#chat logs

-8/11/xx 2:32 pm-

Throwaway333: Hey

Throwaway333: it’s Hark

Throwaway333: Sam gave me your user

-8/11/xx 2:34 pm-

Throwaway333: I’d like to talk with you over a call if you’re free and okay with it?

-8/18/xx 7:12 pm-

BigBrainedBirb719: Why?

-7:53 pm-

Throwaway333: if it’s not okay that’s fine

-7:55 pm-

Throwaway333: I don’t want to bother you

-8:02 pm-

BigBrainedBirb719: Why do you want to call me?

Throwaway333: easier to talk

Throwaway333: if okay

Throwaway333: if it isn’t that’s fine

BigBrainedBirb719: Can we text?

Throwaway333: I prefer not to

-8:07 pm-

Throwaway333: takes too long to do and I don’t like there being records of my conversations

BigBrainedBirb719: Okay

Throwaway333: but we can text if that’s better

Throwaway333: oh

Throwaway333: call is okay?

BigBrainedBirb719: yeah

-CALL STARTED 8:08PM-

-BigBrainedBirb719 joined-

“…”

“…”

“He-Hello?”

“Um, so, why uh. Did you uh want to… call me?”

“Oh- yeah- yeah ss-SS-sorry- sorry. I wanted to app-appolo- apologize?”

“You ok?”

“SS-ss-Sorry- just- really anx—sh-sh- anxious, about this.”

“Oh.”

“I wanted to app-apologize fuh-fuh-for— wanted to- wanted to apolog-guh-guh- FUCK!”

“Uh, take your time. I uhm, didn’t know you had a stutter?”

“Wa-wasn’t- wasn’t a prob- wasn’t a problem back the-then. Wasn’t-wasn’t sst-sstAh-Ss—

“…”

“…stressed! Wasn’t stressed bad enough, fuh fuh for it to sh-shah-show for it to show back then.”

“Oh—“

“I Swah—SWEAR I’m not do-doing this-SS-ss doing this for- for pity.”

“I uh I didn’t think you were, I’m sorry I’m stressing you out?”

“No- no- no- don’t, I’m thah-thah-the one apologizing— …fff-fff-fffuck” *laughter*

“…….”

“Sor-sorry, ckk-ckk-ckkk-CANT even sss-sss-swear!”

*nervous laughter*

“Ss-sorry.”

“It’s okay…? Uhm. You wanted to apologize for…?”

“fuh-for back then.”

“Oh.”

“I’m ss-ss-sorry for how I— hurt you”

“Hey you…uh. you didn’t know it was me. It’s okay.”

“Iss- iss- is it though?”

“…”

“And— and I’m— I’m- sorry for drilling suh-suh-such a strong— such a strong paranoia.”

“…it helped me survive back then. I don’t hold that against you.”

“Take the- tuh-tuhtah-take the apology damnit.”

“Sorry”

“Hauh, fuck”

“…”

“…”

“I uh. Don’t hold anything against you. I’m… anxious to talk to you cause of the events that uh. Happened around that time. It… it’s hard to think about. But uhm. It’s not you yourself”

“Guh-genuinely?”

“Yeah.”

“…”

“I uh, assume it’s Sam who wanted you to apologize?”

“What? No!”

“Really?”

“He— He— he was.. telling me I shouldn’t. Ack—Actually.”

“Oh.”

“…I’m suh- sorry if— if I brought back— brought— bad- brack— buh- Brought. Back. Bad. memories “

“It’s fine, I uh, I’m better at managing now.”

“…do— do— could— hm.”

“…?”

“Could we— meet up?”

“Uhhhhhhhhhhhh. Sureee?”

“Not— not now, but- sometime?”

“Yeah— Sure! Uhm, sure! Yeah we can”

“Juh-just. Tell me when, ok?”

“Tell you right now when we should meet?”

“No! In the fuh-future, if you ever would- would want to”

“Ok uhm, bye? I guess? Apology accepted?”

