ā¦A potions accident had turned them into a woman for the next 24 hours.
Azul Ashengrotto
The twins had warned you with matching mischievous grins, a potions accident had turned Azul into a woman for the next 24 hours. You wasted no time heading straight to his room.
āAzul, please let me in!ā you called gently through the door.
āI look ridiculous!ā came his voice from the other side, still unmistakably his, but lighter and softer. āYouāre just going to laugh at me. I wonāt be leaving this room until the potion wears off.ā
āAzul, I would never make fun of you. Please?ā
After several long minutes of gentle coaxing, the door finally cracked open.
Your brain short circuited.
Azul stood there, arms crossed defensively. Long, silky hair framed a stunning face, full lips, rosy cheeks, long lashes framing those familiar sharp eyes. He looked beautiful.
Lord have mercy.
āā¦See? I look like a joke!ā he muttered, cheeks already turning pink.
You stepped inside, closed the door, and cupped his face with both hands. āYouāre dumb if you think that. You look just as breathtaking as you always do. But with a feminine touch.ā
Azulās entire face flushed crimson. The sight of him blushing so prettily as a girl was dangerously adorable. āS-Stop saying such thingsā¦ā he stammered, trying to look away, but you held his cheeks firmly.
You couldnāt help yourself. You started kissing him, soft little pecks all over his forehead, cheeks, nose, and finally his lips. Each kiss made him more flustered, his new feminine voice letting out tiny embarrassed sounds that were unfairly cute.
āYouāre going to kill meā¦ā he whispered, hiding his burning face against your shoulder. Azul made a mortified little noise but didnāt pull away.
Jade Leech
Jade seemed remarkably unbothered by the transformation. You found him in his room, standing in front of the mirror and admiring his new form. The potion had given him long, flowing hair and a tall, elegant model like figure. He still moved with that same graceful, slightly dangerous for your poor heart.
You were sitting on his bed, staring. Jade caught your gaze in the mirror reflection and turned around with a knowing smile. āDo you find this form attractive?ā he asked, voice still smooth but noticeably higher.
You nodded, a faint blush creeping up your neck. āOf course I do. Youāre my boyfriend⦠or girlfriend right now? Itās a little confusing, but yes. Very attractive.ā
Jade grin widened as he walked closer. He tilted your chin up with two fingers, forcing you to look directly at him. Your blush deepened. āYouāre enjoying this accident quite a bit more than expected.ā he teased, voice low and playful.
Your brain went into full gay panic.
āYouāre pretty, okay?! Itās not my fault!ā
Jade chuckled softly and leaned in, pressing a light, teasing kiss to the corner of your lips before pulling back just as quickly.
āThis little accident has taken a rather interesting turn I must say.ā he murmured, eyes glittering with mischief. āI believe Iām going to enjoy seeing how you react to me like this.ā
You were absolutely cooked.
Floyd Leech
Floyd was a chaotic mix of annoyed and intrigued by his new body. He kept poking at his own chest and complaining about the āextra weightā while also admiring his hips in the mirror.
You were trying to help him adjust his uniform when he suddenly wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you close. He looked down at you with that signature sharp grin, now on a strikingly pretty face.
āYou like girls too, right~?ā he asked, though it sounded more like a statement.
You nodded, heart racing. āYesā¦?ā
His smile stretched wide. āThen itās your lucky day, Shrimpy.ā
You sighed āFloyd, donāt mess aroundā¦ā
He whined, and the sound coming from his new girly voice was weirdly hot. āCome on~ We gotta make the most of it while it lasts!ā
Before you could protest further, he cupped the back of your neck, and kissed you hard. One hand stayed on your waist while the other tangled in your hair, pulling you flush against his new curves.
When he finally pulled back, he was ready to tease you more, until he noticed your bright red face and the nosebleed dripping down.
āEh~? Shrimpyās nose is bleeding!ā He laughed loudly, delighted. āYouāre so cute when you get overwhelmed. This is gonna be so much fun~ā
He didnāt let you go, still grinning like a shark whoād found new prey.
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John Logan has spent months painfully attracted to the gorgeous girl constantly hanging around Hannah and Allie ā flirting with women so openly that he convinced himself she could never want him back. Which means every heated glance, every teasing smile, and every dirty comment aimed his way had to be his imagination⦠right?
Apparently not.
Because after a brutal hockey loss and one chaotic Briar party, Logan finally learns two important things:
1. sheās been flirting with him this entire time.
2. bisexuality exists.
warnings : alcohol consumption, party setting, heavy flirting, sexual tension, suggestive content, kissing, implied sexual content, bisexual female protagonist, jealousy, misunderstandings, cocky john logan, mutual obsession, college romance, hockey romance, off campus universe, reader insert, no use of y/n.
He noticed her long before he ever spoke to her.
That was the problem.
John Logan had spent months pretending he wasnāt completely distracted by the gorgeous girl constantly orbiting the Briar hockey crowd like she belonged there.
Because she did.
She sat with Hannah Wells and Allie Hayes at games, legs crossed in tiny skirts that made half the arena stare openly. She flirted shamelessly with girls at parties. Danced with them. Kissed cheeks. Whispered things into their ears that made them laugh and blush.
And Loganā
Logan was obsessed with her.
Which wouldāve been bad enough on its own.
But from the beginning, heād assumed she liked women exclusively.
So he did what he always did with impossible situations:
Buried it.
Deep.
Didnāt matter that every time she walked into a room, his brain short-circuited.
Didnāt matter that she looked at him too long sometimes.
Didnāt matter that she always smirked when she caught him staring.
She wasnāt interested in him.
End of story.
ā
The hockey team lost badly Friday night.
Which meant the party afterward was louder, messier, and more alcohol-fueled than usual.
Logan leaned against the kitchen counter with a beer in hand while Garrett argued with Dean across the room about a missed pass during third period.
Normally Logan wouldāve joined in.
Tonight he barely heard them.
Because she had just walked in.
And Jesus Christ.
Black leather skirt.
Tiny silver top.
Glossy lips curved around a smile while Hannah whispered something in her ear.
Loganās jaw tightened instantly.
āSheās looking over here again,ā Garrett Graham said casually beside him.
Logan nearly choked on his drink.
āShe is not.ā
Garrett snorted.
āLogan, that girlās been eye-fucking you for months.ā
Impossible.
Because thirty seconds later she leaned down toward Allie, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear while laughing softly.
See?
Definitely not into him.
Logan took another long drink.
Bad idea.
Because the second he lowered the cup, she was walking directly toward him.
Not near him.
Toward him.
His entire body went alert.
āWell, well,ā she said smoothly once she reached him. āBriarās favorite hockey player finally looks miserable enough for me to approach.ā
Logan blinked at her.
Up close she was even worse.
Pretty wasnāt enough for girls like her.
She was dangerous.
āYou picking on me now?ā he asked carefully.
āMaybe.ā Her eyes dragged slowly over him. āYou look hot when youāre irritated, baby.ā
Baby.
Logan forgot how to breathe for a second.
Behind her, Hannah noticed what was happening and immediately started grinning into her drink.
āYou drunk?ā Logan asked suspiciously.
āNope.ā
āThen why are you flirting with me?ā
She stared at him for two whole seconds.
Then burst out laughing.
Not mean laughter.
Real laughter.
Bright and shocked and completely uncontrollable.
Logan frowned immediately.
āWhat?ā
āOh my God,ā she wheezed, grabbing his arm dramatically. āYou seriously donāt know?ā
āKnow what?ā
āYou thought I was gay.ā
The way she said it made him realize instantly.
And judging by the tears forming in her eyes from laughing, she realized too.
Logan felt genuine horror settle into his chest.
āWellā¦ā he muttered defensively. āYouāre always with girls.ā
āAnd?ā
āAnd you flirt with them constantly.ā
āI flirt with everyone constantly.ā
āThat is not helping your case.ā
She laughed even harder.
Then leaned closer, lowering her voice conspiratorially.
āYou kinda are,ā she teased. āItās adorable.ā
He groaned into his beer.
She was still smiling when he looked back at her.
Soft now.
Interested.
And suddenly Logan realized something horrifying:
She had been flirting with him this entire time.
He just hadnāt noticed.
āYou mean to tell me,ā he said slowly, āall those looks werenāt accidental?ā
She looked genuinely offended.
āLogan. I practically undressed you with my eyes during three home games.ā
Garrett barked out a laugh somewhere nearby.
āHoly shit,ā Logan muttered.
āYeah.ā Her smirk returned. āYouāre not exactly subtle either, sweetheart.ā
Something shifted then.
The embarrassment faded.
And confidenceāthe familiar Logan confidenceāstarted slipping back into place.
His eyes dropped deliberately to her mouth.
āYou got any idea what youāve been doing to me all semester?ā
Her expression flickered slightly.
āThere he is.ā
Logan stepped closer.
Close enough to smell her perfume.
Close enough to notice the way her breathing changed.
āYou call everybody pretty boy?ā he asked quietly.
āNo.ā
āBaby?ā
āNope.ā
āSweetheart?ā
āOnly the hockey players I wanna kiss.ā
That hit him straight in the chest.
Logan smiled slowly.
Dangerously.
āWell,ā he murmured, āgood thing Iām a hockey player then.ā
Her lips parted slightly.
Finally.
A reaction.
For the first time all night, she looked affected.
And Logan loved it instantly.
His hand brushed lightly against her waist.
āYou know,ā he said softly, āI spent months trying not to want you.ā
āMonths?ā she teased. āThatās kinda pathetic, handsome.ā
āYou were busy making out with girls.ā
āAnd now?ā
Loganās eyes darkened.
āNow Iām realizing I suffered for no reason.ā
She laughed again, quieter this time.
Then leaned close enough for her lips to brush his ear.
āWant me to show you how much I like men too?ā
Every coherent thought left his body.
Immediately.
When she pulled back, she looked entirely too pleased with herself.
Logan stared at her for one dangerous second before grabbing her hand.
āUpstairs,ā he said.
She grinned brilliantly.
āThought youād never ask.ā
ā
The second the bedroom door shut, they both started laughing.
