Welcome to my blog! I am a fanfiction writer for the SJM fandom. I primarily write for Elucien and Eris x Alexius (Male OC). I have masterlists for all of my fanfictions as well as arts I've commissioned, moodboards and playlists I've created, and links to other fanartists' works based on my fanfictions. You can find them all on these ship-specific masterlists.
Fanfictions & Other fanworks
Elucien Masterlist
Eris x Alexius (Male OC) Masterlist
Other & Miscellaneous Masterlist
Horror Fics Masterlist
ACOTAR OC Lists:
Vanserra Brothers | Autumn Partners | Day Court | The Continent | Canon Characters
ACOTAR Meta Essays:
Eris Vanserra: Confirmed Bachelor
Elain Archeron and Sansa Stark Comparison
Elucien and NedCat (ASOIAF) Parallels (Arranged Marriage Trope)
Elucien & Courtly Love
You can also find all of my fanfictions on my AO3 profile: Zenkindoflove.
I also have a joint Instagram that I share with @crazy-ache called crazykindoflove. We post all of our commissioned fanart on that page as well.
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Reading: Just started The Nobleman's Guide to Seducing a Scoundrel by KJ Charles. In the last week I have read and finished The Everlasting by Alix Harrow and Manhunt by Gretchen Felker-Martin. I've been jumping around a lot in my genres.
Last Song: I've been listening to Camera by Charli xcx and stupid song by Olivia Rodrigo obsessively the last week.
Last Film: Together which I watched with @itsblobross for our monthly horror movie night! It's got me thinking a lot about the mating bond and body horror lol.
Last Series: I finished The Other Bennett Sister not too long ago. Devoured it.
Sweet or Salty: always salty
Coffee or Tea: Tea. I have never developed a taste for coffee.
Working on: Draft 2 of my novel. I am in the stage where I am evaluating what chapters I might add/get rid of before I really dive into a hard edit.
fic authors self rec! when you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. let’s spread the self-love 💌
Awww thanks for the ask! Haven't gotten one of these in a while.
1.Pull Me In Deeper (Eris x Alexius) - I think it's literally my best multichapter fic and I'm super proud of it. It's the fic that made me believe I could write a novel since so much of it is original. It's some of the best romance and smut I've ever written, and I really got to write a full on fantasy/action adventure plot which was new for me. It's certainly not perfect but it's a really solid story. I think out of all of my fics, it's the fic I would want my friends to read to get a full picture of what I'm capable of.
2. Dear Lucien, Dear Elain: An Epistolary Fanfic (Elain x Lucien; cowritten with @crazy-ache) - I will always love this purely for the experience it gave me writing with my best friend. I have never felt closer to @crazy-ache or as creatively inspired. And I think it's one of the most unique Elucien fanfics in the archive in terms of forms. We really took a big risk and it paid off. It's such a great distillation of our Elucien headcanons in fic form because we got to write straight from Elain and Lucien's heads.
3. Carrion Flowers (Elain x Lucien) - My little weird horror-detective-romance fic. I love this one purely because I got to get as weird with it as I wanted, infusing so many of my favorite horror tropes and inspos. Given how popular witchy Elain headcanons are, you would *think* this fic would be more popular but it will always be the redheaded step child of my Elucien fics lmao. But no seriously, if you haven't read this fic and you love witchy Elain, why haven't you read it yet?
4. Tonight, Tonight (Eris x Alexius) - This fic has gotten so little attention and I get why. It's OC fic AND a modern AU. But I had so much fun writing it and getting into the mindset of how Eris and Alexius would be in the modern era and translating their characters into that universe. I think it highlight some of my more humorous writing style and It has one of my favorite lines I've ever written. "Their kiss was electric, one part bright, neon gas and another a warm, tungsten glow."
5. Careful (Elain x Lucien) - Some recency bias with this but I think the one-shot I posted for Elucien Week is also some really good writing from me. It's funny and sexy, exploring Elain and Lucien pushed to absurd limits of the mating bond. I used an old idea briefly explored and really pushed it to its full potential. I have a lot of smutty oneshots for Elain and Lucien and I love them all of course and wish I could include them, but I'll toot this one's horn since it's so new.
A slow-burn, regency reimagining of Prythian, written for @elucienweekofficial 2026 • Day 4: Arranged Marriage
chapter 8: paint my kiss across your chest
After two years out of society, Elain Archeron is determined to find a husband.
When she meets Viscount Graysen Nolan, she falls head over heels, and with his proposal all but guaranteed, everything feels as though it’s falling right into place.
Until it falls apart.
Facing ruin or a life on the shelf, an out-of-the-blue offer of marriage from Prince Lucien Vanserra, Duke of Glenacre, turns her world upside down.
