully reached into the front pocket of his jacket, his fingers finding the piece of paper he had been storing there all evening. He pulled it out and let his eyes wander over his middle school creation. It was a big heart, cut out from a scrap piece of red construction paper. Scrawled across it in his eight-grade handwriting were the words, Be mine this Valentineâs! His name was etched at the bottom, and at the very top, delicately printed in hot pink glitter glue, your name was written as well.
He had planned to give this to you four years ago on Valentineâs day. Everything had been planned out perfectly; he was to pick you up on his old, trusty bike. It wasnât really made for two people, but the two of you had fashioned a makeshift extra seat for you to sit upon whenever you went places together.Â
He wanted to take you to the Dairy Shack, which was the local ice cream shop where the two of you spent the most time together. You always got a large chocolate shake to share, playing a quick game of rock, paper, scissors to decide who got to eat the cherry on top. He was going to order a shake and specially ask for two cherries that time, and planned to give both of them to you before he would bravely present you with the handmade card he had spent all day working on.
However, when he waited for you outside your house that day, the red dusk turned to pitch black night, and you never stepped foot out your door.
He had even gone up to your door a few times and knocked, but there was no answer. Eventually he pedalled off into the night, back to his house. He was disappointed, of course, but more worried than anything else. He had hoped you werenât sick.
But when he saw you at school the next day, he knew that hadnât been the case.
And when you ignored him calling your name as you passed by him in the hallways, he knew that something had drastically changed.
For weeks, Soobin was in great turmoil as he replayed your last few encounters together before you had stood him up. Perhaps you were angry that he had won the last few games of rock, paper, scissors? If he had known, he would have given you all the cherries for the rest of time if it meant you would still talk to him. He didnât care about themâhe cared about you.
He missed you.
And as weeks turned to months, and months turned to years, you still barely spoke to him, and he missed you more and more. The best friend he had wanted to take a step closer to had taken a thousand steps back from him, and he still had no idea why.
But that night, he was determined to find out.
Well, if he could muster up the courage to get a single word out, of course.
He folded the heart back up and stuck it back in his pocket, taking a deep breath as he observed himself in the fogged-up mirror. He fixed his bright blue hair that Felix had helped him bleach and dye, making sure the pieces fell over the corners of his eyes just right. He straightened his white turtleneck and cuffed the sleeves of his denim jacket until he was at least somewhat content with his appearance.
âYou can do this, Soobs,â He told himself, adjusting his big round glasses further up the bridge of his nose. âThatâs what Felix would say.â
âHey, rich boy!â A loud scream came from outside the bathroom door, accompanied by harsh knocking that sent Soobin stumbling backwards until he fell in the shower, pulling the curtains down with him.
âHurry up in there! Iâm about to piss myself!â
Soobin let out a shaky sigh, scrambling to his feet as he rushed to fix the curtain he had torn down with his clumsiness. âSorry,â he mumbled, though he doubted the person on the other side of the door could hear him.
He realized then with an ever growing dread that it would be a miracle if he survived the night long enough to even find you, but it would take the work of God himself for him to actually speak to you.
He figured it was time for him to start praying.
-Â
YOU KNEW IT WAS A MISTAKE TO LET JEN DO YOUR MAKEUP.
When she had stopped you on your way out the door with a compact of bright purple eyeshadow, you had turned her down right away. No way in all of creation were you walking in a party with such an atrocious color caked up to your brow bone.
âHow can you say itâs gonna look bad if you havenât even let me try?â Jen had asked.
You had given her a once-over, your lips pressed into a thin line. âIf itâs gonna look anything like the way you do your own makeup, Iâm gonna have to pass.â
After that snide remark, she had threatened to fire you if you didnât let her apply the makeup. And so you obliged, though you didnât have much of a choice.
The booming sounds of the party hit your ears before you had even reached the lawn. Screaming teensâwell, there were probably some adults thrown in there as wellâand the sound of music spilled through the open windows of the home. Couples and singles alike were scattered throughout the perfectly kept lawn that was now littered with empty cups and other assortments of garbage.
You looked down at your patchwork jeans and pink sweater, certain that you would be underdressed compared to the rest of the partygoers. But from the looks of things, as you carefully squeezed your way through the front door and into the home, everyone was probably too wasted to even notice your arrival, let alone care about your looks.
