#canceryousuck

Strength to me and strength to all of you out there!

10 long heartbreaking years since you left. So many things I wish I’d of told you and wish you’d of said. So many questions. So many what ifs. So many things I’d wish we’d shared together over the last 10 years, I know you’d be proud of how far I’ve come, you always knew there was something different about me and you got it in one. You never gave up and your strength is something I’ll always admire. I hope it’s as beautiful as you up there and you’re looking after Amy for me, I know you’ll of taken her under your wing as you did when we were kids. Rest easy Grandad, I’ll miss you always and I’ll love you forever😓💔💙 #grandad #10yearanniversary #oldphotos #childhoodmemories #canceryousuck #resteasy #iloveyoualways ♥️ https://www.instagram.com/p/B26GZDehgBz/?igshid=qzxagm13cke2

Yes it does! #canceryousuck #cancerfighter #cancersurvivor #cancerwarrior #stage2colorectalcancer #stomalife #faplife #nocolonstillrolling #noonefightsalone #nccancerfighter #staystrong #staypositive #fightthegoodfight #warriorstrong #imafighter💪 #stillkickingcancersasssmiling #nevergiveup #neversurrender #ostomatewarrior #hollisterostomybags #ostomate #ostomylife #ostomysisters (at South Historic Concord, Township 12 Concord) https://www.instagram.com/p/B10yVLRHQCK/?igshid=x92g4jeqde92

Not a good day my #cancerwarrior friends. Saturday night I started feeling bad & then the vomiting started. #canceryousuck #stage2colorectalcancer #METStoadrenalgland. #byebyeremission #stomalife #faplife #thistoshallpass #stillkickingcancersbuttsmiling #noonefightsalone #nocolonstillrolling #barbiebuttprincess #hollisterostomybags #ostomylifenotfortheweak #ostomysisters #ostomateforlife #kickingcancersassonesmileatatime (at South Historic Concord, Township 12 Concord) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1lxf8wnaEv/?igshid=4abqrbpu5r3m

Monday & Tuesday were great days for me with low pain 6/7. Wednesday afternoon pain exploded upwards of 8/9. Today I'm stuck between my bed & lazyboy chair not wanting to move fearing I will anger the pain monster. #canceryousuck #chemosucks #chronicpainsucks #chronicallyill #chronicallytired #chronicallybadasscancerfighter #cancerpickedthewrongbitchtomesswith #noonefightsalone #nocolonstillrolling #stomalife #faplife #ostomylifenotfortheweak #ostomateforlife #hollisterostomybags #stage2colorectalcancer #byebyeremission #nevergiveup #n #keepfighting #keepsmiling #endallcancers. #scanxiety #scanxietyisreal #MRI (at South Historic Concord, Township 12 Concord) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1effpOHDDk/?igshid=1ajf1ngal3vm3

Had lunch today with my beautiful sweet mom @ East Coast Wings. Today was a great day! Take that #canceryousuck Mom, you are my rock and I am beyond blessed to have you in my life. My mom has been by my side every step of my cancer journey. My #stage2colorectalcancer journey started on August 16, 2017 during my #flexsigmoidoscopy #Endoscopy by my now retired GI Dr. Dalton. Surgery was a few months later on Nov 9, 2017. During my 12 hour surgery that should have been 5 hours my artery was cut. I needed 5 transfusions during surgery & another 4 during my weeks medical induced coma. I spent 2 months in hospital. Talk about a rough road. I developed a massive infection needing a wound vac for 4 months. Each change felt as if duck tape was being ripped off my stomach & bottom. I screamed, cried & begged for them to stop. All the while mom held my hand, wiped my tears away & murmured comforting words in my ear. My pain continued as I went through 8 months of chemo & crying & being for it to stop. Mom was right there beside me saying #thistoshallpass & she was right. Now #byebyeremission as my #colorectalcancer METS to my adrenal gland. Mom my ever present angel said #yougotthis #noonefightsalone #eveninthedarknessthereislight #withGodallthingsarepossible #eachdayisablessing Whatever these next few weeks hold for me I will continue to #keepfighting & I will #neversurrender #nevergiveup I am hoping for the best & prepared for the worse case senario. A senario I thought was long since buried. God only gives us what He thinks we can handle. At times I have felt this is the straw that will break my back. That I will crack & no amount of love, kindness & support will put me back together. As I type this mom's saying echoes in my heart, #thistoshallpass #loveyoumyrockstardaughter #youareblessed Thank you mom for everything! Thank you for your love, guidance, kindness, patience, understanding & friendship.❤💙💜💚💛 #mymomisawesome #blessedwithmymom #greatestmomintheworld #yourockmom #youareamazing #youarebeautiful (at East Coast Wings + Grill) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1Xfg6RH-ad/?igshid=5ttpf8087o7

I finally received my new t-shirt today. It's been a pretty rough few days. My pain has been through the roof. This made my day! I'm no longer in remission as the cancer has spread to the only adrenal gland I have. My right kidney & adrenal were removed due to being nonfunctional & poisoning my body as a teenager.My Endoscopy is set for the 29th with Dr. Chicawalla. He knows all about #faplife. MRI is set for the 30th. I'm hoping for the best & prepared for the worst. After these 2 tests I will be seeing the Oncology Surgeon, Dr. Hill & my Oncologist Dr. Mitchell. I'm incredibly blessed to have these amazing doctors in my corner. #canceryouareabitch #canceryousuck #cancerpickedthewrongbitchtomesswith #stage2colorectalcancer #softtissuesarcoma #stomalife #faplife #ostomylifenotfortheweak #ostomateforlife #cancerfighter #cancersurvivor #cancerwarrior #fightthegoodfight #eachdayisablessing #withGodallthingsarepossible #eveninthedarknessthereislight #keepsmiling #keepfighting #nevergiveup #neversurrender #noonefightsalone #togetherwecandothis #endallcancers #pleasefindacureforcancer #wegotthis #cancerpatientsunite #💙💙💙💙💙💙 (at South Historic Concord, Township 12 Concord) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1STckDHdqQ/?igshid=cw9y22ab4f7i