░▐ ★_ocean eyes 、
《 ★ rkjennie 》 he wonders if she knows he went to her debut showcase and he would’ve gone to the more recent one if they weren’t busy preparing for the comeback. between learning the choreography, filming the mv, and the showcase before the live stages this month, he didn’t know when he had a chance to really breathe. since the prank, yixing doesn’t feel like he has been so far and he wonders how much of everything is a prank. how much of his life is a joke to other people? is he a joke?
it’s a concern he hasn’t had since primary school when he was bullied for living in the housemaid quarters of the meng household. the sad look on his nainai’s face when she found out made him decide not to let others make him a laughingstock. he learned how to lead conversations in other directions, how to make people laugh at things that were actually funny, and how to avoid being hurt by words so easily. he became stronger but right now he feels weak standing a few feet away from her, fighting the urge to call her pretty girl again and act like nothing changed, like this month isn’t supposed to be theirs, an anniversary they didn’t get to have.
when he reaches her, he makes sure to bow, avoiding her gaze so he doesn’t sink into those ocean eyes again. “it’s the bewitching women of kt~ your mv looked very cool! the rap is my favorite part.” he didn’t have to say that, he shouldn’t have, but a part of him wanted to and that was enough for him. enough for him to make a foolish decision and stare into her eyes again.
