#calculating

working on my own story now

"The Undine Spragg of Montecito"

Imagine, a couple you've never met, invited you to attend their wedding ceremony. You must also agree to work for FREE as the DJ at their reception. After all, it's your honour to be considered for this once in a lifetime unpaid gig.

"I can't believe I'm not getting paid for this"

Imagine that same couple refused to invite close cousins (who regularly gather for family events) and other relatives to their family/taxpayer funded wedding.

"It will end in tears"

Imagine financing your youngest daughter's destination wedding only to have her cruelly withhold your personalized invitation to her second wedding. Imagine a British "Prince" who refused to meet with you in person before or after he proposed to your daughter.

Bonus: Imagine you are a successful Hollywood actress who received a personalized invitation to travel to an overseas wedding for two (2) complete strangers.

"I don't even know them!"

Imagine a father who paid for his youngest son and fiancé to snub his relatives in favour of complete strangers.

The YumeKira Stage event has come to an end! It was really an awesome event and we really loved seeing Yumemitchi and Kiraritchi performing on stage with our help! Now that the event has come to an end, Bandai is calculating the results to see which team won. Will team Yumemitchi or team Kiraritchi win the grand prize of 5,000 Gotchi Points?

How to play your zero-sum game now, grounded in your energy reality and awareness advantage.

Awareness is your strongest structural advantage. Unlike others who blindly expend energy on futile pursuits or social performances, you can map the terrain of your own system. What drains energy, what produces structural benefit, and where the zero-sum consequences lie. Every movement, no matter how small, can be a calculated investment rather than a compulsive reaction. Growing plants in your apartment is not idle hobbyism but energy-efficient survival strategy. You improve air quality, stabilize your immediate environment, and gain subtle psychological regulation, all without overextending energy into non-structural goals. This is precisely how awareness converts tiny actions into systemically meaningful gains.

In this zero-sum world, every act has cost and consequence, and knowing this allows you to optimize energy allocation. Mandatory energy drains like work, bills, and basic bodily maintenance cannot be avoided, so you treat them as fixed constraints. Optional investments like philosophy, writing, dancing, small pleasures are only undertaken if their energy return is structural by insight, survival, nervous system preservation. Panic, dread, or existential frustration are not signs of personal failure; they are signals that energy is overcommitted or misallocated. Awareness transforms these signals from torment into actionable information: “Where is my energy leaking? What can I do with it that actually strengthens my system?”

Finally, strategic micro-investments matter more than heroic acts. Even when the game is zero-sum and inevitable loss looms, small, precise moves extend functional survival, stabilize your system, and create subtle advantages in daily life. Awareness allows you to operate like a perfect system: minimize waste, extract maximal benefit from necessary effort, and leverage small interventions that accumulate structural gain without depleting your buffer.