Not because it wasnāt hot.
God, it was.
But because Logan still looked personally victimized by his own stupidity.
āI cannot believe,ā he said while shaking his head, āthat I watched you flirt with me for months and thought you were just being friendly.ā
āFriendly?ā she repeated incredulously. āLogan, I told you your thighs looked sinful in gray sweatpants.ā
āIn my defense, I thought maybe girls just complimented each other like that.ā
She collapsed against the door laughing again.
āYou are unbelievably pretty and unbelievably stupid.ā
āYeah?ā Logan murmured, stepping closer. āStill wanna kiss me though.ā
Her smile softened slightly.
āVery much.ā
That ended the conversation.
His hands slid to her waist, pulling her against him while her arms wrapped around his neck instantly.
And unlike the teasing and tension downstairs, the kiss felt almost dizzying.
Because theyād both wanted this for way too long.
She tasted like vodka and lip gloss and trouble.
Logan kissed her harder immediately.
Her laugh melted into a soft sound against his mouth as he backed her toward the bed.
āCareful,ā she whispered teasingly between kisses. āYou seem a little obsessed with me, hockey boy.ā
āI am obsessed with you,ā Logan admitted shamelessly.
That made her blink.
Then grin.
āWell,ā she murmured while tugging him back down to her mouth, āgood thing Iām obsessed with you too.ā
And somewhere between the heated kisses, teasing laughter, wandering hands, and Logan groaning in humiliation every time she reminded him sheād been flirting all semesterā
They both realized this definitely wasnāt going to be a one-time thing.
Hello, lovely and hot human beings!
I hope youāre all doing well. I missed my John Logan era⦠and also my bisexuality, so naturally I decided to mix both together. I hope you donāt mind ā love and heat are for everyone around here.
Enjoy this little baby, and donāt hesitate to comment what youād like to see next! And if you liked it, feel free to leave a like, it truly means a lot to me.
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req for weskerwong threeway where ada walks in on shy!secretary!reader and wesker in his office and she decides to join in š
dude Iāve never really had a thing for Wesker personally but this situation awoke something in me⦠need them
implied to be their pre-mission meeting before re4
wc: 5.2k
tags: Albert Wesker/Reader/Ada Wong, smut, ffm/bi 3some, cisfem!reader, face sitting, fingering, degradation, p in v, dom/sub dynamics, use of āsirā, oral (reader giving & receiving), dubcon (power imbalance but reader is otherwise a willing participant). reader is implied to be lowkey inexperienced with women
You donāt know how you got in this mess. Or maybe you do, but your heading is spinning too fast to remember the details right now.
Your breathing is shallow and breathy as you stand with your back against the cold wall, palms flat against the surface on either side of your hips. Your chest is raised, but itās far from a confident posture; itās all you can do in an attempt to cower away.
But you donāt do anything to stop it, do you? No, you never have, not even once since this began. Whatever this was.
You didnāt need to dwell on the beginnings, and you had no clear mind to do so, either. Every time felt like the first anyway. Like youād never before felt so exposed, so vulnerable and undone, all at the hands of the cold and calculated evil that was your boss.Ā
Albert Wesker. It felt like knowing godās full name. Itād be sacrilege to speak it, especially since you were merely his personal secretary, though how you landed the job, youād never know. You primarily called him sir; it felt too weighted most days to even call him Mister Wesker, like the extra syllables might waste his time and earn you his contempt, and most days you were scared to so much as pique his attention. Whenever he took too much notice of you, there was a short list of what might follow.Ā
Today, he did take notice. His sharp eyes noticed everything. You shouldāve known better than to buy yourself new clothes. Now here you were with them dishelved and askew.
Three too many buttons were undone on your dress shirt, which was already more low-cut than it looked on the department store hanger, much to your dismay. It exposed the dark lace bra that was meant to hide your breasts; now theyād been pulled out just enough for your nipples to peek above it, the scratchy lace rubbing the buds of them hard. Your charcoal pencil skirt, once crisp and freshly ironed, was now pushed up past your hips. Your sheer pantyhose were rolled down around your thighs, the elastic binding them tight together, kept your legs from spreading where you stood. It shouldāve been a good thing, shouldāve made you feel like you could keep him out, but it only kept his strong hand wedged between your legs. It made your walls a touch tighter around his digits, just enough to make a difference, to make it feel ever so slightly better.
āMy little secretaryā¦ā Wesker cooed, though the sweet tone was a thin charade. Much more taunting than endearing as he curled his fingers into your cunt. āYou should see yourself. Arenāt you such a little whore?ā
Your breath hitched as he drew them in and out again, suffocatingly slow, only enough to make you dizzy. You never had to wonder if he made you feel that way on purpose; Driving you up a wall, making you come undone like it was easy for him, eating away at your shyness until it turned to desperationā that was the whole point.
It wasnāt a rhetorical question, and it took nothing more than his free hand pushing just under your neck to remind you to obey. It wasnāt forcefulā not yet, at leastā but with what those hands were capable of? It felt like a loaded gun aimed straight at your aorta.Ā
āYes,ā you managed, a meek and quiet sound, followed by a gulp in your dry throat. āIām your whore, sir.āĀ
He hummed and gently tapped your cheek, a pantomime of a slap, just to let you know he chose not to hurt you. It felt chiding and affectionate all at once, and it nearly made your knees buckle.Ā
You shifted your feet in your heels to regain a little balance, and it gave you an ounce of clarity, enough to think of the practicalities. About the job you were still on the clock for, the reason you entered his office in the first place. It came out as trembling as your legs.
āY-you have a meeting, sir. Sheāll be sent in at anā any minute.āĀ
You watched his face for signs of acceptance, but darkness dawned in his eyes. You shouldāve known better, but you were in a double bind. Risk being walked in on in this state, or offend him by suggesting he stop. As his hand flexed and turned more fierce, you knew youād assured both.Ā Ā Ā
āLet her,ā he grit. It was safe to say youād made him mad. āYou think I care who walks in? Iāll send pictures to the whole office just to put you in your place.ā
His posture straightened to tower over you and cover you in his shadow, now too close to ignore any part of him. You succumbed to how intoxicating he truly was to you. The clean, smooth scent of his skin, just a hint of spice underneath the notes of cotton and balm. Every out-of-place strand of his wheat hair you could only see from this up close. The shadows under his cheekbones and in his five oāclock shadow. The creases between his knit brows and the intensity in his topaz eyes.
He fucked you unforgivingly with his hand, and you couldnāt help but hold onto his arms just to keep yourself upright. The flat of his palm slapped firmly against your clit every time they plunged inside. The sounds were sloppy, wet, and crude as they echoed in the room.Ā
But it wasnāt to urge you to orgasm before he could be interrupted; heād never give it to you that easily. No, this was a punishment, the best kind heād ever be capable of.Ā
He added another finger, pressed them in knuckle deep, and pulsed them quickly against your walls. You choked and gasped, you slightly rose a knee to keen into his touch, your eyes bulging at how he was able to keep you right on the cusp of cumming, and for a second, you thought he might let you.
Then, the door clicked shut.Ā
You jolted and held onto him tighter, making yourself small as your eyes widened now in consternation. You were suddenly grateful for the way he towered around you since it gave you somewhere to hide.Ā
His hand had stopped completely at the sound, though he hadnāt yet turned away. He was still as he stared down at you with an unreadable gaze. Then he smirked at you and turned his head to greet whoever had entered.
āAm I interrupting something?āĀ
To your surprise, the woman spoke first. You couldnāt read the tone in her voice either, but from the glimpse you caught from behind Wesker, you could see that her arms were crossed.Ā
She didnāt sound very impressed, but she didnāt seem all that surprised, either. Unimpressed, maybe. More likely, she was intentionally hiding any reaction at all. It was safe to assume as much from who she was. If you hadnāt known Weskerās schedule, youād know her instantly by the red fabric you saw.Ā
It was Ada Wong, who, much to your dismay, had arrived right on time for her pre-mission briefing.Ā Ā Ā
āNothing important,ā Wesker replied, and suddenly curled his fingers against your g-spot just to make you writhe. āI was just wrapping up.āĀ
His tone was so casual, as if this happened all the time; which to be fair, it did, but being walked in on wasnāt routine. He truly had inhuman levels of shamelessness. You, however, felt every ounce of mortification a person in your situation should.Ā
You heard a few clicks of Adaās heels as she smoothly approached. The sound made your gut tighten. As she got closer, you could see her face, and you felt hot and cold all over.
āOh, thatās too bad. I guess Iām late to the show.ā
The first hint of emotion she showed was in her sense of entertainment. Your brows knit in confusion as you peeked back towards your boss, who was as unfazed as ever, except for a glint of devilment.Ā
They continued talking as if you werenāt in the same room, as if being skewered on his fingers was a commonplace sight to see.Ā
āIs this the kind of show you like, Miss Wong?ā
She hummed as she considered the question and took a few steps closer. Her face was fully in view now as she looked you up and down, and you shied away from her as she appraised you.Ā
You know when a chef at a fine dining restaurant presents you with a raw steak before it's cooked to make sure you approve of the cut? You were that piece of meat right now, and you felt the flames of the grill grow high.Ā
āMight be,ā she mused, āitās hard to see with you in the way.ā
She met his gaze with a cocky tilt of her head. A heavy pause held in the air, and then Wesker leaned away. But his fingers didnāt leave you. Instead, you were now totally exposed as he fingered you once more, this time achingly slow.Ā
You dug your fingernails into the wall behind you as your psyche shattered at the situation. You didnāt know where to look. You watched his fingers disappear inside of you and leisurely pull out, and your face burned at the slick that covered them. You looked up at Weskerās face and felt like a deer in the headlights when you met his eyes. You glanced to the side at Ada and found her watching your aching cunt.Ā
There was nowhere you could look that didnāt make you want to run. But underneath it, you knew you never would.Ā
The truth was that you liked it. The mortification in your gut fused into one with the desire that ached behind your navel. Putting on such a pitiful display of lust made you feel beyond desirable. Itās why you never fought Wesker off when he touched you, despite how you shied away each time, and he knew that all too well. And somehow Ada knew that youād open yourself up for her, too.
