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god I wish. but then they’d be unstoppable

 Heavy footfalls echo against the long-standing halls of the keep within King’s Landing. Thirty days and nights have welcomed Meredith among the ranks of the renowned Lannister guard, donning red cloak and polished armour. 

Meredith Stannard cuts an impressive figure among her cohort - tall and lean, with a powerful stride. She spares no time after receiving such a summon, though her mind begins to wonder as to why exactly that the Queen regnant has sent for her. Thoughts that pertain to something she has done - or hasn’t - though being noticed among the guard calls for question, and, leaves a lump of nerves in her throat. Upon approach to the hall, her helm is removed, revealing blonde locks and bright blue eyes, taking in the sight of Cersei Lannister herself, bowing prior to speaking. 

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Hello! First of all, thank you for this submission, I absolutely loved to explore this ...  Again this may get long so apologies .  let’s start with some regrets though.

REGRETS:

-  LADY !!!! that whole debacle is a huge regret and was one of the first warning signs of the true nature of the Prince.  But it was something really traumatizing to witness, y’know,  and part of her mind sort of reinvented the whole scenario to cope with a truth she was unwilling to accept . . . but still, that loss cut really fucking deep, felt like she lost a HUGE part of herself that day which she’d have to work to find again  .  ( I need to do a meta on Sansa and the North one day oh man )- going to Cersei about Ned -- but really just trusting Cersei and Joffrey in general . duh . - Her treatment of Arya when they were younger - I’ve addressed this a bit in my sansa and arya meta. But really, it’s such a sister thing to be really hurtful ( my sister and I did it to each other so much when younger, it was super awful and neither of us know why we acted this way but deeply regretted it, it’s part of growing up, but treating Arya that way and a possibility of her being DEAD ,  she wishes she had been more open to her,  appreciated all her family really ) .- Being so excited to leave Winterfell  -  it was her home and she didn’t realize how important that was until it was too late .- Allowing herself to fall for the kindness of the Tyrells ( though this is more of one built upon sadness, because really got attached and opened up after everything & felt used and like it was only for her title ) 

As for how she copes with these regrets, I think she does dwell, Sansa is very internalized as a character, she thinks on actions, thinks on what others say, is perceptive and observant, but keeps so much on her mind .  There’s never really a lot of moments she can vocalize or express her regrets or grief, so such things really bottle up and turn about in her head.  

It gets to point needs to be pushed down but thoughts bubble up here and there against her will. But one huge thing about her is she needs to look forward, else she will be stuck. and stuck where she is, no thanks. That’s where this thing about sansa having a lot of HOPE comes from, a need not to let the pain and regrets define or control her . Also , she is all about growth and learning. You can’t change the past, and those mistakes are what you learn from to grow. 

Now if she WOULD CHANGE any regrets ( corresponding to the above list ) :

- yes, she is not sure how such would be pulled off, but Sansa would do whatever to keep Lady from becoming a victim . - yes, she would be back in winterfell with her family, ned may still be alive, robb and cat may still be alive. Look, I think she would’ve grown out of naïveté without the trauma, that’s part of growing up, and that whole show monologue though I can see as a coping mechanism for what she’s been put through, to try and rationalize bad things happening, it didn’t necessarily mean she wouldn’t have grown up without it.

- YES, in that way of I do not know why I was so shitty to you but we were sisters and we both have changed and matured enough to appreciate each other,  but that’s also part of growing up, respecting differences and finding common ground .

- Canonically, yes,  even though she was a little girl and while internally she has given herself flack for that, I feel like in this regard, regretting leaving Winterfell and not appreciating home sort of stands for her childhood as well.  How in the books we have the below quote of how she would give anything to have that back: 

“They are children, Sansa thought. They are silly little girls, even Elinor. They’ve never seen a battle, they’ve never seen a man die, they know nothing. Their dreams were full of songs and stories, the way hers had been before Joffrey cut her fathers head off. Sansa pitied them. Sansa envied them.” - ASOS

and of course there’s that quote where when leaving Winterfell she had not realized it would be the day her song had ended.

- The Tyrells, as said above , its more of a sad regret, because of how important they were in a time of vulnerable loneliness, how easily she fell for the pretty words, she regrets she opened up mostly due to how much it hurt when she was shut out .

[text: Cersei] Thank you for the ear rings.

this sounds like a Lannister family reunion

📜 for plot suggestions!! ( accepting ) // @cerceia

I haven’t read the books yet BUT I know a few things and I have the wiki open, plus feel free to correct me if I get something terribly wrong wrgbjerg 

For Maxima I would say that it’s easy to fit her pretty much anywhere? Be it in her younger years when she first arrived to King’s Landing or even after she has married Robert. Maxima relies heavily on a network of spies and informants plus her charms; so in a way similar to P.etyr B.aelish or V.arys though depending on the timeline that is picked with far less influence than later on. In a dragon age setting it could also work though, I feel that it would just be easier to fit them in the asoiaf verses. She is, very much like in any of her other counterparts, willing to sell information to whoever is willing to buy it without burning herself in the process. She would have probably become far more elusive as the time went on and the situation became more tense, to the point where one would probably only meet her personally if she really wanted it or she deemed it extremely necessary. Maybe Maxima was the person that supplied the wine for Robert’s hunting party? Or had a hand in it? Anyway, she wouldn’t shed a single tear for the king’s passing, at least not privately.

For Abel I feel like probably Dragon Age would work bests? In the sense that he’s a chevalier which is fighting for Gaspard during the war, so maybe he and the L.annisters are placed in the same place during the same time and that’s how they met? Considering Abel is a nobleman it’s also likely that they would have known each other one time or another so there’s also potential for something before that timeline. He would definitely know of J.aime. A bit awestruck? Maybe, you don’t have any proof though.

I don’t have a verse written out for Moe in the asoiaf verse but I imagine she would be very much a sellsword which would be tinkering to invent probably the first versions of gunpowder and how to put that into a weapon. They could probably meet in the sellword/exile verse and likely kill assassins while Moe wonders why the fuck does this random woman have so many people after her and how the fuck she got pulled into this mess.

I feel that still in the sellsword verse it could be possible that she could meet Anora? Anora is a noblewoman from the North and married Cailan which then proceeded to cheat on her until his death, I feel that in some verse one or another they could really see eye to eye even it wasn’t about everything.

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