You caught a glimpse of your face in the hallway mirror, cringing at the sight of your eyeshadow. You had tried to wipe some of it away before arriving, but it simply smudged, giving you quite the shocking smoky, purple eye look. For someone who didnât even know the difference between a paintbrush and a makeup brush, it was a bold look, to say the least.
If Soobin saw you looking like this, heâd probably have a heart attack.
Soobin.
In the midst of all your frantic preparation, you had nearly forgotten about the main reason why you had planned to avoid this party at all costs. With a quick glance around the room, you realized that he was nowhere to be seen. You wouldnât have been surprised if he hadnât shown up at all. He was never a fan of parties, anyway.
You crossed your arms over your chest and slowly slipped past the couples crowding the hallway with their limbs intertwined, mouths practically swallowing one another whole, until you reached the living room. Surprisingly, it was less crowded in here than you thought it might be. A few minglers were scattered about the roomâs perimeter, but they all kept away from the center of the room, which was occupied by none other than Choi Yeonjun and all his brainless, rich-boy worshippers. You quickly scanned the group, not able to make out Soobin among them. When you realized he wasnât there, you were partly relieved and partly disappointed. If was to be anywhere at this party, it would probably be with these guys.
With a quick turn on your heel, you planned to make your way out of the living room before Yeonjun could see you. The last thing you wanted was for the boy with a bruised ego to see you, regardless of whether or not he had been the one to invite you.
âY/N? You came?â
Too late.
Plastering a forced grin to your face, you slowly turned to face Yeonjun, who had just called your name. He was eyeing you with slight surprise, but soon, a smirk slipped across his lips as he motioned for you to come over. You had to hold back your sigh, wishing there was some way for you to get out of this situation. It was all Jenâs fault that you had to show up in the first place. You decided you were going to demand an extra ten cents be added to your raise the next time you saw your pushy boss.
âHey Yeonjun,â you said once you had walked over to him. âI figured Iâd stop by for a minute or two, since you were kind enough to invite me.â
He smirked, glancing at a few of his friends. They shared a knowing laugh with one another, but the meaning of it was lost to you. You wanted nothing more than to get away from them, but that wasnât an option.
âYouâre too busy to go out with me to a basketball game but free enough to come to a party, huh?â He asked.
You blinked, digging your nails into your arms. âIâm sorry?â
âItâs fine, really,â He drawled, swirling his plastic cup of beer in his hand. âYou didnât think Iâd be upset or anything did you? I only asked you out because I was dared to shack up with you. But Iâm guessing you already knew that, since youâre so smart and all.â
Your eyes went wide, but you managed to control the rest of your expression. It was just like you had guessedâYeonjun had invited you to the party with the sole purpose of making a scene.
If you survived the night, Jen was never going to hear the end of it.
âYouâre not gonna say anything?â He asked, pushing himself to his feet. You could tell by the slight stumble in his step and his hooded eyes that he had quite a bit to drink. He took a step towards you, causing you to back up immediately. Your back hit the wall, and you placed your palms against it as Yeonjun towered over you.Â
âItâs okay, sweetheart. I know why youâre here anyways.â He leaned forward, his lips hovering near your ear. âYouâre here to see Soobin, arenât you? Since heâs the only one here willing to waste his time on filth like you.â
Your blood boiled, and you had to clench your fists at your sides to control your anger.
âDonât,â You seethed, âCall me that.â
âCall you what? Filth? Or sweetheart? Why, is that something good old Binnie used to call youââ
He never got to finish that sentence, because with one big burst of anger, you stomped on his toe as hard as you could with your worn-out platform sneaker.
âWhat the hell!â He screeched, drawing the attention of several others in the room. His outburst even caused a few of the couples to pull away from each otherâs faces long enough to eavesdrop.
Before you could even say anything back, lukewarm liquid was splashed up in your face, burning your eyes and nose. You gasped, running your hands over your eyes to see Yeonjun with his now empty cup of beer pointed towards you.
âThink twice before you act out against me next time, sweetheart. Never forget your place.â
Tears of anger burned in your eyes, and you scanned the room to see several people exchanging whispers and giggles as they glanced in your direction. You pushed past Yeonjun and quickly made your way out the back door of the house, unable to stand the humiliation for a moment longer.
Soobin arrived in the living room just in time to see you leave.