Now married to a man she barely knows while nursing her heartbreak over the one she’d planned her life with, Elain must contend with lust, lies, and longing to find the one thing she’s wanted all along: love.
i think ppl would be a lot happier and better-adjusted on here if they realized that being online on a website is like being in any other casual public space full of people. if u walk into walmart u dont immediately think to yourself “i have to be friends with everyone in this walmart and if not everyone likes me i’m a failure” and u really shouldn’t feel that way online either. likewise if there’s a guy in the walmart parking lot shouting obscenities u probably wouldn’t answer him and that’s literally an exact equivalent to some of the weird stuff that people on here seem to feel they’re obligated to respond to.
I went down a bit of a rabbit hole today, and it sparked this analysis. I want to break down a common head canon that many Eluciens share which is that the dynamic of Elucien fits patterns and tropes found more in historical romances than those popularized in romantasy. I want to conceptualize what ultimately feels like a ~vibe~ they have to something a little more concrete by using the Medieval literary concept of "Courtly Love".
Courtly love mostly refers to the romantic stories between knights and women of nobility from Medieval Europe. One of the most famous stories is that of Guinevere and Lancelot. These stories of longing and chivalry served as entertainment but also influenced social practices. Many of the acts of knightly chivalry and sacrifice have influenced romance tropes that have persisted into our own modern media. There has been a lot of scholarship on courtly love, but for the purposes of simplicity, I'll use the Gaston Paris' four principal characteristics to frame this discussion as it pertains to Elucien.
The love is illegitimate, furtive (ie. adulterous).
The male lover is in an inferior position and the woman in an elevated one.
The man does quests, tests, or trials in the woman's name.
There is an art to it, it has rules, in the same vein as chivalry or courtesy.
1. The love is illegitimate, furtive (ie. adulterous).
I think this trait is one of the most fun to wrap our heads around as it pertains to Elucien because the idea of their mating bond being "illegitimate" is a bit of mindfuck, mostly because its presented to us as a superior form of romantic bonding and is treasured by the Fae. However, I think the circumstances by which Elucien's bond snaps and the context we see them interact falls under this characteristic. First, Elain is already engaged to another man - Graysen. From her perspective, having this mating bond is a sort of adultery/infidelity to her betrothal. She even goes as far as to try and return to Graysen just before the war, ultimately leading to him rejecting her not only because of her being changed but because she "belongs to another" now. Her bond with Lucien is presented as this disgusting, animalistic brand on her now in her human fiance's eyes
In ACOMAF and ACOWAR, Lucien is technically an enemy to the Night Court. Everyone in Elain's life is suspicious of him and his loyalties, and they are constantly on the verge of alienating him all together. They literally keep him separated from Elain when they are both in the same house in ACOWAR, and one of their main interactions is when Lucien sneaks into the library and finds Elain there. In ACOSF, Elain and Lucien have few scenes, however we do know both are up to secret activities that are unbeknownst to the POV characters. Now, this might have nothing to do with each other, but there are a lot of headcanons and predictions that the start of Elain and Lucien getting to know each other will ultimately have to be done in secret due to the protective nature of Elain's family and the scrutiny they are under. Many also predict that Elain will have to "run away" from her family on a mission with Lucien just to get their story started.
2. The male lover is in an inferior position and the woman in an elevated one.
While Elain and Lucien don't fit this trope from a nobility or class perspective on the surface, there are several aspects of their characters and where then end up by ACOSF that gives them this placement to each other. While Lucien is a son of a High Lord, he is both banished from that court and as we find out in ACOWAR, a bastard. By this book, Lucien is courtless, abandoning Spring to come to Night just to make sure that Elain is okay. When he greets her, we get a clear idea of how he sees himself.
'I am Lucien. Seventh son of the High Lord of the Autumn Court.'
And a whole lot of nothing.
By ACOSF, Elain has a fairly high status within Prythian. Feyre is High Lady of the Night Court, and as her sister, that means Elain is firmly within the noble class among the Fae. Lucien, however, works for Rhys and Feyre as an emissary, sent away on tasks to do their bidding, not unlike a knight that serves a house. Lucien is constantly having to prove his worth to Feyre, Rhys, and the rest of the Inner Circle, who still do not trust him.
3. The man does quests, tests, or trials in the woman's name.
This is my favorite characteristic as it pertains to them. It's also one of the most well known characteristics when people think about courtly love in literature. These quests are apart of the knight's devotion to the woman he loves, and he is forced to yearn for her from afar. Often in the medieval stories, the knight may only see the object of his love once, twice, or sometimes never. The point is that he is away from her, and yet is thinking of her always. We see throughout the series that this is the state of Elain and Lucien's current arrangement. Lucien spends almost all of his time in the Human Lands, working with Vassa and Jurian, basically the farthest he could possibly be from Velaris, only returning to the city on holidays or special occasions. Much of this is related to the work he does for the Night Court, though there is an element of Lucien choosing this distance because he thinks it is what Elain wants, sacrificing with only her in mind.
