hey, would anyone be interested if I eventually published a fully fleshed-out KND AU I’ve been working on called' If I Let Go?"
I was talking to @kommandonuovidiavoli and it got me thinking maybe turning this into a full fledged AU instead of just something I cooked up and never really “baked” might actually be worth doing 😭
it’s a slice-of-life AU with action mixed in (they’re still around 11, so it keeps that balance of missions, chaos, and kid dynamics), but it leans a lot more into emotional consequences than canon usually does.
the premise starts with Wally and Kuki having their usual playful dynamic, but over time Wally’s fear of abandonment starts affecting how he interacts with her. what he thinks is being protective slowly turns into control, without him fully realizing how far it’s gone until it’s too late.
eventually it reaches a breaking point where Kuki realizes she doesn’t feel safe or free in the dynamic anymore and cuts off their friendship, asking for space. after that, the story shifts into fallout, distance, and the way Sector V changes when the team dynamic is disrupted.
and it doesn’t really “snap back” after that.
Wally spirals after losing her, trying to understand what went wrong and slowly learning that intention doesn’t cancel impact. his arc is about accountability, boundaries, and learning how to exist in her life (or absence of it) without control or expectation.
Hoagie ends up being one of the main grounding forces after everything falls apart, especially as Wally’s breakdown affects missions and team structure. Abby stays close to Kuki in quieter ways, noticing the shift early and helping her process everything while she rebuilds her sense of stability.
there’s also an added layer of tension because some of the usual “support system” energy in Sector V shifts over time (especially with transfers and people not being in the same place as before), so they can’t rely on the same group dynamic to hold everything together anymore.
it’s less about fixing things quickly and more about consequences, growth, and what it actually costs to let go of someone who hurt you but still mattered to you.
i can explain more if anyone’s interested, i just didn’t want to dump a whole essay unless people actually want it 😭
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I've seen many people say that Big Mama is Leo's worst enemy/villain when they got upset with him being paired with one of the Sando brothers.
(Which, obviously she wasn't gonna pair herself with him, but shhhh, another time, Nerdy)
And I agree. . .sorta. She was his worst enemy/villain originally.
But here's what I see when it comes to that. Assigning someone a set villain or enemy typically means at least one of three things can be made; A foil, a connection/comparison, or a parallel.
Raph and Ghost bear? He's Raph's idol, they're both big characters, both rush in and fight, and both solve problems with punching (brawns over brain)
Donnie and Kendra? Both scientific geniuses with a love of purple, both clearly seek some kind of validation and both want their intentions to be seen (think about it- they could stop each other with a tiny robot/invisible device but they wanna be seen doing it instead of using logic :\)
Mikey and Meatsweats? Both love cooking, Meatsweats is Mikey's idol, and both of them are willing to do crazy things for cooking/keeping a kitchen
Now let's go onto the parallels!! May mental health issues ensue!! :)
Prime and Leo have waaaaay too much in common. In fact, it's kinda crazy how many similarities they have.
1- Both use strategy to keep their siblings safe without ever pointing it out
Leo knows what all his family is capable of and how to keep them out of trouble;
“Yeah, go home on a stretcher.”
“And you promised to stop eating our Halloween candy!”
“I knew we couldn't trust spider lady!”
“Hero moves are totally your style.”
And the list goes on and on. Point is- Leo knows his family and actively tries to keep them out of danger and trouble, and his family has no clue.
The same way Prime knows his siblings' capabilities and actively tries to keep them out of danger and trouble, and they definitely got no clue;
He keeps Three by his side nearly the entire length of the movie or close by
He never sends either Two or Three off to fight by themselves, in fact, the one time he has is after their super powerful ship has gotten through and his sister is in a powerful mech suit
It seems like he makes them retreat when they get injured; Two is brought back after her eye is screwed up, and he allows her to fight again only after she's got a giant army with her or her mech
He only let them fight in the first place after sealing off the boys Ninpō and fought them himself
In the bad timeline, you see this;
Look closely!! Two very distinct mech suits out there. Two and Three are out fighting while surrounded by other troops, beneath the Technodrome and victory is absolutely guaranteed.
(There's also a lot more of the three being evil/laughing together in scrapped story boards, but it's too early for me to go searching for them.)
It's something they both try to hide from them/keep under cover.
Cause if they find out? How much they care. . .
What would that mean then?
In Prime's case; A sign of weakness, a way to exploit him.
In Leo's case; What if they don't trust me? What if they expect more from me?