He wasted no time in rushing towards Yeonjun, grabbing hold of his arm. âYeonjun, was that Y/N?â He asked, eyes quickly taking in the puddle of alcohol on the floor and the empty cup in Yeonjunâs hand. âWhat happened?â
âNothing you need to worry your pretty blue head about, Big Choi. I just put her in her place is all.â
Soobinâs eyes narrowed. âWhat do you mean you âput her in her place?ââ
Yeonjun laughed, giving Soobin a nonchalant pat on the back. âJust drop it, would you? It has nothing to do with you.â
âWhat did you say, Yeonjun?â
Yeonjun was growing irritated now. He huffed out a breath, crossing his arms over his chest. âI said it has nothing to do with you, Soobin. I know you like to hang around people like that pothead Felix, but the rest of us live in the real world, where weâd rather not waste our time with those who have no future anyways. I bet heâs the one that got you to dye your hair that god awful blue, isnât he?â
Soobin bit the inside of his cheek. He so badly wished to rip Yeonjun to shreds then and there. If he had Felixâs courage, the cocky bastard would have been knocked to the ground ages ago. But if there was one thing Soobin was sure he could never be, it was brave. And so, despite his rage, he remained silent, his eyes practically burning a hole through Yeonjunâs chest from how intently he was glaring.
It seemed as though Yeonjun was about to say something, but his eyes landed on the bit of red that peeked through the front pocket of Soobinâs denim jacket. Before Soobin had time to defend himself, Yeonjun had reached forward and snatched it from his pocket, revealing the large paper heartâhis valentine for you.
âSo this is why you care so much,â Yeonjun said, laughing as his eyes scanned the glittery words that decorated the page. âYou want her to be your valentine.â
âGive that back,â Soobin said quietly, his hands beginning to shake.
Yeonjun instead lifted his eyes to Soobin, gave him a sickly sweet grin, and ripped the heart straight down the middle. He let the two pieces fall from his hands to the ground, and with them Soobinâs heart went also.
âYouâre really willing to try and go against me, and for what? For the sake of a girl who canât even afford a new pair of jeans and a boy that smokes his life away in the bathroom stalls?â Yeonjun took a slow step towards Soobin, his eyes glinting with a sinister determination. âYou may be rich, Soobin, but if you choose to lower yourself to their standards, you may as well be dirt poor just like they are.â
With his hands clenched into tight fists, his glasses sliding down his nose, and his heart quite literally in two pieces on the floor below him, Soobin decided that he had had enough.
âIâd much rather be associated with people who are kind and have actual depth to their character than be lumped together with a bunch of pricks like you with no real personalityâbecause thatâs something you canât buy with daddyâs paycheck.â
He had to physically restrain himself from slapping his hand across his own mouth in shock. It was as if the spirit of Felix himself had possessed him to say such harsh things. He wondered where Felix was then, wishing more than ever before to have his best friend by his side as he began to tremble from either the rush of adrenaline that coursed through his veins, or from fear. Or perhaps it was both.
He didnât have time to ponder it any longer before Yeonjunâs fist collided with his nose, resulting in a sickening crack as pain echoed throughout his face in tidal waves.
He stumbled backward as people began to shout, raising his hand to his nose and gasping when he saw that his palm was covered in blood.Â
Beomgyu had his arms wrapped around Yeonjun, who was desperately trying to lunge towards Soobin once again.
âKnock it off, Yeonjun!â Beomgyu shouted, pushing the elder back. âHis dad is on the school board! Are you trying to get expelled?â
Beomgyu looked over his shoulder at the still stunned Soobin, who was gaping at the blood that now stained his once white turtleneck.Â
âGet lost, Soobin,â Beomgyu said, to which Soobin only blinked in reply, his ears ringing.
âNow!â
Head spinning, Soobin picked up the two halves of his paper heart, stuffed them into his jeans, and stumbled out the same door he had seen you go through just minutes before. After checking to make sure his glasses were still intactâthey were, thankfullyâhe shook his head in an effort to clear his mind of the static, eyes scanning the front lawn looking for any trace of you.
It didnât take long for his eyes to spot you among the now dwindling crowd of partygoers. Your bright pink sweater stood out against the darkness, so he was able to recognize you even with your back towards him. He sniffed, wiping the back of his hand against his dripping nose as he slowly made his way to where you sat on the curb, your feet planted on the asphalt street. He wished that he looked a bit more presentableâwhen he played this scene out in his head over the years in which he would finally reunite with you, he never imagined himself dazed and covered in blood.