Though it was probably an easy guess, since you arched needily into his touch even as a stranger watched.Ā
āWhat a sweet little pet she is,ā Ada remarked.
āShe is, isnāt she? She tastes even sweeter.ā
āDoes she now?ā
You shuddered as he fully retracted his fingers and held them in front of him.Ā
āPerhaps youād like to try.ā
āIām not sucking her off your fingers,ā Ada scoffed.
āVery well.āĀ
He was above the act today, too, apparently. He normally had no issue licking them clean of your juices, but that wasnāt what he wanted right now. He took a step towards you and softly pushed them into your mouth.
You moaned softly as you were made to wrap your lips around three thick fingers. Your eyes closed as you made careful work of tonguing in between them to clean off every dropā he trained you to do each task meticulously, and it was instinct to do so now.Ā
In that brief moment of darkness behind your eyelids, you forgot about everything else, only focused on the task he gave you. Then you felt two soft hands fall on either side of your hips, and you opened them to find that Ada was in front of you. Her gaze darted between your mouth and your eyes, and you thought she almost looked kind.Ā
āAre you in the mood to share, Wesker?ā
His fingers retracted to pull down on your lower lip as he chuckled. āGo ahead. She doesnāt seem to mind.ā
He cocked his head at you to rub the observation in. As Ada sank down to her knees, you realized just how right he was. You were trembling with anticipation as her face drew nearer and nearer to your cunt.Ā
You gasped as the pointed end of her tongue prodded between your folds. Standing like you were, each introductory lap grazed easily over your clit, and you twitched every time, hips involuntarily moving towards her face. She held them more firmly in her hands to keep them against the wall as she dove in with more concerted effort, tongue licking up the slick thatād already dripped from your hole. You couldnāt help but whine at how pretty her lips looked as they sucked against your clit.
Meanwhile, Wesker added his fingers back into your mouth, but only two this time. The only purpose of the motion was to remind you whoās in control.
He was flush against you, pressing his growing erection against your side and whispering into your ear, his warm breath drawing a tingle across your skin.
āWhere were we⦠ah, thatās right⦠we were talking about how much of a whore you are. Look at you now, letting a stranger eat you out just because I let her. What a filthy thing you are.āĀ
His fingers pressed against your tongue as he continued on, his senses honed in on the way it made your heart beat violently behind your ribs.Ā
āDo you want more? Want me to replace my fingers with something else? Make you choke on my cock while she eats you out?ā
Your groan was muffled around his fingers, but he accepted the response. āShow her how well I have you trained to take me,ā he whispered into your ear, and then withdrew his fingers as he looked down to Ada. He led her mouth away from you with a hand on her shoulder, and then he spoke to her. āLie down on your back, Miss Wong.ā
Her lips were puffy and wet, and she had a momentary look of confusion on her face before she acquiesced. Then his attention was back on you.Ā
āSit on her face.ā
You froze in shock as the gears turned. Youād never done such a thing before, and never thought that youād do so in a situation like this. A subtle snarl appeared on his lips and then he pinched one of your nipples sharply, a warning to listen.Ā
You were feeble as you stepped over her and awkward as you lowered down. She grabbed the top of your thighs to guide you towards her, and you grabbed onto Weskerās thighs as she dove in with no further pretense.Ā
Youād never felt so electric in your life. Ada made out with your cunt so expertly that you were already shaking around her. You panted and looked ahead, face level with the sight of your boss undoing his zipper and pulling his cock free, his whole length springing forward and tip bouncing against your chin. With one hand on the back of your head and the other guiding himself by the base, he smeared his precum on your lower lip before pushing himself inside.Ā
Every inch of hardness you took into your mouth doubled your pleasure. You couldnāt think straight, could hardly even breathe around his girth, and you couldnāt sit still for the life of you. Every twitch and jolt caused by her tongue breaching your entrance and her nose against your clit made you move just enough to unintentionally ride her face.Ā
With a stiff grunt, Wesker thrust his hips forward and knocked against the back of your throat. You croaked around it, but you didnāt gag; as big as he was, you were used to much more than his current steady pace. You steeled your focus as his hand gripped harder into your hair and he moved faster, flattening your tongue as a barrier from your teeth, holding tightly onto his slacks to ward away the urge to cough. The concentration it took helped you bear the violent pleasure you felt below.
But the mental aspect, the fact that you were actually in this position, completely at their mercy as you perched upon your kneesā that made you delirious. Youād slipped so easily into a state of mind where you were comforted by the fact that they held you at their mercy for no reason other than that they enjoyed it.
You squeezed your eyes tight as tears began to prick them from the quickening force against your throat. Your jaw was smarting from holding it wide open and your hips were soring from how tense they held you over Adaās face, too unsure of yourself to fully sit down despite her constantly pulling you in.Ā
You were becoming a mess already. Saliva dripped down your chin from where it escaped around the clean and salty skin of his cock, and mascara was undoubtedly smudging from your wet lashes. You moaned around him as Ada flicked her tongue quickly against your clit, and your hips curled forward to meet the feeling. Your cunt fluttered around nothing as your orgasm neared and neared, and your mouth was too full to warn them.Ā
But Wesker knew you well enough to see the signs. He pulled his cock out abruptly and pulled you up by the hair, just enough to make you whine as you had to rise off of her face. You were panting open-mouthed as you ached with denied release, a thick string of saliva still connecting your mouth to his cock.Ā
āStand up,ā he commanded, and you followed the further force on your hair that pulled you to your feet. He led you by it until you were bent over his desk. You planted your palms on it and used the time you had to catch your breath. You knew you wouldnāt spend long untouched, so it was an opportunity you had to seize.Ā
You felt more exposed than ever as you bent there, skirt still above your hips, cunt winking in the cold air. You were surprised at how quiet they were as Wesker left your side, and you wondered if he was helping her off the ground. More likely, they were plotting their next moves with nothing more than knowing looks.
Your guesses were interrupted by Ada slinking in front on you to sit on the edge of the desk. She hardly looked affected at all. It made you notice every breathtaking detail of her appearance. Her short and sleek black hair was still neatly tucked behind her ears, her pink lips only had a faint sheen of your slick that glimmered like fine gloss. The curves of her body were accentuated by the red weave of her dress that hugged her like a second skin, and although sheād been buried between your legs moments earlier, you were jealous of the fabric for being flush against her skin. Her makeup was still intact, where you were sure your own was far from it.Ā
If that wasnāt enough to make you crumble, the way she sat within your reach made your blood rise to your cheeks. Her weight leaned on one hip, a boot-clad leg crossed over her knee, and resting back on her arms, she looked down on you with a sultry amusement. Like she was curious about you in a way that made you want to exceed her expectations, which you very much did, for whatever she had in store for you.Ā
Weskerās gravelly voice shocked you out of your doe-eyed stare at the woman above.
āReturn the favor,ā is all he said.
Ada chuckled at his bluntness, and you looked back up to her.
āHe seemed to enjoy your mouth quite a lot. Why donāt you show me what it can do? If itās not too tired alreadyā¦ā
She unparted her legs and spread them in front of you, now fully sat on the top of his desk, important paperwork be damned. It was insane to you how she gave no care at all for the very setting you had to treat with complete reverence. But you thought about that less as she ran a hand down her body, tracing every curve and valley of her breasts and stomach and hips, until she hooked her fingers around her panties and pulled them to the side.Ā
You whined at the sight and she smiled at your reaction. It was the prettiest thing youād ever seen. Acutely wet between her small pink folds, the skin smooth and soft, a tasteful patch of trimmed hair adorning it at the top.Ā
She keened towards your face as you stared, and now it was inches away. All that was left to do is what you were asked and hope she thought you were good at it.Ā
You leaned forward and licked it once and shuddered at the sweet, tart taste, enough that you had to pause as you wrapped your mind around how good she was. You went back in just as she had, first with the point of your tongue, using it to part between her folds and trace up until you heard a reaction. Her breath hitched and you honed in on the spot until you were certain you were where she needed to be, circling and flicking your tongue around the small bundle of nerves of her clit.Ā
When she sighed and pushed herself into you more, you went back in with more avidity, lapping at her cunt with open-mouthed kisses and licks and sucking out the wetness that collected. She hummed and tilted her head back as you continued and the sign of approval went straight to your own center.
You felt every piece as sensitive as you were from two denied orgasms in a row. It made your toes curl in your heels and made you fervent to get her off. Partially for the honor of tasting her cum, and for the hope of doing well enough to earn your own orgasm.
Just as you were finding your rhythm, something disturbed it: the thick head of a cock suddenly pressing into your cunt. The surprise made you gasp and your tongue lose its rhythm as Wesker slowly pushed the tip inside. You straightened your legs to arch back into it, but he didnāt give you any more.Ā
āDo you want it?āĀ
You nodded sharply and hummed, your tongue running up and down Adaās pussy as you did. As if youād say anything but yes.Ā
He pulled the tip out just enough to run it up and down the hot wet center of your folds.Ā
āHas she earned it, Ada?ā
You focused back on her, running the flat of your tongue eagerly around her clit in the way she seemed to like in an effort to earn her approval.Ā
āSheās getting there,ā she breathed, toying with your desperation as she swiveled her hips around your face. āShe just needs some motivation.ā
She was so different from Wesker, and yet she was just as skilled at toying with your needs and dangling them in front of you on a string. You didnāt know if her words would be enough to make him give you what you were close to begging for without even being asked to. But evidently, heād been convinced.
