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hall of fame - chxrry

i came across a snippet of this song on twitter and i instantly opened spotify to listen to it in its entirety. it's such a cool, fun, good pop song and it genuinely feels like happiness. i had known chxrry for a while before that but never had any real reason to check out her music. this song was just what i needed, she earned a new listener. i DEFINITELY will be seated for her album, u me & my ego, on may 29 and you should to !!

in honor of one of the best songs released in 2025, Jezebel from one of the best British artists, Natanya

be my valentine ? - theodora

with her newest single "be my valentine ?", theodora (one of my favorite artists) gives the lover girls their anthem. i've been loving the song for the past two days, and i wanted to write a few words to get you to listen to it too (check out down below for a snippet of the song).

the song is clearly inspired by zouk, a music genre born in the Caribbean islands of Guadeloupe and Martinique, kompa, a music genre from Haiti and more generally caribbean music. the rhythm is slow and danceable, the lyrics are relatable, and as always, the chorus is very catchy. on "be my valentine ?", theodora expresses her affection for her lover, although her actions convey the opposite message. on the one hand, she admits that she tends to mess up and self-sabotage whenever she starts falling in love, i suppose, in order to keep control of herself and the situation. on the other hand, she is not afraid to rant about her feelings shamelessly.

as always, her music video is inventive, colorful, and, most importantly, fun. theodora works alongside melchior leroux who has already directed the critically acclaimed "fashion designa" (which was awarded as best audiovisual artistic creation at the 2026 Victoires de la Musique). though the lyrics hint at a man being her lover, it was chosen to display a lesbian relationship on screen (however, i don't know if it has a specific meaning or if it was simply to not upset her dad, as she mentioned in a tiktok before). they chose to cast famous french actress adele exarchopoulos as her love interest, a duo i personally loved seeing. the video uses the aesthetic of 70's/80's series and tv adverts to narrate the short fling between the girls.

"be my valentine ?" is the newest single from theodora's upcoming record, sexy music 4 life, released friday alongside "mr. dj" featuring underground rapper luzyqv. this new era, as she teases it, is for everybody. she breaks the rules of what is sexy and includes everyone who feels like they are, in a sundress or in joggers, in high heels or slippers. it has already started, and it's a fun time around here, so i totally suggest you check out her music and live a sexy summer and sexy life overall.

As I got out of my apartment building, I grabbed my phone and opened Spotify. Gone for a 30-minute walk, I had to choose THE album to come with me. “Time Flies”, dexter in the newsagent, perfect. I was slowly walking, trying not to slip on the snow while “Care” played in my earplugs, when I first heard this lyric: “if i’d hurt myself, would anybody care ?”

For a single second, I was taken back to my recently-ended 2025. More specifically, my many depressive phases, which I insist on calling them phases and not a full-blown depression since I have not been properly diagnosed. To explain further, these phases last a month, sometimes more, and are characterized by a lack of anything. I feel overly empty. My life doesn’t seem to be going anywhere. I don’t feel like I’m truly living but surviving, like a zombie, a corpse who’s lost his soul. This momentary depression is mostly caused by university, or, as I love to call it, my worst life decision. During these times, I cry. A lot. Everywhere. I fight my tears to not break down in front of classmates or passengers in my train. And it is the most embarrassing thing to cry in public. I feel vulnerable to the public. This might be where I can see myself in this performance of “Care”. Honestly, I was digressing and tried to link it back to the song as well as I could. But anyways. I also feel very alone. To me, no one understands me enough. No one loves me enough to hear me completely. No one truly cares.

When struggling to deal with my mental health and uni, I don’t really get to find a way out. I could not consider withdrawing from school. Not in an African household, even less a Cameroonian one. I could not change course. Nothing interests me enough. My sole exit, or I thought, was death. More so, suicide, well…almost. I didn’t want to die that much. Deep down, I held faith in a better future for myself, living my dream life. But I wanted out. I needed to get rid of my biggest burden. My tears were not enough for my family to be alarmed and help me. “So I thought of hurting myself. What if I jump over this bridge ? Or jump in front of the next train ? I’ll never have to go to this classroom again”. Thankfully (for who ? I’m not sure), I could not build the courage up to do it. I did question it. Would this finally be enough for people to realize that I can’t do it. Would this heal me once and for all ? Would someone end up caring about me and giving me the help I need ? I saw it as a potential silent cry. A move that would say everything I could not get out of my own mouth.

Life hasn’t been the same since I moved for the last time. I lost my friends, the little activities I loved so much, my confidence, my life balance, my happiness and overall, my will to live. dexter discusses grief in this verse of the song, I resonate with it. I didn’t lose a family member or someone close to me like her. But I lost myself and I’m still trying to recover from it.