Desperate times called for desperate measures, he supposed.
When he reached you, he simply stood beside you in silence for a moment, unsure of what to say. He could tell that you sensed his presence, but you refused to look up at him as you kept your face buried in your hands. He could have sworn he heard a few muffled sobs slip through your fingers, but of course, he wasnât going to bring that up.
Eventually he decided to slip his jacket off of his shoulders, leaning down to drape it over you. You still kept your head down as he sat beside you on the curb, but he watched you grip the jacket and pull it tighter around your body. He smiled a bit, holding the collar of his turtleneck against his throbbing nose.
âThank you,â you muttered, wiping your hand across your eyes. You finally looked over at him, and when you did, you couldnât hold back your gasp. âMy God Soobin, what happened to your face?â
âOh, well, I might have gotten punched,â He said quickly, trying to wave off your concern. âDonât worry about it.â
âPunched? By who?â
He looked down at the ground, sniffing as a drop of blood hit the pavement. âYeonjun,â he muttered under his breath.
âIâm sorry, did you just say Yeonjun? Are you insane? Why on earth would you butt heads with the Choi Yeonjun?â
Soobin didnât say anything in response, he simply stared at you, eyes wide with beer dripping off the ends of your hair, makeup smeared across your face, your sweater stained down the front. It didnât seem to take long for you to put the pieces together, as the shock left your face and was replaced with something akin to guilt.
âOh,â You said, looking back down at your shoes.
âSo she knows that I did it all for her,â Soobin thought.
For some reason, the idea of that both terrified and excited him.
A second later, he glanced over to see you ripping one of the hand-sewed patches of fabric off your jeans, leaving a square of your skin exposed to the chilly night air. You leaned towards him, pushing his hand away from his nose so you could use the patch to clean up some of the blood on and around his puffy red nose.
âY/N, your pants!â He exclaimed, trying to push your hand away. âTheyâre ruined!â
âIâm not worried about my pants, you idiot,â You said, swatting his hand away as you continued to press the cloth against his skin. âYou got punched in the face because of me, this is the least I could do.â
âThat was my choice though,â He muttered, although he stopped trying to resist your touch. He ignored the way his heart thrummed harder in his chest, hoping that you couldnât hear.
âWell, this is my choice too.â Your eyes flicked to his for a brief moment, your bottom lip pulled between your teeth. âWhy did you do it, by the way?â
âDo what?â
âStand up to Yeonjun for me and get a nasty nosebleed as a result.â
âOh.â He blinked slowly, keeping his eyes fixed on yours. âJust âcause.â
âBecause . . . ?â
âBecause of you.â He blurted, causing your hand to go still against him. He swallowed his fear, braving the best smile that he could. âJust you. That was my only reason.â
You didnât say anything as your hand fell from his face, the cloth clutched between your fingers. The anxiety he had tried his best to suppress came rushing up all at once, and he was surprised that his ears didnât begin to squeal like a tea kettle from all the pressure.Â
âY/N,â He said, gently placing his hand over yours despite how his fingers trembled. âWhy did you pull away from me?â
âWhat?â
âFour years ago. Why did you stop talking to me?â
You were quiet for a moment, digging into the ground with the toe of your sneaker. Soobin held his breath until you finally replied with, âI was afraid.â
âAfraid? Of what?â
âWe were getting older, Binnie,â You said, and his heart skipped at the use of your old nickname for him. âYou and I, weâre from very different walks of life. You get to hang out with people like Yeonjun, whereas I get a cup of beer poured all over my face just for existing, and you get a fist to the nose for trying to stand up for me. Weâre from different sides of the track, one might say.â
âSo?â Soobin asked, his hand tightening around yours. âDid you really think that would affect us that much, Y/N?â
You frowned, glancing down at his hand over yours.
âI thought youâd be embarrassed of me,â You said, your voice barely above a whisper.
âEmbarrassed?â Soobinâs eyes went wide as he gripped your hand tighter still, pulling it into his lap. âY/N, I would never, ever be embarrassed of you. Besides, have you seen my best friend? Heâs on a first name basis with the principal because of how often he gets written up for smoking behind the school. If Iâm not embarrassed of him, why would I ever be embarrassed of you?â
You laughed, wiping the back of your hand across your eyes once more. âI guess I was worried about nothing, huh?â You sniffed, giving his hand a squeeze. âIâm sorry, Soobin.â
He shook his head, squeezing your hand right back. âDonât apologize. Youâre here now, thatâs what matters. Do think we couldâyou knowââ
âPick up where we left off?â You smiled, nodding vigorously. âIâd like that very much, Binnie.â
He beamed then, almost pinching himself to be sure that he was not dreaming, but the pain in his nose was real enough to remind him of that on its own. He jumped to his feet, pulling you right up with him.
