I'm still unsure if I have BPD or not and it's making me stressed. I'm friends with someone with BPD who has suggested for me to get checked out in the past, I can recognize pattern of behavior that could be switching episodes, and dear god do I get attached to people before flipping on them on a dine because they said something mean, they're hanging out with others or they won't message me first anymore no matter how often we talk.
I don't want to self-diagnose myself because I don't want to overstep on people who actually have BPD, and I'm worried that I'll lose friendships if I do get diagnosed. The friend that does have BPD rarely speaks to me anymore, and one friend said that they would cut ties if someone they knew had BPD because their grandma had it/was suspected to have it. I don't even think I have the money to go to a professional in the first place, so I'm stuck spiraling and having possible split eps. It just sucks.
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