2- Both hide behind a mask of arrogance/ego
Now, it's a bit different for them.
Leo fakes most of his arrogance/ego. Don't get me wrong, he definitely thinks of himself as the most beautiful, but the majority of his bravado is false.
In Prime's case, the majority of his arrogance and ego is genuine, he truly believes he's the best. But when he's proven wrong- he desperately tries to hide behind his typical arrogance.
Leo hides behind witty remarks and deflection, no one sees him cry or be upset. (If I'm not wrong, I think one of the only times you ever see him genuinely cry is when he's alone in the prison dimension)
Prime hides behind rage and strength when he falls/is upset. (“YOU WRETCHED, LITTLE, PEST!” “WIPE THAT GRIN OFF YOUR FACE!”)
Both want to stop whatever has upset/reminds them of their failures ASAP.
Leo rushes in to try and get the key, save Raph, and stop the Kraang. He forgets any strategy in his panic and fear to fix his failure.
Prime rushes in with ruthless blows and sharp words. Desperate to crush the pest that ruined his plans, that caused his downfall, that he was too cocky to take seriously.
Both fail because they were too arrogant.
But here's the difference- Leo stops his arrogance which leads to him succeeding, Prime's so arrogant he fails. Which is where the foil between them comes through;
Prime lost because he was too cocky to stop the sword. You can not convince me that wasn't on purpose/to mock his sword throw.
Leo lost because he was too cocky (or at least trying to seem that way) to not rush in and try to get the key himself/to listen to his team
The foil between them stems from Leo learning and being willing to change, whereas Prime attempts to double down on things.
And now for a comparison that's gonna rock your world :,)
3- They react the EXACT same way when they get upset/have hit their limit.
Both of them freeze when they've realized they've messed up/something goes wrong/it all becomes too much
Look at that. Both just. . .froze. They both look a mix of horrified and stunned. Both just freeze to process everything, the fact that they both failed.
And when that freeze is over, they react the same way too;
That shock, that disbelief, that fear, that misery is promptly replaced by rage.
They both immediately lash out at whoever they believe caused that problem, or reminds them of it, despite BOTH knowing that they only have themselves to blame.
In Leo's case- He rushed in, but immediately goes after Casey (you can't convince me that if Donnie and Mikey weren't there that he wouldn't have hurt him in some way)
In Prime's case- He took them all as a joke/let his arrogance keep him from just defeating them (He toyed with them/mocked them/watched them fight the entire time instead of stepping in and taking it seriously)
They both freeze when things go wrong, and immediately switch to rage when it's been processed that they've failed/messed up.
Some more parallels, that I found interesting!!! ;)
1- Prime only locks away their powers after fighting Leo. He fought all of them at once, but only locked their powers away after fighting Leo specifically. He also seemed to be the only one he actively struggled with fighting
2- In discarded storyboards, Prime is missing a tentacle (it's definitely implied to be because of Leo) and future Leo is missing an arm
3- Both of them get the red glowy glow to their eyes;
I know that's more stylistic, but I thought it was cool.
All in all, they both have a lot of similarities to each other. They share their worst traits, yet also share their best ones; strategy, being cunning, smart, speed, etc.
Some real good angst opportunity then, on either side, just with the simple;
Chapters: 2/2
Fandom: Lord of the Flies - William Golding
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Ralph/Simon (Lord of the Flies), Ralph & Simon (Lord of the Flies)
Characters: Simon (Lord of the Flies), Ralph (Lord of the Flies)
Additional Tags: Queer Themes, Essays, I Can't Believe I Wrote This, i wrote this for teacher appreciation for my english teacher, made a whole doc basically abt lotf headcanons with my friend, i wrote an essay bc i hate myself apparently, Mentioned Jesus Christ (Christianity), religious trauma, Homophobia, Internalized Homophobia, Religious Guilt, Religious Conflict, Author is Not Christian, Nature Versus Nurture, queer nature, Queer Youth, Implied/Referenced Suicide, this took like a month to write bc i procrastinated, also thanks to my old creative writing teacher for being supportive, i both told her abt this and came out to her and she’s so peak, Character Analysis, Character Study
Summary:
i wrote an essay abt simon’s queer allegories to add to a doc that will be a gift for my english teacher. if you’re said teacher and you’re seeing this somehow, you’re so swell 🥹
i may one day post more of what my friend and i wrote on said doc, but we shall see. i wrote this essay by myself and got it kinda beta read btw
also the spacing is hella weird so it looks like one big paragraph, so sorry about that. i’m too lazy to edit ts though
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