âIn that case, how about we finally go on that Valentineâs date I had planned all the way back then?â
âDate?â You asked, a brow raised. âIs it really considered a date if two friends are just hanging out?â
He didnât respond as he pulled you along behind him towards the bushes where he and Felix had hidden his bike. He crouched down and moved the branches aside, feeling his heart drop to his stomach when he realized that his bike was, in fact, no longer there.
He shot up, turning to face you with eyes wide. âFelixâthat bastard took my bike!â
You were quiet for a moment, but then, you burst into boisterous laughter, leaving Soobin utterly confused.
âItâs not funny, Y/N!â He whined, shoving your shoulder lightly. âI was supposed to take you to the Dairy Shack on my bike!â
âIt is funny,â You said between bursts of laughter. âOnly you would get such a rusty old piece of metal stolen from you.â
He pushed his lips out in a pout, sliding his glasses up his sore nose. âItâs a good bike, donât make fun of it.â
You grinned, interlocking his fingers with yours, which was enough to instantly wipe the pout right off his face.Â
âLetâs just walk, Binnie. The Dairy Shack isnât that far anyways.â
You were right; the walk to your favorite milkshake place was very close to the house where the party had occurred. Although Felix stealing his bike had thrown an obvious wrench in his plans, it was a minor hiccup, and one he could most definitely handle. Besides, he wouldnât have to see Felix until the next day anyways. He could deal with his frustration then.
At least, thatâs what he thought anyways, until the two of you spotted Felix at the skatepark on your way to the dairy shack.
Soobinâs eyes took in the deplorable sight before himâfrom where he stood on the dimly lit sidewalk, he could see Felix and a girl he had never seen before, their faces nearly pressed together, and most importantly, with his bike discarded a few yards away from them.
âSoobin,â You said, tugging on his arm. âThey look like theyâre busy, letâs just goââ
But Soobin, who had little patience when it came to Felix messing up his plans, didnât let you finish before he screamed, âGive me back my freaking bike!â
You had to hold back your snort of laughter at his choice of words. Even when he was trying to sound angry, he was undeniably adorable.
Soobin watched as Felix startled, clutching his spliff between his fingers as he glared daggers back at his friend. Soobin gulped, trying not to let his fear show on his face. What did he have to be afraid of, anyways? He was the victim of thievery, and his best friend was the offender.
Felix took a big step towards him, but he paused, his eyes landing on your interlocked hands. Soobin glanced down as well, his face growing furiously warm as he realized the situation he had gotten himself into.Â
He decided to divert the subject before it could even be brought up by saying, âI canât believe you stole my bike! All this time I was trying to hide it from strangers, but you, my best friend! I shouldâve been hiding it from you!â
Soobin noticed Felixâs female companion step off the skateboard and walk over in his direction, and for a second he felt bad for possibly ruining her night with his best friend. However, his frustration was more prominent in the moment as he fixed his gaze back on his best friend, who had fixed a mischievous smirk upon his face that made warning sirens blare in Soobinâs head right away.
âNow, now, buddy,â Felix said, his voice calm and carefree as ever. It probably had something to do with what he had just smoked, but Soobin didnât care all that much. âYouâre just gonna have to let me borrow it for a little longer.â
Soobin nearly laughed at the audacity of such a statement. âYou are gonna give me the bike, orââ
âHow about this, Soobs?â Soobinâs lips clamped shut at his friendâs interruption, as the thief in question gestured with his joint to where Soobinâs fingers were locked with yours. âYou let me keep your bike for the night, and I donât tell your dad about you hanging out with the opposite gender.â
Unable to control yourself, you let out a big laugh. Soobin would have felt betrayed, but he was more terrified than anything else at the idea of his father finding out that he was taking a girl out without his permission. He would be grounded for weeksâno, months.
âYou wouldnât.â
Felixâs lips curled up even more into a twisted grin that Soobin wished he had the guts to slap off his face. âGod, just imagine the look on Mr. Choiâs face. Imagine him finding out about your premarital hand holding.â
No. Not the hand holding.
