i went to NYC for the latter of christmas break, had fun, got overwhelmed, and enjoyed some planeflight clouds. at the very end of the trip, a silly idea arose including my heart designs, so huzzah now these exist! bonus simon too ^_^. slight design-experimenting was also involved.

the second sketch was actually where i used an apple pencil for the first time! i borrowed my siblings’ pencil for the sketch, and then the entire flight. with permission ofc. it was great 🖋️✌️☺️🤳📸

featuring: ccccycles Gnaw, and cccclinic Dove & Simon. i used my most (personally) iconic heart designs 🗣️🔥

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🖇️ all my socials, full dni, and boundaries + triggers are on my strawpage!

🔄 i primarily reblog through @dewa-rebog, though occasionally shit i find funny goes here. sometimes on accident lol

🤲 i am the host of the @thesistarsystem! daily blogging with my systemmates ^_^

🖌️ my iterator oc au webcomic Bots Will Be Bugs, Right?, where they experience the ecosystem as itterbeast hybrids and duke it out!!

⚠️my work can contain: blood, gore, eyestrain, & eye contact

i will try my best to individually tag!

all of my blogs are NSFW-free!

💖 i create art as my primary coping method, to share my love for the world, and to have a conversation!

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🔅general tags

✏️ #pen&pencilparade — traditional art

💾 #digitaldepictions — digital art

🎞️ #awesomeanimating — animation raw and ripe

🖼️ #gloriousgallery — fanart???

📝 #wordwandering — my yappin

💬 #letters2&fro — all my asks and reblog convo threads

📚stories

#iambicpentameter — rw iterator x cccc hms emotionally-driven metaphorical imagery storytelling project

#cccclinic — cccc hmsw meets medical horror as whole recuperates to life again after a coma

#ccccycles — cccc hms timeloop into different physical body horror bodies every time a fight ends bloodily

🎨i love drawing:

rain world

my ocs

metaphorical imagery and storytelling

experimental color and collage compositions

hyperfixations

📝i love writing about… 

mental illness and disability

PAIN AND PANIC

ANGST, often orbiting intentional and accidental misunderstandings

metaphorical narratives and imagery

disassociation, depersonalization, delusion, and unreality

blood and body horror

facets of the self and how they effect intrapersonal & interpersonal relationships

the relationship between the body and breathing

PLATONIC AND SELF LOVE!!

underwater environments

lyrical references

i consider all themes a primary part of my work!

⭐️things that inspire me:

my friends

my fictives

character roleplay

unedited blurry photography

summer aesthetic/eyecatching palettes

deep and meaningful connections (metaphors, talking about ocs, friendship :], collaborative oc lore)

explorable environments (in worldbuilding or as unorthodox locations irl)

🤘extra facts:

i love watching college shortfilms whenever the annual deadlines occur

a part of my artstyle was influenced by my goal of digital stickermaking

i was an official member of the cloud appreciation society for a year (it’s just cloud people facebook so…alas…)

i’ve both touched something that’s been in space and fed a giraffe with my left hand

i pull 🤘 this hand symbol a lot itl, aswell as a version where i extend my thumb too. somatic thing. no intended meaning!

this was supposed to be short, but now it is long. oh well. have a wonderful day💛

💮 my userboxes and iterator can stamp graphics come from my personal compendium of web graphics available on my toyhouse here. i aim to collect only the f2u graphics for use in customizing oc toyhouse pages. though i may make mistakes! do correct me if i’m wrong! i get the majority of my graphics from tumblr.

🔄 my other cccc au, ccccycles!

⚠️TW // (coughing up) blood, choking, (mentions of) body dysphoria, rope neck, gnarly head scar, gorey concepts, violence

ccccycles synopsis: heart, mind, and soul are stuck in whole’s empty house. they are forced to live together and get along, but it never goes as well as they hope. arguments often escalate into direct physical fights, and the themed events of cccc play out in every. single. loop (juno event, mind’s apathy, soul’s desperation). permanent damage caused to anyone during these fights results in a reset: everyone painfully changes forms and begin again in their rooms.

heart hates the resets. he desires serenity above all else, but never understands mind’s ravings or mindset enough to proceed.

mind refuses to process the changes emotionally, and comes to wall off his ability to feel entirely by manually changing his mind.

soul cycles and cycles through the stages of grief after every reset. he starts to hate himself for his inability to solve problems.

everyone remembers every loop, but processes it differently. heart buries himself in his mistakes, desperately trying to find the lesson in a long-dead situation, or maybe some reasoning behind mind’s glassy eyes. mind treats the cycles as a new day, misunderstanding resentment and grief, and prioritizing work over play. soul is breaking under all the pressure the cycles bring, and often can’t even look in the mirror to avoid getting attached to his current form.

