#chronophobia

Chronophobia flag: a flag for those with chronophobia. (link)

Color meanings are as followed, the mauve stripes (topmost and bottommost stripes) represent a sense of fear and dread when thinking about the passage of time, navy blue represents panic attacks and despair that comes from the phobia, slate blue represents recovery, however that may look for oneself, cyan blue represents those who feel as if they have completed their recovery, however that looks to them, and light grey represents those who are unable to recover as of current.

Time will slip around you like melted butter if you aren't careful. It starts slow. You lose track of time staring out the window, trying to make out what you're seeing across the street, staring at you from under a streetlight. 

You feel like it's only been five minutes of lying awake at night, wondering how things got to this point when your morning alarm snaps you out of your thoughts. It always starts innocent, but be careful! Do you know how much time has passed?

You're on the bus going home from school, you look away for a minute and miss your stop by 4 stops. You blink and time lurches forward without you being privy to the events happening around you. Your parents say they're leaving for a quick errand. It's night and the police are asking about the whereabouts of your parents. Do you know how much time has passed?

You lose 20 minutes, you lose 6 hours, you've been locked in this bathroom for 3 days with people knocking on the door, asking you to come out, reassuring you they aren't mad. You know they are. 

im scared of the word eternity like I owe it a favor, like I owe it my life

my raw flesh is infected with the human helpless disease

her insanity appropriating my tired legs, my silent eyes, my shrieking mind

the one inevitable inheritance of my grandmother's mortise

just like our cheekbone mole, old skin, loud catastrophic brown eyes

and just as my father jests I repeatedly ache saying I dont care

but even with all the heaven existence faith i'll still doubt mine

how do i explain im terrified of a dark infested sky

my stomach splashes to the floor when someone mentions my end

when maggots finally eat my corpse will I still be scared?

for so the only song my ancient lady liked to tear in her throat

for how the time is bleeding out with me turning inside the clock