Soobin almost felt faint, but he steeled himself to the best of his abilities as he cleared his throat. âOne night, Lix,â he warned. âIf I donât see it on my porch in the morning, youâll be sorry!â
âOh, Iâm so scared,â Felix teased. His expression changed a moment later though, when he finally noticed Soobinâs swollen nose and blood-stained turtleneck. âWait, Soobs, the hell happened to you?â
Soobin, however, had already taken his first steps away from the skatepark, pulling you along behind him. âIâll tell you later, bud. Enjoy your spliff with that kind girl who you probably donât deserve!â
âHey!â
Soobin couldnât help but laugh as he swung your interlocked hands together, grinning as you let out a laugh as well. The anger that had seeped through him seemed to melt away in an instant as the two of you continued your journey to the Dairy Shack.
âWould your dad really be that upset if he found out about this?â You asked.
Soobin grimaced. âWe should probably wait til next year to tell him about this outing. Or maybe the year after that.â
When the two of you had finally reached the Dairy Shack, you waited outside for him while he went in to order your drink. A large chocolate milkshake, with two straws, just like you used to get every time before.
When he had the drink in hand, he walked back outside and sat down beside you on the curb, smiling as you wrapped his jacket tighter around your shoulders. You smiled back up at him, your eyes creasing from the expression. Your smile had always struck him right to his core; he had missed seeing it every day.
He hoped he could see it every morning and every night from that day onward. There was no way he would let you go this time.
He just had to muster up the courage to grab hold of you first.
âYou know what, Binnie, you turned out to be a lot taller than I thought you ever would be,â you said as you took one of the straws from his hands. âYouâre actually enormous. Itâs shocking.â
âShould I find that offensive? It sounds kinda like an insult.â
âTake it however you will,â You teased, leaning over as he popped the plastic lid off the milkshake. He grabbed the cherry by the stem and held it towards you.
âWhat are you doing?â You asked, holding out your fist. âWe have to rock, paper, scissors for it. Remember?â
Soobin laughed as he shook his head. âIâm giving it to you this time. Itâs what I planned to do all those years ago, when I asked you to hang out on Valentineâs.â
You seemed to be taken aback, but you simply shrugged as you plucked the cherry from his hand and pulled it from the stem with your teeth, glancing back over at him. It was silent for a moment, but then your eyes landed on the pocket of his jeans, where you could see a bit of red paper poking out. You leaned over even further, reaching your hand out to snatch the paper.
âWhat are youâhey! Give that back!â
Soobin desperately tried to take his Valentine back from you, but it was too late. You held both halves of what used to be a whole in your hands, your eyes scanning the words as you pieced them together.
âSoobin . . .â
He held his breath. Had his act of young love left you completely speechless? Were you so touched that you would burst into tears?
âThis looks like a middle schooler made it.â
He let out the breath in the form of a long, long sigh.
âThatâs because it was made by a middle schooler,â He said as he set the milkshake down beside him. âI made it back in the eighth grade. I planned to give it to you that Valentineâs.â
âOh.â You ran your finger along the cardâs surface, the smallest smile creeping across your lips. âWell in that case, itâs not half bad. Whyâs it ripped though?â
âAhâwell, Yeonjun . . .â
You nodded, taking another glance at his swollen nose. âNo need to elaborate. It seems you had a lot planned for our Valentineâs Day back then. Is there anything else you wanted to do?â
His mouth went dry at that, and he wished that you couldnât see his face because he was sure that his expression was quite comical. All the way back then, four years prior, he had in fact planned the perfect, ideal day in his head. Picking you up on his bike, giving you the cherry from his milkshake, and presenting you with his hand made card.
There was only one thing left on his list.
He didnât move at first, willing himself to have enough courage to even look back in your direction. But when he finally did allow his eyes to meet yours, he felt his shoulders relax and his heart rate became more manageable.
He took a deep breath, leaned forward, and pressed his lips against your cheek.
He lingered there for only a moment before he pulled back, daring to pry one of his eyes open to take in the look on your face.
The disappointment was palpableâfrom the way your brows furrowed together and the way you pursed your lips. His stomach dropped, and he scooted the tiniest bit away from you.