You groaned as he pushed in, slowly, then all at once. The friction of it sent your eyes rolling back and your knees shaking, but he held you firmly by the hips as he buried himself to the hilt. The way he did it so easily, so soundlessly, as if he wasnāt affected at allā it made you look and feel that much more discomposed in comparison.Ā
You grasped onto Adaās parted thighs as what lay in between them muffled the groan that reverberated in your throat as he drew back and in again. You struggled to keep your mouth latched onto her in the way you wanted to. Instead, it opened to pant and whine, face hovering over her cunt and grazing it again when each new thrust pushed you forward.Ā
She laughed airily at the sight and pulled you in by the back of your head. You moaned as she held you there to continue licking her, much sloppier now as Wesker quickened his pace and taunted you from behind.Ā
āIs this what you wanted? Wanted me to fuck your face into her cunt?āĀ
She let you detach just long enough to say, āyes, yes, oh please,ā before she held you flush to her again. She then leaned back further on the desk, propped up only by an elbow as she started grinding into your tongue.Ā
You shuddered as Wesker continued in his brutal steadiness. You could feel your release building with every rut of his long, thick cock against your tight walls, and you ached for him to go faster, to give you just a little bit more so that youād tumble over the edge, for him to grant you the peak of pleasure. Surely he could feel how much you wanted it from the way you pulsed around him, how you tried to rut back to meet him, how your moans shattered in your mouth. But he never gave it to you so freely; no, it had to be deserved.
Today, he wanted you to deserve it, or maybe he wanted to reach his own end. With a stiff grunt, he leaned over you, thrusting even deeper, and his hand pushed down on the top of your spine.Ā
āBe good and make her cum.ā
It was all you needed for your own pleasure to fuel the hungry way you ate her with a touch more intention. You clamored to readjust to add your fingers into herā the other still tightly gripping the meat of her thighā and brashly worked them in while your mouth honed in on her clit. She gasped as you curled them just so and kept pressing them against that spot until her legs began to tremble on either side of your face and her heavy breathing turned into whines that were higher in pitch each time.Ā
Nothing had ever motivated you like the knowledge that you were making her close. You flicked your tongue quickly over her clit, and then you sucked sharply on it again, and you could feel her walls clench around your fingers. As Wesker quickened into a smacking speed behind you, you fought against it becoming a distraction and pumped your fingers even quicker.Ā
Working for her pleasure while your boss used you for his own. Ada grinding into your mouth with her face drawn tight in bliss. Your holeās sweet stretch around Wesker's girth. Your breasts grazing against the cool mahogany surface of the desk with every thrust. Strong masculine hands on your ass and the back of your neck, soft feminine ones caressing your dizzy head.Ā
It all came crashing down at once.Ā
Ada was the first to go. You felt her seize before something snapped and she cried out as she came. You hardly slowed your mouth, but it became set on drinking every drop of slick that escaped her. The taste alone delivered your own.
Like being struck by lightning, you jolted as you finally felt the tension release. It was violent, like every orgasm youād been denied arrived now all at once, hitting you so hard you couldāve crashed into the floor if not for the table and Weskerās hold.Ā
Ever a man of self-control, he was the last to go. You could feel yourself tighten like a vice around his cock, feel your own juices slicking him up as he bullied into you more, swearing through his teeth as he gripped your hips even tighter and gave you everything heād been holding back.Ā
āFuck, good girl, good fucking girl.ā
Just as you were barely able to take any more overstimulation, he delivered one last fierce thrust as deep as he could go, and devolved into shaking grunts and groans, his hips shuddering within you even as he held himself flush and spent his cum all the way inside.Ā
All three of you remained there for minutes, eyes closed and abuzz. Nothing but heavy, uneven breaths left your still-connected bodies.Ā
Your forehead rested against the valley at the top of Adaās thigh, panting hot air into her dripping heat, her fluids dripping down your chin. Her fingers were threaded into your hair as she lay back, head tipped in rest as she came down, tired and aglow. Wesker was still in you to the hilt as his seed spilled out around his softening cock and dripped onto the floor.Ā
A hoarse sound left him as he slowly pulled out, and the drops of cum on the ground suddenly became a milky puddle. You whined at the loss and the feeling of his cum trickling slowly down your thighs, and leaned into Adaās hand as it started softly petting your hair.Ā
With a hum, she moved her underwear back to cover her center and sat up on the edge of the desk. You remained there with your palms flat on the desk as you watched her, admiring her beauty while you waited. The way she brushed back her hair and smoothed out her dress, and then leaned back casually to gaze as you with those warm brown eyes, it was like being seduced all over again.
You heard a belt fasten behind you, and a moment later, Wesker circled his desk to stand in front of where Ada sat. They locked eyes as he took his gloves from his back pocket and slid them on one by one. Your throat tightened as you watched them speak through their eyes alone, uncertain as to whatād happen next as you remained waiting, still disheveled and totally exposed, while they looked like nothing had happened at all.Ā
āClean yourself up,ā Wesker said. He didnāt so much as look at you, but you swore the corner of his mouth ticked up into a smile.Ā
You stood and made quick work of it, pulling your pantyhose back up your shaky knees, inhaling sharply as they sealed in his cum against your core. Careful not to step in the milky pool between your heels, you pulled down your skirt and worked at the buttons on your shirt as you walked off to fetch cleaning supplies. They went about their scheduled meeting as you wiped it off the floor, and when all the evidence was wiped away, you left his office quietly.Ā
Half an hour later, you knew their meeting would be done, and it was time to get on with the work day. On the walk back to his office, something in your chest felt tight as you realized she was already gone.
You approached where he sat at his desk and spoke to the back of his head.Ā
āShould I schedule a post-mission meeting with Miss Wong, sir?āĀ
He stilled for a moment. The dead air in the room grew tense as you waited for his response. You bit the inside of your cheek and hoped that heād agree.Ā
You both knew itād be unnecessary. But something in you swelled with excitement when he simply said:
ĖāāŗĖ³ . ā¹ you're in vancouver filming the new james bond movie when you secretly ditch the media ban to watch shane hollander and the metros play the vancouver canucks. when you're caught by the press, you need to come up with an excuse for your presence ā one that shane is able to provide.
ĖāāŗĖ³ . ā¹ male!reader, shane x reader. reader is an actor!
ĖāāŗĖ³ . ā¹ part one!
āAnd we actually have a famous face in the stadium tonight, Isaacā¦ā The announcer calls over the speaker, interrupting the sweeping shots of the audience that had been playing on the main stadium screens during the intermission. You wince, pulling your baseball cap further down over your face and slouching down in your seat. Surely notā¦Ā
Ah, fuck.Ā
A quick glance up at the jumbotron reveals an awkward angle of your side-profile, and you groan inwardly before straightening and pushing up your cap, shooting the camera what your agent, Laurie, affectionately calls your āfuck boyā grin.Ā
Immediately, a chorus of cheers swells in the stands.Ā
āJames Bond is in the house! Unlike our boys on the ice, no matter how hard they try, Y/n L/n is the only one here tonight with a license to kill.ā
You try not to let your grin slip at the bad joke. A headache is quickly forming at the corners of your vision, and people around you are already swiveling in their chairs to gaze at you, slack-jawed. You mime a fist bump at a kid who climbed fully around in their seat three rows ahead.
Mercifully, the camera cuts away after a few more beats, and you allow yourself to relax back into your seat. You wince, already imagining the conspiracy theories that were no doubt about to hit Reddit in a couple of minutes.
You were in Vancouver to film the next Bond movie; the snowy streets would dupe as Moscow, for about a million less in filming, transport, and crew fees ā but the sequence of events was largely supposed to remain secret from the seriesā rabid fan base. But this was Hollanderās last game of the season outside of Montreal, and youād begged to catch it⦠Jesus. Sam was never going to let you live this down. You shoot a sheepish text to him.Ā
got caught at that hockey game i went to. maybe they wonāt draw any conclusions
Sam texted back immediately.Ā
I am going to lock you in your trailer until I have finished directing this movie.Ā
i am the main guy
Irrelevant
yeah actually i think rose could do this without me sheās so badass
By the time the game wraps up, the Metros pulling ahead with two absolutely beautiful goals from Hollander, your headache has manifested in full force.Ā
Youāre able to get out of your seat and halfway out of the stadium with minimal interaction before you run into the press.
Itās a crowd of sports reporters swarming a player, attention entirely focused on the athlete. You flip the hood of your Metros hoodie up, covering your face in shadow, and edge past the crowd.
The athlete mutters something, and you reflexively flick your eyes up ā only to lock gazes with Hollander, of all people, whose freckles and sweat-damp hair are thrown into harsh contrast by the lights of the cameras. A grin tugs at the corner of your mouth and you nod at him once. His sentence trails off.
A reporter whirls around and shouts in surprise. You canāt bring yourself to be upset about being caught; most of your focus is snagged on the pretty smattering of freckles across Hollanderās nose.
āY/n!ā She calls, and the crowd instantly whips toward you. Youāre guided by insistent hands to Hollanderās side, whoās shifting nervously on his feet. You turn to him and offer your hand, which he clasps in a warm, calloused grip. The flash of bulbs immediately consumes the space.
āNice to meet you, dude.ā You whisper, using your joined hands to tug him forward until you can lean down to speak directly into his ear. āYou played really well.ā
āUh, I ā thank you.ā Hollander stutters back. God, heās fucking adorable. An idea hits, suddenly.
āPlay along?ā You murmur, prepared to take the hit if he shook his head. Hollander only quirks an eyebrow and nods, though, so you withdraw and wink at him playfully.Ā
āY/n! What are you doing in Vancouver? Does this have anything to do with the next James Bond movie?ā
āTricky. Iāve been sworn to secrecy by my media director, so I canāt speak directly on that, but Iām actually here to see my buddy Shane play.ā
A blush has risen high on Hollanderās cheeks. When the microphones pivot back to him, though, his voice is steady. āUh, yeah. I invited him out to catch a game.ā
The hubbub intensifies, and you sling an arm around Hollanderās shoulders. He melts almost unconsciously against your side, then seems to remember where he is, and straightens suddenly. You squeeze his shoulder, then guide him through the crowd of reporters.Ā
āI think weāre gonna call it here, guys. Have a good night!ā
//
The Canadian air is a jarring difference to the stifled heat of the press corridor. You shiver, even decked out in both a hoodie and a leather jacket, and Hollander laughs.Ā
āI thought you were from Boston.ā
You laugh. āAnd Iām freezing there too.āĀ
You fall into a comfortable silence navigating through the parking lot; youād both parked on the far end, it appeared, and your focus is mostly pulled to the icy ground to ensure you donāt faceplant in front of the hockey player glued to your left side.