“O-k-kck-kckk-kay. Th-theh-thanks— Buh-buh-bye”

-CALL ENDED 9:14PM-

-9:54pm-

IGetKnockedDown: hey so Hark just apologized to me?

-10:01pm-

Sammyboi: what?

IGetKnockedDown: yeah so he texted me and then asked to call me

Sammyboi: that motherfucker

Sammyboi: THATS what he went outside 4

IGetKnockedDown: hey don’t get mad at him

Sammyboi: y not.

IGetKnockedDown: i actually I’m glad he apologized?

-10:08pm-

Sammyboi: I told him not 2 fucking bother you.

IGetKnockedDown: I’m not bothered

Sammyboi: u r fucking lying

IGetKnockedDown: I’m not

Sammyboi: sure.

-10:11pm-

IGetKnockedDown: Sam you don’t get to decide how I feel about the situation and what Hark does. I am glad he apologized because back then was actually pretty shitty and recently I couldn’t figure out why I was upset and it turns out I was actually still upset about back then and him apologizing actually helped.

-10:20pm-

Sammyboi: whtvr.

—

-11:03pm-

BigBrainedBirb719: Hey thanks for apologizing, it means a lot

Throwaway333: yw

-11:04pm-

Throwaway333: I hope you are okay Sam said you were upset

BigBrainedBirb719: he did?

Throwaway333: nevermind

—

-11:05pm-

IGetKnockedDown: are you lying to hark

Sammyboi: what

Sammyboi: no

IGetKnockedDown: ok

—

-11:06pm-

BigBrainedBirb719: Hey don’t trust what Sam may say about how I feel

Throwaway333: oh

BigBrainedBirb719: [Screenshotxxxx811].png

Throwaway333: I see

BigBrainedBirb719: Is he mad at you?

Throwaway333: eh

-11:09pm-

Throwaway333: when is he not nowadays lmao

BigBrainedBirb719: you’re in therapy right?

Throwaway333: yeah

BigBrainedBirb719: I’m glad

Throwaway333: it’s hard

BigBrainedBirb719: yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Throwaway333: lmao

-11:13pm-

BigBrainedBirb719: are you still going to use this account?

-11:16pm-

Throwaway333: if you still want to talk to me I won’t get rid of it

-11:17pm-

Throwaway333: I’m supposed to be working on my paranoia

BigBrainedBirb719: Yeah my therapist has been trying to help me with that recently too

-11:18pm-

Throwaway333: How long did it take you to find a good one

BigBrainedBirb719: oh, I just went to Rise’s therapist since they already trusted them why?

-11:20pm-

Throwaway333: it took me around seven to find one that didn’t blame me and only me for me and Sam’s relationship. Or one that kept telling me to leave Sam.

BigBrainedBirb719: oh.

BigBrainedBirb719: some really blamed just you, are you serious?

Throwaway333: yeah

BigBrainedBirb719: What the fuck

-11:23pm-

Throwaway333: idk maybe they were right

BigBrainedBirb719: No they aren’t.

-11:24pm-

Throwaway333: You're Sam's brother

Throwaway333: he talks to you a lot

BigBrainedBirb719: Yeah?

Throwaway333: you know a lot about us

BigBrainedBirb719: yeah I do

Throwaway333: you know how I acted

BigBrainedBirb719: yeap

BigBrainedBirb719: and I also know how Sam acted and still acts and I know he’s an unreliable source of events

-11:26pm-

Throwaway333: I hurt him and I hurt you too and you still don’t blame me for everything?

BigBrainedBirb719: I don’t blame you for everything, you did bad stuff, but so does Sam. You are making the effort to change. He isn’t

-11:28pm-

Throwaway333: when did you become so good at this

BigBrainedBirb719: i have personal experiences therapy is helping me with

BigBrainedBirb719: And Sam comes up for me in therapy cause of conversations we’ve had

Throwaway333: oh so you know how he can get

BigBrainedBirb719: yeah

Throaway333: ha.