âIâm sorry,â He blurt out, his face growing warmer by the second. âI shouldnât have done that, I justââ
âIs that all?â
Your question stopped him mid-ramble, his eyes growing wide. âHuh?â
âIs that all?â You repeated, closing the distance between you that he had created. âItâs Valentineâs Day, Soobin. I think we can do better than a peck on the cheek.â
The implications of what you were saying didnât register with him right away, but when it finally did, he could have sworn his heart began to beat loud enough for the entire town to hear. His hand curled into a fist as he gripped the denim of his jeans. He leaned forward, keeping his eyes open just enough to watch you as he brought his lips closer to yours. He could feel your eyes on him all the while, causing his heart to pound fiercer still within him.
When he was just a breath away, he whispered, âCan you close your eyes?â
âHm?â
He lifted his hand, gently placing it over your eyes. He leaned closer then, filling the space between you both as his lips met yours. You tasted vaguely of cherry and strawberry slice soda, and he found it quite nice the way his lips seemed to fit perfectly against your own. As the seconds drew on, your hands slipped around his neck, pulling him closer. He slowly let his hand fall from your eyes, tracing lines with the tips of his fingers down your cheek before he cradled your jaw, letting his lips part just enough to taste the sweet sugar on your lips once more.
He thought in a haze that it was a good thing he didnât drink anything at the party, as kissing you was proving to be intoxicating enough on its own.
When you finally pulled away, leaving your forehead resting against his, he let his eyes flutter open enough to see the euphoric smile that adorned your features. He grinned as well, gently running his thumb against your cheek.
âI think that back then, I had planned to ask you this before kissing you,â He whispered, âBut Y/N, will you be my Valentine?â
Instead of a spoken answer, you laughed, leaning forward to capture his lips with yours once again, and that was the only answer Choi Soobin would ever need.
-
WHEN SOOBIN ARRIVED HOME THAT NIGHT, HE WENT STRAIGHT FOR THE TELEPHONE.
It was kept upstairs at night right outside his parentâs door, to keep himself and his brother from using it in the late hours. Of course, this never stopped Soobin from sneaking it downstairs to his room in the basement to make late night calls to Felix.
And that particular evening, he really needed to give Felix an update.
He grabbed the phone from the small table in the hallway, carefully tiptoeing towards the basement stairs. Before he had even taken the first step down, the bathroom door creaked open. Soobin whipped his head around to see his brother Kai standing there, rubbing the sleep from his eyes as he raised a brow at his older brother.
Soobin froze, blinking slowly as he realized the incriminating situation he found himself in.
âPlease donât tell mom,â He whispered, his eyes pleading with his younger brother.
Kai nodded, although Soobin wasnât quite convinced that the boy was even coherent enough to understand what was going on. Soobin offered a rushed thank you, and ventured his first step down the stairs.
Well, he tried, anyways, and ended up missing the first step. He tumbled down the rest of the stairs, landing on his butt at the very end.
He winced in pain, glad to see that the phone was still intact in his hands. He glanced over his shoulders to see Kai staring down the stairway with wide eyes, his lips parted in shock. Soobin quickly put a finger to his lips, begging his brother for silence.
Kai simply shook his head and walked away, allowing Soobin the freedom to breathe out a sigh of relief.
He quickly ran to his bedroom and shut the door, collapsing onto his bed with the phone as his breaths came in ragged gasps as an aftereffect from his tumble down the stairs. He figured he should have dialed Felixâs number right away, but he couldnât help but brush his fingers against his lips, remembering the feeling and taste of having yours pressed against them.
He was so caught up in his daze that he didnât notice Felix calling until the third ring.
He picked it up, breathing heavily into the speaker as he rubbed a sore spot on his lower back.Â
âPlease tell me that panting is from running a marathon, and not what I think youâve successfully tried.â
Soobin nearly gagged, holding the phone away from his face as he coughed, flustered by his friend's crude words. He brought the phone back to his face and said, âNo, you sicko, I just fell down the stairs.â
âHow the hell did you manage that with those long legs?â
âThatâs not important, Lix!â He laid back onto his pillows then, twirling the phone cord in his hands as he stared up at his ceiling, the memories of his adventure with you that night flooding his mind once more. He couldnât help but smile from ear to ear as he said, âLook, I need to tell you something important.â
If he didnât know any better, he would have thought that he could hear the smile in Felixâs voice too as his friend replied.