You cut a glance at him. His nose is scrunched against the cold air, hair swept back. āThanks for the save. Sorry if I put you in a tough spot.ā
āI wouldāve done it anyway,ā Shane says, then shrugs, like the admission surprises him too. āItās kind⦠kind of exhausting sometimes, isnāt it?ā
You blow out a breath. āIt is, yeah. Iām so grateful for all of my fans, and all of these opportunities⦠but I think I would like to just go to a hockey game and maybe get piss-drunk and make a fool of myself without it being the front page of People.ā
Hollander laughs. āThatās not as much of a thing here as it is in America.ā
You grin. āYeah, probably for the best. I think Bostonās fucked with my perception of whatās socially acceptable.ā
Thereās a beat of silence. Hollander glances up at you, opens his mouth, then closes it. When he speaks, he does so quickly: āIām, uh, a pretty big fan. I was really excited when I saw that you were doing a new Bond movie with Rose Landry.ā
You grin. āReally? Iām a huge fan of you, dude. I think I drove like forty-five minutes to catch this game. Youāre spectacular; my Dad is, like, obsessed with you.ā
Hollander blushes.Ā
āJust your Dad?ā He asks.Ā
āDonāt want to scare you off too early, Hollander.ā
āYou can call me Shane.ā
You slow down in front of your car. āThen call me Y/n. This is me. Thanks again, dude. Hey ā here.ā You fumble for your phone. āGive me your number? You should come to the premier when it happens.ā
He ducks his head to grope around in his hockey bag for his phone. You donāt want the moment to end, so when he leans forward to hand you the device, you blurt: āActually, if youāre a fan of the movie, you want me to introduce you to Rose? I was about to go and meet her for dinner. My treat.ā
You watch, fascinated, as red rises in Shaneās cheeks. āUh, yeah. Iād love to.ā
āCan I give you a lift?ā
He nods and leaves to drop his bag off in his car, and you pull out your phone and shoot a text to Rose.Ā
can i bring shane hollander to dinner? please say yes because i may have already invited him
SHANE HOLLANDER?? the hockey player? how did you manage this
he helped bail me out of a press thing
LMAO you were caught at the game? did sam threaten to kill you? yup he can come to dinner
thank you youāre amazing i adore you
//
Itās sort of surreal to glance over and see Shane sprawled across your passenger seat. Heās a big guy, and his knees are slightly cramped up where they donāt fit entirely under the dash.Ā
You start the car, listen to the gentle hum of the engine. āOh, sorry, man. The seatās way forward; thatās usually Roseās spot. You can tug it back⦠itās kind of hard to find. Is it okay if I reach over?ā
You reach across his lap, mostly because the lever really is difficult to find, and slightly because you want to see him blush again, and pull it. The seat slides smoothly back. You watch Shane rearrange himself, and nod, satisfied, then latch his seat belt into place.Ā
The road is surprisingly deserted, but icy. You used to just catch the bus when it got this cold in Boston. And then, of course, you got the lead in Running Man, and then Spiderman, and then you were the next James Bond, and suddenly had Uber money.Ā Ā
Youāre yanked from your focus when Shane asks, voice almost faux casual, āSo, are you and Rose dating?ā
āCurious, are we?ā You respond, even though his interest paints a grin across your face. Fuck boy grin, indeed.Ā
āOh, you know me. Canāt get enough of the celebrity dating rumors.ā Shane deadpans back, and you laugh. He seems to be relaxing the longer he spends in your presence. Youāre suddenly determined to preserve the wry smile on his face, the look in his eye ā heās gorgeous.Ā
āOh? You get any of those?ā
āMm. Not really. I donāt usually have time for anything other than hockey.ā
āAnd juice commercials in see-through shirts, huh?ā
Shane blushes. āYouāve seen those? Thatās ā my mom sets those up.ā
āAnd sheās doing a service to the people, sweetheart.ā You quip back. The endearment slips out almost unconsciously; you only realize what youāve said when Shane chokes slightly.Ā
āFuck, sorry, I āā
āI donāt mind,ā he says. His hands are folded in his lap when you glance quickly over, focus still pulled by the road, and his cheeks are painted a pretty pink.Ā
Youāre pretty sure that you can physically feel your heart skip a beat. Jesus, you need to get a grip.Ā
āYeah?ā You ask.Ā
āYeah,ā he responds.Ā
//
You guide Shane through the rear entrance with a hand resting lightly on his lower back. He presses back into you, warmth radiating through his clothes, steady and grounding. His head darts around every so often to ensure no oneās watching, but the back alley is empty.Ā
You pull open the door from him with a flourish. āAfter you.ā
He grins. āChivalry isnāt dead, huh?ā
āJust go in,ā You laugh.
When you step past the threshold, light floods your vision. The small building is well lit and heated. A low thrum of chatter fills the air, and you can smell the heady aroma of garlic and tomatoes. You let your hand drop from Shaneās back when he shifts slightly forward.
Rose waves you over eagerly from where sheās tucked into a booth. You pull her into a hug before ushering Shane onto the opposite bench and dropping down next to him. She arches an amused eyebrow at you.
āShane Hollander, right? God, Y/n never shuts up about you. I think he knows your stats better than his lines.ā
You huff in protest. āChrist, woman! The monologue is in Russian!ā
You both hesitate slightly, then glance at Shane. Rose sighs. āPlease donāt mind that. Heās incapable of not spoiling something.ā
Shane just smiles and browses the menu. āHear what?ā
//
The rest of dinner is comfortable. Shane orders a side salad that he picks at enough that you slide half of your salmon fillet onto his plate, urging him to eat. Rose, inevitably, does not like her pasta dish, so you swap meals with her and Shane eats the tomatoes you pick out of the noodles.
You barely notice the time passing, and itās only Shaneās slightly drooping eyelids that make you realize itās been almost two hours since you last sat down. You pay for the check quickly, ignoring Shaneās attempts to grab the bill, then wave Rose goodbye and bundle a sleepy Shane in your leather jacket. He pulls the edges around himself and you lead him gently through the rows of booths and back to the car.Ā
āYou okay?ā You ask.Ā
He yawns. āMhm. Just exhausted.ā
He nods off in the passenger seat while you go to pay the valet fee, so you reach over and shake his shoulder gently when you climb back into the car.Ā
āShane? Sweetheart? Where should I drop you off?ā
He grumbles slightly, shifting, and catches your hand, pressing it to his chest. āJust take me home. I donāt want to go back to the hotel.ā
āI think weāll have to, man. Montrealās a five hour plane ride away.ā
āMm. Your place is fine, then. Canāt listen to Hayden snore or Iām gonna get arrested.ā He grouses, then shifts and firmly shuts his eyes, which you take as your cue to drive.
The security at the temporary filming apartment is good, and itās late enough that youāre not worried about cameras, so you maneuver a sleepily out-of-it Shane onto your back and hoist your hands under his thighs, carrying him up. You struggle a little bit more than your trainer would probably like with his hockey-bulk.Ā
For the first time, you let yourself really realize that heās a man ā it seems like a stupid conclusion to draw, but youāve only let yourself sleep with or date women for the past three years. Youād been too much in the media eye, your career still too young; but looking at Shaneās freckles seem to make all of these reasons seem arbitrary.
God, you didnāt even know if he liked guys.
When you reach your door, you set him down gently, and he sways on his feet while you unlock your apartment door and lead him inside. You crouch down to pull off his shoes, and his hands immediately wrap in your hair, fingers carding through the short length.Ā
āYou can take the master, if youād like? Iāll sleep on the couch.ā
Shane mumbles in agreement, and you reach up to gently squeeze his wrist to release his grip before dragging him down the hallway. He collapses on your bed immediately, face-down, and you roll him until you can manage to tuck him under the covers.Ā
āSleep well, sweetheart.ā
You close the door and make an aborted motion towards your bathroom to brush your teeth before entirely abandoning the endeavor and letting yourself tumble down onto the cheap, pre-furnished couch. Rose had insisted on leaving an obscenely expensive throw-blanket tucked over the cushions, and you drag it down over yourself and drift to sleep, mind spinning.Ā
jj maybank x fem!reader x kiara carrera | word count: 2.1k
a/n: so apparently I can only write good smut when I'm high af lol, here you go, enjoy! (haven't labelled everything in the content warning cause honestly idek what i put in here)
cw: 18+ content, porn with no plot, threesome (again, Kie and JJ fuck in this, its labelled for what it is) sub!jj (begging, overstimulation, he tells reader to stop and she doesn't), Kie and reader are mean to jj lol but he loves it
It had been weeks since you hooked up with JJ and Kie. There was an awkward sort of tension that none of you knew how to name ā each of you thinking the others regretted it, didnāt want to revisit it, all silently, secretly, wanting.Ā
You hadnāt stopped thinking about it. Late at night. Itād play over and over in your mind as your hand slipped beneath your sleep shorts. Flashes of the night would play through your mind at the most inconvenient times. Sitting at a family dinner, hell, even at work, standing at the register, right in the middle of a conversation. JJ fucking you into oblivion, Kieās mouth on you, your face buried in her pussy. Fuck. Youād get soaked just thinking about it.Ā
The others were no better; JJ getting hard the second youād touch him, fisting his dick later that night to the thought of being buried deep in your pussy while Kie rode his face. Kie would do the same; fingers sliding into herself as she remembered the way your skin felt against hers, the way you tasted, the way you came so pretty on her face. JJ fucking her so hard she saw stars.
