#chonkystudies

Happy new year to everyone! I know this is super late but I wish for a year filled with success, prosperity and happiness to you❤️

My last post was exactly 3 months ago so it's been very long.

A little update about me: I didn't perform that well in my entrance exam that is Neet 2021. I was devastated. I was lost about what I should do with my life since everything was overwhelming. After being sad and anxious for a few weeks, with the support of my family, friends and the kind words of wonderful ppl of Tumblr I decided to give this exam again.

I started preparing again around the last week of November. Medicine is everything for me, I cannot imagine myself doing anything different. I was sad about having to relearn everything and going through the same mental thoughts but my mom became my support pillar and told me to give a real and honest attempt, not one where I do it half heartedly or like a test drive, or just for the sake of them but an attempt where it matters. And she is right I did get carried away last year but this time it's different.

I am learning from my mistakes and inculcating positive change in me. I know I can do this.

I'll be posting and documenting my progress here, again. This blog means a lot to me, all of my 61 followers mean a lot to me. Thankyou.

I am going to be more productive and punctual about posting, since I want to carry on my blog even when I get into med school as a reminder of my journey through life now. (It's a small dream I have) 🤞

Hope everyone is safe and healthy.

I am calm yet stressed. My mind is kind of spiralling. I'm pumped to study but also a little overwhelmed by remembering the past of last year when it was held on 13th September and I didn't attend cuz of covid19. I deleted my main very aesthetic very dear to heart instagram account on 12th September last year 😂🤦🏽‍♀️and told myself hey I'll make a new one next year on the same date guess it just comes full circle. Lol.

The other thing that kind of bums me out is the fact that completely thru last year the neet aspirants were kept in this very grey area regarding the exam dates and we're instilled this idea that your exams would be held before even a full term of the previous years exam and because of this so many students educators and even me rushed through the syllabus and material. It felt really half assed but what can you do. Now when they've kept it exactly a year later giving us a full term it just feels like we got cheated and were purposely put into anxiety for the exams on top of the grave situation that is going on.

Anyways I hope something really good comes out of this for everyone who's going to give it and also for me.

Yesterday was my exam. It was okay really it wasn't too good and not even too bad. I'm hopeful but also cautious about it. Haven't counted how much I'll score rn bcoz I want to be a little stress free right now.

Enjoying the basic pleasures I've denied myself from too long, like looking outside the window and drinking tea without thinking about anything in particular. Will discuss my journey forward after a week or so.

Take care, stay healthy.

Thankyou ❤️

Found a wall art featuring the Rocket man of India, APJ Abdul Kalam. The quote on the left in hindi says "Dreams aren't something that you see after sleeping, dreams are those that don't let you sleep"