they go through many forms (all of which are in a different sketchbook i don’t have right now </3), and experience agonies, problems, and surprising bonding experiences. hopefully, these loops don’t end up lasting forever…

the current ccccycles forms: Dyadracide and Eddie. (still designing heart)

Dyadracide, a name he coined meaning “to kill a duo”, starts off shattered and enraged. but with life’s quarrels and a relationship of understanding, he manages his grief and discovers something new for once. he has an extendable rope neck that coils inside his abdomen, a trident splitting his brain hemispheres that shoots out the roof of his mouth for combat (the aftermath of this leaves him coughing up blood), and a misaligned face he learns to like. also he speaks with a lot of ‘h’s. breathy to keep the blood out

Eddie is (mostly) mechanical, and enjoys feeling surrounded by schedules and basic patterns to understand his environment. His unchanging voicecoded smile and judging clock eyes that tick unsymmetrically intimidate with ominous blankness. He doesn’t flinch at violence or raised voices. Besides, both his reflexes and slender figure keep him out of the harm that really matters.

@calamarispider (ran no have @ :[)

here we have Eddie, Corona, “”loggers””, Spark, and Voicecoder. designed a TON of minds a bit back i want to share sometime, but all their names and designs and colors are still undecided as of yet. this was me trying to color a few of them, but ideas for different drawings popped up lol.

also! please don’t compare eddie to alastor. i also made him before i finished stranger things…so now there’s a hidden joke i can make…

before i do more jashling fanart, have a Dyadracide (one of my first real Soul designs after knowing cj for a year) dump :]! picking my favorites from a whiteboardfox canvas that i’ve been drawing nonstop for a few hours in every day. might share the other unchosen doodles later but have these for now.

ordered chronologically :]!!! drew a lot more than this but have the silly trident head guy for now

been learning how to render liquid cartoonilly-realistically, and it’s been fun! figuring out layering and stuff. learning on my own :]! i’m not weird about liquid i just love rendering it <3,, speaking of rendering; i’ve definitely gotten better at rendering him, but am tryna squeeze in a simpler sketchy style to draw faster. the layers are fun but they take a while <\3

ok this might be a little weird but to keep the blood out of his throat his voice is a little breathy sometimes (hence the excessive ‘h’s. its fun to write them lmao). breathy autotune 😭

alsO the stitches on his hoodie elbows are from his ability to detach his forearms, and they stay connected to him with the same rope his neck is made of. his anatomy is questionable but long neck = less gut (its stored inside him). lots of huggable ability ❤️. HES SUCH A DAD. it’s like beer gut but not,,AND because those arms are connected to his gut, if you like…lean into him too hard or whatever his hands twitch. playfully pumch him and his hands shudder. silly guy. i know its definitely an interesting way to interpret soul but i like him like this :]

⚠️TW // GOREY CONCEPTS, BLOOD, NOOSE/RED ROPE IMAGERY, DESCRIPTIONS OF AGONY

i have pages of designs for the three that i doodled in my school sketchbook, and honestly i can’t pick one so i’m using ✨all of them✨. switching em out yknow?? maybe i accidentally created a bunch of aus instead of characters(??) because they all have loops that happen in different ways, or maybe they *are* the same but in different loops—the chonny paradox. anyways uhm some fellas to mention: nerd mind, merve (<3), deltarune soul, roe, toy-style soul, tadc mind (half an accident), a rabid heart, simon mind, an awesome enby soul…heart with heart-eye glasses but then disruptivevoid reblogged someone’s cute render of the same idea— (honestly, lmao)

the gangs all here !!

but anyways I want to show off one design of soul in particular that has become an extremely fast favorite between me and my fellow rain-jash friend Sluggx!! it’s kinda gorey so i don’t know how to censor it :[, but the image is small so scroll past if the warnings above irk you. but uh. say hi to Dyadracide—a word i coined that means “to kill the duo”

me and my friend sluggx are going FERAL for him,,

ft roe and corona 🔱👑☀️

had the idea of designing a buttload of minds a bit ago, then recently this week i decided the same for soul. doodled him at school, then showed him to my friend via whiteboardfox :]. i draw Dyadra semi different now than there, but all his design is the same. rope neck that coils up inside his body when not in use, oversized pointy teeth (went monochromatik style with human teeth originally but nah), frizzly uhkempt hair, and a trident through his head. he’s always bleeding from the roof of his mouth, whether the trident is retracted into his skull or not. i love him so much😭💛. he has a full body and even a cute little gut but that’s kept for later for now. consider this a teaser of my inner workings :monk_devious:

ive been drawing him *SOOo* muchhh aaugha…can’t wait to show you when i can :]. building a batch of art for a tumblr post that i’ll dump later today maybe. get ready for some fun and gore galore~ (its not too gorey, just the trident-through-head-hes-always-choking-on-his-own-blood concept in full force. yummy ideas have to be explored huhu)