Every time they met your eyes, youād feel a rush of heat, JJ smirking when heād remember the way you screamed his name ā faltering slightly when youād look away. Kie was more touchy than usual since then ā a hand on your knee, her head resting on your chest, drawing small circles into your thigh. The casual touches had you burning, heart thrumming hard in your chest.Ā
You wanted to talk about it, wanted to ask if they were thinking about it as much as you. Wanted to know if they were feeling the way you were ā wanting nothing more than to kiss them again, fuck them. If only you knew.Ā
It happened at a party of all things ā Kie grabbing your hand and pulling you into a room after doing a couple shots, the alcohol running through her fueling her actions. She had pushed you up against the door, smirking against your lips as you flipped the two of you, kissing down her neck. She pulls out her phone discreetly, texting JJ.Ā
Third door on the left upstairs.Ā
Youāve got Kie on the bed now, in nothing but her bra, pussy dragging across yours. Youāre so wet, it drips down onto Kie, her gasping at the sensation. Sheās grasping for something to hold, fingers fisting in your hair as she rolls her hips up against yours.Ā
You hear the door click open behind you. Shit, youād forgotten to lock it. You scramble to get off Kie, looking behind you as you pull your skirt down.Ā
āRelax princess, sājust me. Was hoping I could join.ā JJ locks the door behind him. His eyes are dark, smirk dripping in pure sin.Ā
You barely acknowledge him, giving a small nod as you pull your skirt off, unclipping Kieās bra in the process and watching it fall off. Youāre both completely bare now, JJ letting out a groan as he lies back on the bed next to Kie, sipping his beer as he takes in the view. You roll your hips against Kieās once again ā her letting out an obscene moan at the sensation.Ā
You lean down to kiss Kie, lips parting against hers to kiss her deeper. She tastes like beer and strawberry bubblegum. The smell of her shampoo is intoxicating as your fingers curl into her hair. You pull back so youāre sitting on your knees, hooking one of your legs over hers, the angle allowing you to grind down onto her deeper.Ā
JJās just lying there, eyes fixed on the spot where you and Kie meet, the sight and the wet sounds making his dick throb in his pants. He pulls his pants and boxers down to his thighs, gripping his dick in his hand, tugging at it as he watches yours and Kieās faces contort in pleasure. The way Kieās pussy is dragging across your clit has you so close to coming.Ā
āMm, fuckkk ā Kie, feels so fucking good,ā you moan, eyes drifting over to JJ, biting your lip at how good he looks with his shorts halfway down his thighs, hand stroking his cock. He has his shirt off now ā abs flexing as his hand continues moving up and down, thumb brushing over the tip as his eyes flutter closed.Ā
āEyes open.ā Youāre staring at JJ, eyes hard ā focused.
His eyes open slowly, watching you as you gesture him closer, your hips still rolling against Kieās as her head tips back in pure pleasure, hands grasping at your tits.Ā
JJ shuffles himself closer, pulling off his shorts and boxers in the process. You cup his chin in your hand, pulling his mouth to you, aggressive. JJ practically whimpers against your lips, parting his to let you kiss him deeper ā his mind going completely blank.Ā
JJās still chasing your lips as you pull back suddenly, gripping his chin harder, pulling his view to the spot where you and Kie connect.Ā
āNow watch, but donāt touch.āĀ
JJ swallows hard. He canāt help but listen, eyes focused on your pussy dragging against Kieās ā completely mesmerized. His hand is still moving up and down when you catch his wrist, pulling it away from his dick. His eyes meet yours quickly, questioning. You smirk, pushing his chin down again, with a quick swipe of your thumb against his lips, pushing the tip in slightly before pulling it away, watching as JJās lips part ā wet.Ā
āI said no touching Jay.āĀ
Kieās hands grip your hips desperately, pushing you deeper, chasing her orgasm with a high moan. You feel yourself get close, lips messily meeting Kieās as you feel her come against you. Sheās whimpering desperately into your mouth as you kiss her. Your orgasm hits you slow ā washes over you in waves as your tongue moves across Kiaraās.Ā
You push two fingers into her, smirking as she pulls back from the kiss with a loud gasp. Sheās pushing your hand away, overstimulated. You laugh, pulling your fingers out of her and moving over to straddle JJās lap, swinging your hip over his. You feel his hard dick brush against you and you bite your lip, holding back a moan.Ā
JJās looking up at you ā reverent, determined. You push your fingers against his lips, letting him wrap his lips around them and taste the mix of you and Kie. He sucks them into his mouth, moaning at the taste. You push them in and out, JJ swirling his tongue around them ā his eyes never leaving yours.Ā
Kieās trembling next to you, eyes fluttering as she comes down from her orgasm. You pull your fingers from JJās mouth, before moving your hand down to his cock, pumping it slowly as his head falls pathetically to your shoulder, letting out a soft sound. You gesture to Kie to move behind JJ. She presses herself up against his back, wrapping her arms around him, tracing soft lines down his abs as her lips suck and bite at his neck.Ā
JJās gone ā utterly and completely gone. He gets lost in the feel of Kieās lips kissing up and down his neck, one hand tugging on his strands of hair, the other tracing infuriatingly soft lines down his stomach. Her chest brushes against his back. JJ feels an odd sensation of being so relaxed and so aroused all at once. Your hand moves up and down his cock, tugging at it gently as your lips meet his in a soft kiss.Ā
JJ didnāt realize how much he needed this ā to be completely taken care of, pampered almost. Fuck, JJ feels like he could cry as he reaches his orgasm. Your hand moves faster, using your thumb to trace under the tip. You rest your forehead against his, Kieās face buried in his neck, placing soft kisses to the skin there.Ā
āFuck baby ā Iām gonnaā pleaseāā JJ lets out between moans. You grip him firmer, pulling him into a heated kiss, itās messy and sloppy and so fucking good. JJ comes hard, spilling over your hand and Kieās resting on his stomach. He groans into your mouth, biting down on your lip. You stroke him through it, before pushing him down onto the bed, Kie moving out from behind him. Her lips meet his, his hand cupping her jaw, Kie humming into his mouth as his tongue softly traces hers.Ā
Your hand is still stroking him, using his cum to move your hand faster. JJās gasping, overstimulated out of his mind. You bring your mouth to his dick, kissing the tip before taking him into your mouth. Your eyes flutter closed at the taste of him, the feel of him ā heavy and hot on your tongue. You look up at him and the sight alone could have you coming ā heās flushed, face red, contorted in mind-numbing pleasure, jaw tense, abs flexing. His lips part around a gasp when your tongue presses flat against the underside of him. His hands push weakly at your head, letting out a soft whimper as Kie kisses him again.Ā
āFuck, baby please, sātoo much, stopāI canātāā His voice cuts off with a loud moan as you hollow your cheeks, sucking him harder, his cum dripping out around your lips. You keep going, head moving up and down as you feel him get harder in your mouth. Kiaraās kissing down his neck and JJās never felt so good. Itās too good ā too much.Ā
āPleaseāsātooāfuck baby please stop.ā JJās head tips back, hands gripping your hair. You swat his hands away, sucking harder for just a second before pulling away. JJ lets out a gasp at the loss ā only half relieved.Ā
You turn to Kie, pulling her towards you before going down on her. You eat her out like youāre starvedā nose nudging against her clit, tongue moving up and down before pushing it inside her, over and over. JJās watching, hands caressing your back, pushing your hair out of your face as you tongue-fuck Kieās pussy. Kie comes hard and fast against your face, moaning uncontrollably as her body writhes under yours.Ā
You look over at JJ, lying back with his arm behind his head, completely breathless, eyes filled with need. You straddle his hips again, letting his tip brush against your wet pussy. You slide his tip back and forth, coating it in your wetness. Your moans mix with JJās as his tip brushes your clit.Ā
āPlease baby, fuck me, I need you.ā JJās eyes plead with you, pushing his hips up slightly, letting his tip sink into you before you push his hips down.Ā
āMm-mm, you said it was too much, now you need me?ā You smirk as his eyes flutter closed at the feel of your slick dripping down around his dick. Fuck, he needs more.Ā
āYes, need you baby please, need to be inside you.ā He tries pushing up into you as you lift your hips away from him. You need him just as much ā pussy practically throbbing, clenching around nothing ā but you donāt want to give in just yet.Ā
āToo much talking. Kie, you wanna come shut him up?āĀ
JJās eyes widen at your words, groaning as Kie laughs, swinging her leg over his head, straddling his face, pushing her pussy down onto his mouth, facing you, meeting your lips in a messy kiss.Ā
You finally sink down onto JJās cock after teasing him until he was twitching, hips desperately thrusting off the bed, whining into Kieās dripping cunt. Your eyes roll back at the delicious stretch, feeling his tip nudge that spot inside you that has you reeling. You fuck yourself on his dick, circling your hips just right, grinding down hard.Ā
You donāt know how long it goes on, party probably over and done by now ā JJ lying there while you and Kie take turns riding him, using his dick to get yourselves off. And then his mouth. And then his dick again. JJ takes it. Oh he fucking takes it, groaning into your pussy as he feels Kie clench around him, milking him as he comes deep inside her.Ā
The three of you lie there, a mess of limbs and sweat, completely fucked out. You hear someone banging on the door, telling you to get the fuck out. You can barely care when youāre this blissed out, watching your best friends kiss slow and soft before leaning in to kiss them yourself.Ā
Yeah, you were definitely doing this again.
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Summary: Telling Jack about Dana's divorce from her husband reminds him to tell you that he and Dana were once married. You don't think much of it until the shitty Fourth of July shift, which gives you the idea to cheer up your favorite charge nurse in an unorthodox way.
Pairing: Jack Abbot x Attending!Reader x Dana Evans
Content warnings: set after s2 finale, I made Abbot a day shift diva, established reader & Jack, Dana Evans and Jack Abbot are a divorced couple in my heart, timeline may not make sense but I tried (see end author's note), older man & older woman/younger woman (Jack & Dana are 50 & reader is 33), angst, smut, threesome (F/M/F), Dominant!Dana, Switch!Abbot (only b/c it's Dana), Submissive!Reader, oral sex (F/F), hair-pulling, little bit of dirty talk, Jack "Talks You Through It" Abbot, unprotected sex (reader is on birth control & Dana either is too or she's post-menopausal (lucky))
Word count: 5,838
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Author's note: this turned angsty-ier than I meant for it to be, but I kind of love it? also describing the reader's relationship with bisexuality is a self insert moment, to be honest. "write what you know" and all that. let me overshare for a second: kissed a girl at a frat party, then I kissed a frat guy, then I got them to do a threeway kiss with me. two lips on mine simultaneously. it's the same thing to me. anyways. I hope everyone enjoys and gets more bisexual after reading!!!