âWell buddy, I got something to tell you too.â
hi friends, this is my old fic masterlist! i wrote these fics and collabs a while ago and i havenât reread them so iâm not sure what theyâre like, but if youâd like to read some of my older writing go for it! i feel like iâve improved as a writer though :)
SERIES:Â Anything with 2 or more works, no matter how long or short
That would be a great love story: A Byler series with 2 works, the first one being â5 times Mike gave Will secret notes +1 time he signed his nameâ (where Will gets secret admirer notes), and the second being âGod, Iâm such an idiotâ (where Mike panics). Fluffiness!
i want to forget everything but you:Â Collab with @eraseyourbookofstories! Mainly focuses on Elmax. Featuring fluff and angst, found family, gae, etc!Â
Making Things Right:Â Short series with two ficlets, A Realization and An Apology! At the end of season 3, Mike realizes thingz. He sends a letter to Will.
INDIVIDUAL WORKS:
Is it really that obvious?:Â One of my first fics, featuring mutual pining byler and a first kiss.
Finding Each Other: The Drama fic! Byler and Elmax, and Platonic Willel, M&M, Elmike, and Will and Max! eight chapters
Not Kids Anymore: An angsty Byler thing. âLetâs start a new party, you and meâ. Mike is lost without Will, and needs to make amends. Can Will forgive the boy who broke his heart?
FICLETS: Things around 500-1000 words, usually going over that limit
Home: a short little fluffy byler thing. âYouâve always felt like homeâ
Movie (Date?): Henclair is basically on a triple date with Elmax and Byler, but Dustin overanalyzes his feelings.Â
Locked in:Â Elmax traps Byler in a pantry, and Mike is support to confront the things heâs been pushing away.
Pho-tog-ra-phy:Â Jonathan and El bonding time! Jonathan teaches El photography! Featuring side Elmax :)
Couple(s) of Disasters: Nancy asks if the Party is on a triple date and they all freak out. (Elmax, Byler, Henclair)
Crush: Mike is sad because Will has a crush. He gives Will advice on how to talk to said crush. Will uses it *eyes emoji* (yes Byler why do you ask-)
Giggles and Secrets: Inspired by Sweet Tooth by Cavetown: Mike and Will have a sleepover after halloween. Pretty self explanatory
Still in love:Â TOOTH ROTTING FLUFF. Mike and Will are married in 2020
COLLABS:
show me your demons, iâll show you mine: Collab with @eraseyourbookofstories!! Angst, fluff, mutual pining, elmax and byler, pillow forts, secrets!!!
kiss you oblivious fools:Â Collab with @eraseyourbookofstories!! Acearo El sets up Byler! Lotsa fluff with a dash of angst
We Wonât Let Him: Collab with @byler-obsessed!! Mike has to choose between saving Will and El. Will fights against his possession. Featuring Byler, The Upside Down, and Fluff! (Season 2 times)
Just Let Go: Collab with @eraseyourbookofstories!! I believe it was our first collab? Anyway, El needs a new hobby, and Max can help (Max teaches El to skateboard). Part 1, Part 2Â (link no longer works for part 2).
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 3/?
Fandom: ééç„ćž - ćąšéŠéè | MĂłdĂ o ZÇshÄ« - MĂČxiÄng TĂłngxiĂč, ééç„ćž | MĂłdĂ o ZÇshÄ« (Cartoon)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: LĂĄn ZhĂ n | LĂĄn WĂ ngjÄ«/WĂši YÄ«ng | WĂši WĂșxiĂ n, LĂĄn ZhĂ n | LĂĄn WĂ ngjÄ«/MĂČ XuĂĄnyÇ, MĂČ XuĂĄnyÇ/WĂši YÄ«ng | WĂši WĂșxiĂ n, LĂĄn ZhĂ n | LĂĄn WĂ ngjÄ«/MĂČ XuĂĄnyÇ/WĂši YÄ«ng | WĂši WĂșxiĂ n
Characters: LĂĄn ZhĂ n | LĂĄn WĂ ngjÄ«, WĂši YÄ«ng | WĂši WĂșxiĂ n, MĂČ XuĂĄnyÇ
Additional Tags: Slow Burn, Canon-Typical Violence, Canon-Typical Gore, Past Abuse, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Mo Xuanyu lives, spirit possession, 2/3 men are virgin idiots, Wei Wuxian is an emotional dunce, Mo Xuanyu is gay and tired, Lan Wangji finds his heart is very large, Discussions of Suicide, Suicide Attempt, victim self-blame