#bug noises

my wifething @schizo-sapphic is selfshipping with GLaDOS and it's reawaken my awful terrible complexes about wheatley..... i NEED to hurt him SO BAD

more about their dynamic under the cut

so. gary ends up inside aperature completely on accident! probably stumbled inside it looking for food, and then found himself in a world almost completely devoid of any visceral, living creatures for it to eat... disappointing. :[

as you might imagine, this makes gary pretty damn frustrated! he's only getting hungrier the longer he's trapped inside aperature, so he figures his best bet is to make himself look like a test subject for the chance to be put into stasis (which would at least insure he lives longer). this works at first! until wheatley wakes it up, of course. annoying, adorable, useless wheatley.... and he's.. exactly gary's type in prey... psychologically, of course. it's not like gary would actually get much from trying to eat him, but when you're hungry enough even your frienemies start to look like food! he can't help it! (at least that's what it tells wheatley when it bullies him lmao)

plus i've been meaning to write down the fucktillion ideas i have in one, consolidated place for once. so i might do that here

🧍‍♂️hhhhiiiiii guyyys.

so. i have good personal news and bad personal news

the good news is that i have a new tablet to try out and a new, super nice pharmacy to get my meds from! that and i've been reaching a lot of new mental health milestones which has been Very nice.

the Other news! however, is that i am. maybe possibly 85% sure that i have MCAS. i learned recently that MCAS is comorbid with something like 3-4 other chronic health issues that i already have diagnosed, and So Many of my more recent and upsetting symptoms that i've been noticing don't line up with the things i'm already diagnosed with Do line up with MCAS. which is fun /sarcasm

i'm still doing my research and i understand i have a lot of lab work to do until i'm sure i have it, but i think my primary reason for thinking i didn't have MCAS beforehand was because i had only ever heard of more intense cases in which people have had to go to the ER sometimes more than twice in a week for their symptoms. meanwhile i, on the other hand, have only ever debated going to the hospital at most (i usually don't go anywhere) and i don't deal with things like being fully unable to breathe or sudden, immediate, emergency-level reactions.. i usually just feel really Really REALLY uncomfortable or am in some significant chronic pain for an hour or 2 before it passes. i really genuinely thought this was shit i was just.... making up ig?? until i saw a chiropractor who said to me "hey, you have H-EDS? if you also have POTS you should really make sure you don't have MCAS, too" and i thought to myself "oh fuuuck professional validation... maybe i Should be concerned for my general health" nbfjjfjfbfjfbsknfmjgngk