#brain static

idk what i was on when i came up with the 7? fic ideas i have written down within a single day but i Cannot come up with a single other thing rn when i want to write something shorter for my official first fic... bc the one i locked in on is near 5k and barely anything has happened...

Just need to be consensually beaten the shit out of but whatever

Do you dabble with the ephemeral? The recognition of it is not enough. I can utilize it for destructive and constructive things. It fades into me, i rarely get a choice, or maybe i just want it to be that way because it's scary to have responsibility. Why me he asked. Why you. It's a dance with nothingness, let's tango. But i can't dance. No one ever taught me, and when i tried, i got laughed at. Apples can never be oranges the brain said. But that was a categorical mistake, not a mastske of the thing in itself, no? Can you find meaning in this? I'm getting ahead of myself. The ephemeral is calling me. Let me let it go to voice mail, please. God rains down imagery woes. Even god would be sad if he could. I dont think he can, tho. I feel sad for the nothingness of god. Shame on you, the boys grandmother said (she's a card carying Catholic). Fine, I'll do it for her. I wouldn't want to pop her bubble. Look at me...so high minded, maybe shell pop my bubble instead. The master needs the slaves acknowledgement so who's the real slave? Dude, that's another categorical mistake. Ha, fine, I'll leave it up to the ephemeral to decide. After all, i am dancing with it, even if i am laughing.

I need to go out and get lunch but ughhhh

GOD i hate it here, wdym for the day i was thinking about kwami powers and i just realized a few of them were just CLASSPECTS

Forgot to take my venlafaxine yesterday and holy shit am I paying for it today