#coffeesigh

hi! sorry this is so late. i cover some tips in this post.

my main tips are:

comment on posts either through the reply function or when you reblog

send people asks and take part in ask games that they may reblog 

take part in challenges

message people (but don’t overdo it)

thursday. took my first long exam for calc (midyear term). courses are condensed into one month. 3 exams in the next 3 weeks ): wish me luck

idk who needs this but listen here:

i was an honor student all my life. highest weighted grade, class president, athlete, you name it--i had it all. 

until my final two years of high school came and the combined pressure of getting into my dream uni, moving to a new school, making memories and making sure my senior year was as memorable as possible, and the pressure of being perfect finally consumed me. the two years i needed wanted that one thing so bad were the years i didn’t get it.

i graduated with average grades and without honors.

i let it affect me severely. i thought to myself, that’s it. all my years of hard work down the drain. i will never amount to anything ever again. i cried about it for days and let anxiety and fear take over my life.

months have passed since my high school career ended. and you know what? i don’t remember it. my previous classmates don’t remember it. my parents don’t remember it. i got into my dream uni and i promised myself to just be.

be present in your studies. be at peace with yourself. be in touch with your own needs. let yourself be.

you’re tired and need to rest? let yourself be. go and rest. do that thing later.

you’ve failed that one important test? let yourself be. process your emotions. find out where and why you went wrong. try again.

you feel like you’re drowning and just want to shut off and disappear? let yourself be. take some time for yourself so you can regroup. come back later. take responsibility for it.

Just look at the mess I’ve made.

I’m about a third of the way through A Little Life, and so far I have experienced a range of emotions already! I have managed to cry, laugh, nearly hurled in disgust (seriously guys, read the content warnings), among other things, and I’m not even halfway there yet…

School starts tomorrow and I’m excited, even though I only have one class and it’s not until 4 PM. Last week I attended orientations and managed to make plans for my first week back in uni. I found out yesterday that I have to re-take computer programming 1 which I dropped last school year because of many issues I had to deal with.

I’m worried about 2 things:

My scientific calculator needs new batteries because, as an applied mathematics major, I need my calculator, but I can’t leave my house (because I haven’t been vaccinated yet, hopefully I get a schedule soon) and ordering online would take significantly longer.

Only one of our professors have reached out to our block, which means I only have one class scheduled in my planner—I like being organized and so the ambiguity of my other classes worry me!