#bloodofthepen

Her home seems cold and foreboding, and inside of it sits a lunatic on her throne and her father is encased in stone. It’s not the most ideal homecoming situation. There’s an ache in her chest, one that begs for the comforts of her old life. When she was dumb and desperate for freedom and didn’t understand what it meant to be an empress. 

She wants to say she doesn’t miss the old Emily, but she does. Because beyond those walls, even moreso than this journey she’s been on, everything will change. 

“What will you do?” The words are a chill on the wind, the diverging of two planes of existence splitting at the seams. 

She’s used to it now. 

“I don’t know.”

Kill Delilah. Stop Delilah. Understand Delilah. 

He hovers in her periphery, as black and white as his own viewpoint. “There is no time to hesitate now, little empress. But here we are.”

Despite herself, there’s a curl of her smile that threatens the edges of her mouth. “Did you come all the way here for a pep talk?”

The Outsider is quiet for a moment, and she wants to look, to take him all in before this is the end of their - partnership? But there’s a worry that sits uncomfortably in her gut that if she looks, he’ll disappear. 

“That would be encouraging.”

“And you don’t get involved?” She rolls her neck and closes her eyes. For a brief second, there’s a brush against her fingers, as cold as they were in the Void when he held her dangling by her wrist. 

Then it’s gone, and he takes a deep breath. “I think we’re past that by now, you and I.”

She wants him to hold her hand. And not because she wants this to end in some sort of romantic connection, but because she’s so lonely and she needs it. She needs that bit of someone in her corner, someone who has been there to push her along and show her the way. Sokolov is gone. Meagan is a lie. Her mother is a ghost in a heart. Her father nothing more than a statue. 

The only bullshit, tangible connection she has right now is this twisted and warped god. 

“I lied before,” she admits. This is it. A conclusion will be written, and she will take back everything that should be hers. “I told myself it didn’t matter that you were gone back at Stilton’s. That I was on my own.”

“Humans are very good at lying to themselves, I’ve noticed,” he says with a huff of amusement. 

“I needed you,” Emily tells him. 

Her hand finds his, tentative fingers pushing against darkness. She lets herself have this weakness, the feel of his palm against hers and the brief way his fingers tighten and squeeze before he’s gone.

it really means so much to me to get messages like this. I started this for me, to share my town for the first time in a way I’ve never been able to do before, mostly for me to look back on later and remember. but especially now that I’m fully planning to continue to play every day and actually keep up with it, and I’m not time traveling.

but I never expected to get such a response! so many new followers, and hundreds of notes?? it really means the world to see so many people interested in my little island, I truly never expected it.

1. What are some of your autistic headcanons? Optional: Explain why.

autistic characters? The Doctor, Leela, Donna Noble, Bill Potts, Bartleby the Scrivener, L, Near, Aziraphale, Newt, Jeremy Clockson, Bruthah, Rincewind, etc. etc. 

7. What do you want to see society/schools/parents do to be more accommodating to autistic people?

i’m a college teacher so i kind of see both sides of this? in general we talk a lot about equity and trying to be accessible to all kinds of people but when you get down to it there isn’t a whole lot of tolerance for non average minds neither as students nor as teachers. (see #11) 

and when we get accommodations paperwork it’s mostly just time-and-a-half on tests and that’s… not all we could do to help people manage. like, that’s honestly bs. over years of teaching i’ve just decided to get around the “no special treatment” rules by offering certain things to everyone (extensions, or being able to take the test in the teacher’s office, just for a few examples). and then what happens is that mostly only the people who actually need it will take it, so it works out. 

i’d like to see way more of that, like universal design with accommodations. i feel like it’s better for more people who need some kind of help or leniency to have access, it doesn’t matter if a few people get some help they didn’t really need. like… why be so stingy about it?!

i think the same thing applies in the workplace. i asked my supervisor some stuff to help me with executive function / crap memory, and she’s doing it. and guess what it also helps the other 3 or 5 people with crap memory in our department. that’s what universal design is. hello?!?!  revolutionary /s

11. What do you wish that more people knew about autism?

You dare suggest I love any of my OCs more than the other??

Well you’re right here’s the reasons why Pleonexia is problematic:

Literally kidnaps people and tortures them for fun. That’s the biggest thing. She built a dungeon in her basement to do it and everything with over-the-top human birdcages

She also constantly steals things. It’s almost funny that she called her henchmen Magpies when she’s out there swiping anything shiny and pretty

Says she’s heartless but then goes and protects people from abusive situations

Cut off contact with her parents for years, effectively disappearing completely out of nowhere

Committed murder and decided to go on a shopping spree immediately afterwards. You won’t catch me breaking into a Kmart when I finally snap and go off at my abusers now will you

I would apologize except I’m not sorry XD That scene also freaks me out, so I’m glad it was effective 😅 Yeah that whole sequence of events was peak hurt/comfort feels writing for me so I’m reeeally happy that letting myself really indulge in some heavier drama seems to have had the intended outcome! Thanks for answering ^^