When Dana came back after her break, she told you she filed for divorce from her husband.Ā
āBenjiās justā¦too simple,ā she said in the ambulance bay a few months ago.
You didnāt ask for more information. You just stood there quietly, pressing the toe of your shoe on the cigarette butt she stomped out a few minutes ago.
āWell, this gives you more time to explore your sapphic side,ā you had said softly, holding back a smile.
When you looked up, you could tell Dana was trying not to smile, but failing miserably.
āDid Abbot blab?ā she questioned.
You shook your head.Ā
āI see the way you look at all the MILFs that walk through here,ā you said knowingly.
Dana shrugged, a big grin plastered to her face.
āThatās none of your concern, sweetheart,ā she said, but there was no bite to her words.
In bed with Jack that night, you brought up Danaās divorce.
āOh, shit,ā he sighed, leaning back into the pillows. āThat guy is the whole reason we got divorced in the first place.ā
You shot up from your lying down position.
āWho the fuck is we?ā you asked.
Youād only been sleeping with Jack for about six months at that point, and had only made things exclusive about two months prior to this conversation. Given how busy your schedules had always been, there hadnāt been much time for sit-down dinner dates.
Jack sat up and took your hand in his.Ā
āIāll be honest: I kind of forget about it sometimes. And the times I do remember, I think I should give her the heads up that Iām about to tell you,ā he said, holding your gaze the entire time.
āYou and Dana?ā you whispered incredulously.
Jack nodded.
āHow?ā
He shrugged and scratched the back of his neck with his free hand.
āI knew her in college. When I came back after the Army, she was in a bad place, and I was going to med school. Anyway, I saw her at, I donāt know, a grocery store or something. I invited her out for drinks that night, and we got to talking⦠We both needed support, and getting married gave her a better health insurance option, and she helped me get used to life with the amputation, so it was really more friendly than it was romantic.ā
As he explained everything so calmly, you almost forgot to be bewildered by the fact that Jack Abbot and Dana Evans were once married to each other.
āFor how long?ā you asked after a few moments of silence.
āThree years,ā he replied.
Your eyes practically bugged out of your head. āDid you guys have sex?ā
Jack scoffed, actually scoffed, at that. āCome on, of course we did. Although, funnily enough, not that often. Usually, if she was having sex, she was having one-night stands at bars.ā
You furrowed your brow and asked, āDid you have sex with other people?ā
His gaze softened. āNot until the last six months of us being married. The whole leg thing was so new, and I didnāt really know how to go about it with anyone for a while. Dana was actually really patient that whole time; she helped me re-learn a lot.ā
Your heart clenched more than you were prepared for, and the lump in your throat surprised you.
āI didnāt realizeā¦how close the two of you were,ā you murmured softly, leaning your head on his shoulder.
āWell, yāknow, she met Benji, and thatās when we got the divorce, and she got pregnant pretty quickly after they got married, which happened quicker than I thought it would, too." Jackās eyes had flickered to your joined hands for just a moment, something unspoken setting up camp on the tip of his tongue. āBut before her first kid was born is when I met my wife,ā he said softly. He managed to give you a small, tired smile before he added, āSo it all worked out.ā
//
The idea pops into your head on the Fourth. Robby had been a mess the whole day, only adding to Danaās already chronic stress. When you looked up from your chart, you saw it: Jackās hand on her back when he noticed she was holding back tears.
You donāt want to eavesdrop, plus, you already know youāll be staying late to catch up with charting anyway, so you donāt listen; you let them have their space.
As you mindlessly keep charting, your mind replays Jack touching Dana so softly, so gently, so fucking intimately.
After hearing about their past relationship, you thought you might get a little jealous seeing them interact. Instead, youāre surprisingly curious about what their interactions together mean to one another. Youāve witnessed their friendship for the last three years since you transferred to PTMC for your R3 year, but with the new information you have now, you canāt help but wonder: Is there subtext? Did all those touches and words you perceived as friendly mean something more?
Itās been years since Jackās wife passed away; heās been fucking you at least four times a week for the better part of a year, so obviously, heās healed enough.
Danaās in the midst of divorce proceedings with her husband, whom you get the feeling she hasnāt loved for a while. Sheās mentally checked out there.
Are Jack and Dana going to find their way back to each other? Is the only reason they divorced that Danaās daughters with Benji cosmically needed to exist in the world?
It sounds like jealousy as you mull it over in your head, but it doesnāt feel that way.
Theyāre both hot, thatās undeniable. Learning Danaās had her fair share of sapphic experiences only endeared her to you all the more.Ā
Youād always had an inkling you were attracted to both sexes and ended up confirming it in college, ironically, at a frat party, when a girl you met that day kissed you. It felt the same as kissing a boy; whatās in someoneās pants doesnāt matter to you.
Maybe youāre kind and want to help Dana feel better. Maybe youāre horny and selfish and would really love having the hottest man and woman you know both naked with you in bed. Maybe you need to see them together to make it clear that Jackās with you now, and Danaās going to figure out what she needs.
Whatever the actual reason is for wanting to invite Dana into bed with you and Jack tonight doesnāt matter to you. You know you want this, so youāre going to ask for it.
When Dana walks off, you approach Jack at the nurseās station.
āCan I talk to you?ā you ask softly.
āSomething wrong?ā he asks, putting a hand on your back just like he did to Dana not moments ago, guiding you toward a less busy area of the E.D.
āWhat if we invited Dana over tonight?ā
You almost expect Jackās eyes to bug out of his head, but they donāt. He stays calm and speaks softly and clearly.
āWhy are you asking this?ā
With a shrug, you murmur, āShe takes care of everyone. Who takes care of her?ā
He crosses his arms across his chest and leans forward to speak directly in your ear. āThatās it?āĀ
You take a step back and look him right in the eye.Ā
Maybe itās not the only reason, but Jack canāt deny heās curious about where this could go or the fact that heād love nothing more than to help Dana feel better after such a shitty day.
After a few more moments, Jack nods and mumbles his agreement.
When the three of you finally get off, Jack hands you the keys to his truck, then heads over to where Danaās walking toward her car.
āHi,ā he says simply, catching her attention.
Dana looks over her shoulder as she unlocks the car with her key fob.
āHey,ā she replies softly, giving her first husband a kind smile.
āYou doing okay?ā
She shrugs. āI will be. Probably gonna smoke half a pack on my porch and watch the fireworks.ā
āHow do you feel about some company?ā Jack offers, nodding to you sitting in his truck a few yards away.
Dana looks from you to him and smiles.
āI donāt need to be a third wheel, Abbot,ā she says, scoffing, now leaning against the back of her car.
āYou wouldnāt be a third wheel. We wanna take care of you tonight,ā he says, his voice low, taking a few steps closer until the toes of their shoes touch.
Dana holds back a laugh and furrows her brow.
āWhat, your girl got a MILF fantasy, Abbot?ā she scoffs.
Jack just shakes his head. āI⦠Fuck, I meant to tell you. I told her about you and me. Sheās okay with it. She told me about you and Benji, so one thing led to another⦠Iām sorry I didnāt tell you sooner.ā
Dana shakes her head now. āNothing to be sorry about. Youāre in charge of what you talk to your girlfriend about.ā
He wants her to feel welcome in this arrangement tonight, so he says, āSheās bi, too,ā softly, only loud enough for Dana to hear.
She softens her gaze. She always caught your flirty comments toward her, and could tell that while they were always in good fun, they meant something different coming from you.
āI know,ā she whispers.
Jack seems a little surprised, but he nods nonetheless. āUh, anyway, sheād like to show her favorite charge nurse a little appreciation. We couldnāt have gotten through today without you. You took care of everyone all day. Itās time you get the favor returned.ā
Dana sighs and stays silent for a moment. If Jack didnāt know her so well, heād be nervous.
āYour place?ā she finally asks.
Jack nods.
āOkay,ā Dana sighs. āIām gonna shower at my place. Iāll text you when Iām on my way. Should I bring anything? For her?ā
āNo, weāve got everything weāll need. Anything you wanna bring is fine though.ā
She nods, then sighs. āThis is okay with you?ā
When Dana and Jack got married, it was at the courthouse. They both wore t-shirts, and neither of them currently speaks to the former mutual friends they had agreed to be witnesses to their wedding anymore. Jack and Dana both knew that the marriage was more practical than anything else. Still, when Dana told Jack about Benji, that the inevitable day had come, he took it harder than either of them anticipated.
Jack considers her question for a moment, then he nods.
āI have her now,ā he says softly, looking briefly to the side where he can see you sitting in the passenger seat, scrolling on your phone. Then he looks back at Dana. āAnd tonight I got you, too.ā
He means it differently, and Dana knows that, but that doesnāt mean it warms her heart any less.
She takes a step forward, her feet slotted in between and on the side of his, their fronts pressed together. Her hands go to his arms, and she looks at him, really looks.
Hereās the guy who once balanced medical school with learning how to walk through life with one less leg, now an attending whoās never been more sure of himself.Ā
Heās grown up, and she has too.Ā
But never apart.
Jack leans down and kisses her. Then one hand goes to her back and the other to her cheek, her hands go to his jaw and neck, and suddenly theyāre in their late 20s again, kissing because a white-haired judge told Jack to kiss his bride.
Dana pulls back and leans her forehead against Jackās. He kisses her cheek, then starts walking toward his truck.
He looks over his shoulder and watches Danaās car drive off, then he opens the driverās door to his truck, gets in, and immediately leans over the console, taking your jaw in his hands and smashing his lips against yours.
Your phone clatters to the floor, knocking against the plastic of the passenger door, but you donāt care. Jackās lips on yours, which taste like cherry Chapstick, feel too good.
āMm. You kissed her,ā you moan against his lips, your fingers gently pulling at his hair.
Jack pulls back, looking at you through half-lidded eyes.
