#breakup stuff

“I remember holding your hand, walking in sync and thinking as I looked at you- ‘this’ll never end. We’re perfect,’ how naive of me. How naive to think we were an exception to the rule. Everything ends. Even if it is at one time perfect.”

I was blind to the anchor tied to my ankles as I sunk into your oceans.

It's! Just! The way I was reacting to literally everything! At the beginning of the year! Was the way that emotional abuse victims respond to things! And literally nobody! Saw that! Or like, not literally, but, I can only think of one to two people who maybe did! Right! And for some people that's just bc they Don't Know what that looks like! Right! But that still kind of sucks bc there was just, so much that will go unexplained, always, right, and I Want to be able to explain it, so bad, but, But for some people I feel like! They should have! They just Did Not Want To! Right! Because of what that would have meant abt their friend,

I love hearing about all my friends wonderful relationships and almost relationships because it makes me so happy they're happy. But then I get sad and cry because I used to be that happy too and now I'm alone and I will be for most my life.