The best example of this characteristic is in ACOWAR when Lucien literally goes on a quest to the Continent. He does this for Elain, not only because he senses that she needs the distance from him as she processes her grief, but also because it is her vision that he is investigating - to find the firebird and figure out what's going on with the Death God. Most of the Inner Circle isn't sure what to make of Elain having visions, but Lucien immediately volunteers for this dangerous mission, putting his trust and faith in Elain's abilities. And when Lucien returns, he does so in a very knightly, heroic away, literally cutting his way with a sword through a battlefield just to get to Elain and make sure that she is okay. We see at the end of ACOWAR he was incredibly successful on his quest, not only finding Vassa but also linking up with Papa Archeron, getting the ships and army that they need to fight Hybern.
Throughout ACOFAS and ACOSF, we see that Lucien is still focused on his other "quests", trying to understand how to break Vassa's curse, checking in on Tamlin in Spring, and meeting with Eris in secret about Beron's alliance with Koschei. Simply, Lucien is busying himself with his other duties in order to distract himself from the longing he has for Elain as he waits for her to become ready to get to know him.
4. There is an art to it, it has rules, in the same vein as chivalry or courtesy.
I think of all the characteristics, this one is likely the most obvious to most Elucien fans, as many people point out that the way Elain and Lucien act with one another makes them feel like they belong in a historical romance book. There is a lot of chivalry we witness between Lucien and Elain, firstly the polite distance Lucien maintains with Elain by calling her the honorific "Lady". Lucien also "courts" Elain in a very formal way such as only coming to see her when he is invited and giving her gifts. Lucien is well known as a sassy character who often is tricky and sly when he banters with others, and yet, when he speaks to Elain, we see a shift in his presentation. He becomes nervous and careful, deferent to her expressions of betrayal and anger towards him rather than defiant as we see him with others.
Lucien is mindful to operate within the "rules" of the mating bond, especially holding to it the inherent nature of the choice to accept or reject the bond belonging to the female. He gives Elain more space and distance than any of the other MMCs, using courtesy and chivalry as a crutch to dictate how he engages with her, rather than pushing her to make a decision or forcing her into a situation where she must be around him. Where he was once a well-known rake, Lucien is also now celibate since the mating bond snapped, rejecting other females that want to spend time with him, telling them he is a "mated male now".
Elain is also similarly formal with him as well, never outright rejecting him by telling him to not visit her or giving back his gifts, but also not putting herself forward with him as Feyre or Nesta did with their own mates. Her feelings about Lucien are more of a mystery to us, but Elain is similarly following a script that is familiar to her as she tries to maintain the distance to figure out how she feels.
Closing thoughts
One of the biggest elements of courtly love is the idea of loving someone from afar, usually someone there is a great obstacle in the way of being with you. In the case of Elain and Lucien, the distance and yearning is what makes them interesting to us and wants us to root for them, even if the largest obstacle holding them back is themselves - their insecurities, broken hearts, and trapped in a pattern of avoidance. Even if subconscious, SJM is playing on a long, long history throughout romantic literature of how chivalry, devotion, and longing set up tension within a romance. And I fully believe that is why we will ultimately see Elain and Lucien's love play out in our own modern context of Romance, where happily ever afters are guarantees.
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"I will be your knight in shining armor" -Eris probably
Happy Valentine's Day @zenkindoflove ! I know you love the knight/Guard and Princess combo, and I thought Eris would be a fantastic knight to Alexius' prince! The two sneaking away for a moment of passion and love.
This is my love letter to these two! I know I haven't been able to comment much on the stories (Something I know I need to work on) or do too much art lately, but know that I love and support your work fully! It's always been so inspiring and I'm so excited to see what you do next with your own work! Thank you so much for being a constant light in not only this fandom, but for me and all of our friends! I hope today is a day filled with love and laughter <3
Summary: Elain makes the best of her life in the Night Court, and yet, she still finds herself longing to escape into dreams about a certain mate she has barely even spoken to.
But when her dreams begin to suggest something sinister at play, and Lucien doesn’t arrive at his weekly meeting in Velaris, Elain finds herself on a rescue mission further out of her comfort zone than she could have ever imagined.
A collaboration between @tinyy-jj and @gooseyjossip for @elucienweekofficial 2026
Read it here on AO3 or from the beginning here!
Snippet below the cut…
The wards across the windows and door were strong, and impossible to break through in the absence of his magic; he’d almost wedged himself in the chimney, after discovering it was too narrow to accommodate his broad shoulders; and although the cottage appeared to be crumbling from the outside, there were no bricks loose enough to dislodge, no stones he could pry away.
So, it was a waiting game. The door and windows were his only options: as soon as the faebane had worn off, he would have to break those wards, and work his way out. Unless…
Stomach churning, he looked towards the grim thatch covering the roof.
Could he claw his way through that?
Huge thanks to our beta @chaol-apologist, @olenvasynyt who designed the beautiful divider, and @fierling for inspiring the title!
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