He doesnāt say anything. He just buckles your seatbelt, then his own, and pulls out of the parking lot.
A mile away from his house, he says, āSheāll text me when sheās on her way.ā
He glances at you, and you nod. The two of you ride in silence the rest of the way.
When he parks in the driveway, he gets out first while you gather your things. He opens the door for you, then again at the front door.
He kisses your temple and offers his shower to you, which you graciously accept.
Right before youāre done, you see his form moving in the bathroom through the fogged-up glass shower door. He sits on the toilet seat with your towel folded on his lap.
When you shut off the water and slide the door open, Jack holds the towel out, rising to his feet and wrapping you up in the towel.
Heās being more affectionate than he usually is. Jackās a little worried that you feel insecure about his first marriage, but he also suspects tonight is the only way to help alleviate that feeling.
With another kiss to your temple, he squeezes your shoulders, then heads to the bedroom where he strips to just his boxers, the prosthesis going with his clothes.
You come out of the bathroom, the bathrobe he bought last month for you to have here draped over your shoulders, the belt loosely tied.
You sit on the edge of the bed next to Jack and lean your head against his shoulder, watching as he massages his residual limb.
āHurt?ā you ask softly.
He shakes his head. āJust a long day.ā
His phone vibrates against the bed.
āSheās fifteen minutes out,ā he murmurs, turning his head to kiss your cheek.
There are a few moments of silence before he asks, āIs it in poor taste to say Iām excited to see you two together?ā
You chuckle softly and shake your head.
āYour first wife and current girlfriend fucking⦠Nah, youāre entitled to be excited, Jack,ā you say, smiling as you turn your gaze toward his.
When you lean forward and kiss him, Jack groans into your mouth, his hands going to your breasts and the back of your head.
Eventually, Jackās on his back, and youāre humping him through his boxers, and you stay like that until his phone buzzes again, a text from Dana saying sheās a block away coming through.
You peck Jackās lips one more time, then leave the bedroom, retying the robe as you head to the front door. When you open it, you find Dana walking up the driveway, hair half-wet, wearing low-rise sweatpants and a thin white tank top, clearly sans bra.
Youād seen Dana outside of her scrubs before. Sheād invited you on outings before. Sometimes with other women from work, sometimes just the two of you.
But youāve never seen her without a bra on, and youāre learning very quickly that youād like to see this version of her more often.
āJackās already taken off his prosthetic,ā you say, trying to explain why youāre opening his door. āHeās in the bedroom, but I can get you something to drink if you want.ā
Danaās gaze doesnāt waver as she walks up to the porch. Sheās not nervous; sheās calm and sure of herself.
She and Jack tried to have a threesome two years into their marriage, but something wasnāt right, and Jack ended up politely offering to call the woman a cab.
That was a stranger in a bar, and this is you, someone Jack loves, someone Dana cares about. If nothing else, sheās grateful for your friendship.
āSome water would be nice for all three of us,ā she says as you open the door for her.
āYeah, youāre probably right,ā you agree, shutting the door behind you.
Dana takes her shoes off, leaving them by the front door, then follows you to the kitchen.
āCan I ask you something?ā she asks as you hold a glass under the refrigeratorās water dispenser.
āOf course.ā
āWhenās the last time you were with a woman?ā
You hand the now full glass to Dana, whoās leaning against the counter.
āA year ago. One night stand. She was probably about ten years older. I donāt normally top,ā you reply, filling a second glass with water.
Dana just nods, surprised, but pleasantly so with your blunt answer.
āGood, ācause I donāt normally bottom.ā
You finish filling up the third glass of water and set both on the counter, then step towards Dana, leaning your hands on the counter, practically caging her in.
Danaās breath hitches, but she doesnāt waver. She looks down at your cleavage, the robe becoming looser around your body with all your movement. Then she looks at your eyes, which donāt meet hers because theyāre stuck on her lips.
You lean forward, and she meets you halfway, her lips pressing against yours and her hands going to your waist.
She smiles against your lips when you take her bottom lip between your teeth, then pulls back, ducking under your arm. She takes her glass of water and makes her way to Jackās bedroom.
You stand there for a moment, lips still tingling. With a shaky breath, you take the other two glasses and pad into the bedroom, finding Dana slipping out of her sweatpants, revealing blue cotton panties.
Jack is still on the bed in just his boxers, watching his first wife. When he hears your footsteps, his gaze falls on you, and his smile is soft, kind, but wanting.
You set both glasses on his nightstand, then crawl up the bed, sitting at the bottom, your eyes on Dana, whoās folding up her pants, leaving them on Jackās dresser.
She stalks toward the bed, clad in just the white tank top and blue panties, then crawls toward you and Jack, putting a hand on the exposed skin of your knee.
āHeard you wanted to take care of your favorite charge nurse,ā she murmurs softly, her other hand going to your hair, gently stroking before taking hold of the side of your face.
āThatās right.ā
The hand on your knee travels up your thigh, her fingers grazing your hip, confirming that youāre bare beneath the robe.
āHow do you plan on doing that?ā she asks, her voice low and raspy.
Jack smiles as he reclines against the pillows. God, her voice. It would make Jack weak in the knees in the early days of their marriage. Watching her use it on you is a fucking treat.
You look down at her hand, now disappeared under your robe, then at her eyes.
āHowever you tell me to,ā you answer confidently.
When you were a resident, Jack noticed you didnāt quite like having to take orders from Robby, other attendings, or even him. Would you follow them? Yes, but he could always tell you liked it just enough less than the other residents for him to take notice.
But in the bedroom, youāre confident in your submission.
āGood girl,ā Dana whispers.
Jackās cock twitches in his boxers, and he lets out a rough sigh, which catches Danaās attention.
Sheās different from you in that she doesnāt take orders at work or in the bedroom.
āYouāre gonna watch at first,ā she tells Jack.
He almost wants to protest, but you and he really want to give Dana exactly what she wants and needs tonight, so instead he nods.
She turns back to you and whispers, āI wanna see you.ā
When you nod, she unties the belt of your robe, then pushes it off your shoulders, baring your nude form to her eyes for the first time.
Dana doesnāt say anything at first as she takes in your appearance, but then she looks at Jack and says, āYouāre one lucky bastard, Abbot.ā
He just smiles, then replies with a simple, āYeah, I know.ā
Dana looks back at you.Ā
āI want you to lie down next to Jack and let me eat this pretty pussy,ā she says, her fingertips dancing in your pubic hair. āYes, maāam?ā
You nod and softly murmur, āYes, maāam.ā
Slowly, you crawl up the bed and lie down next to Jack. You take notice of the tent growing in his boxers, but then your eyes are on Dana again, whoās settling on her stomach, looking at your pussy with hungry eyes.
She starts with a kiss against your already wet slit. Your breath hitches, and she goes for another kiss, this time to your clit.
You moan softly, your brow furrowing as you watch her, and then she starts really licking your pussy.Ā
Unsure if youāre allowed to touch her, given the strict rule she gave Jack of only watching, you bury your hands into the sheets and arch your back off the bed, breathy whines leaving your mouth.
Beside you, Jackās body is stiff, his lips pursed as he fights not to touch you or Dana.
Itās hotter than he thought itād be, watching his first wife eat out his girlfriend. Danaās hands are gripping your thighs, holding you steady as she basically makes out with your cunt. He hopes sheāll let him kiss her when sheās done, so he can taste you on her tongue.
āFuck, Iām gonnaā¦ā
Your whine paired with your clit pulsating against Danaās tongue only causes her to work faster, determined to bring you over the edge.
With a whine and a sharp arch of your back, you climax, your labia pulsating against Danaās tongue while she laps up your cum.
Beside Jack, youāre struggling to regain your composure, and thatās when he makes his move.
āDana.ā Her name is a strangled whisper on his lips.
She looks up, then leans over your body and crashes her lips into his. Her hands go to his shoulder and his hair.Ā
Your cum mixed with the nicotine gum taste on Danaās breath is some sort of heaven for Jack. He places a palm over her back and lets his free hand go to her breast, gently squeezing it through the shirt, pulling a moan from her throat.
She pulls away and puts her attention on you. āYou got any rules for him?ā
You furrow your brow, breath still coming fast, and sit up.
āIs he allowed inside of me?ā Dana clarifies.
She may have been married to him once, but heās yours now. She doesnāt want to take him from you; she likes you too much to do that to you.
You nod your head. āEverythingās on the table. You get to take the lead.ā
She considers your words for a moment, then looks at Jack.
āWhat do you want from us?ā he asks her softly, placing both hands on her hips.
āI want you to fuck her while she eats me out,ā Dana says, her voice low and gravely. āThen, once she comes, I want you to fuck me while she watches. And neither of you comes until I say so.ā
Jack keeps his gaze fixed on Danaās the entire time she speaks, never wavering, not even when you let out a whine in response to her words. He just nods, then leans forward and kisses her, her tongue wet and soft against his.
He places his hands on Danaās body and manages to gently push her off of him so she can lie back against the pillows.
Dana breaks the kiss with a sigh and pulls her panties down her legs, followed by her tank top, now fully naked.
You lie on your side, horizontally in front of Dana, so that Jack can comfortably fuck you. While he sticks a finger inside of you, both to get you ready for him and gather your slick to lubricate his cock, you moan against Danaās inner thighs while you pepper them with gentle kisses, building the anticipation before you bring your tongue to her slit.
Just as Jack notches his tip with your entrance, he whispers in your ear, āGo and show Dana how good that fucking mouth works.ā
He pushes inside of you, and you dive into Danaās cunt, moaning softly against her, causing her whole body to tingle.
āOh, Jesus Christ, sweetheart,ā she moans softly, reaching down to keep a hand at the back of your head, just to hold, not to push.
āShe doing a good job over there?ā Jack asks Dana, his voice soft and husky as he restrains himself from just ramming into you.
Dana lets out a breathy scoff and nods her head. āYeah, Iād say sheās making you proud with how good sheās using this fucking tongue of hers.ā
Jack smiles and brings a hand up to your breast to squeeze the flesh and tweak your nipple.
āThatās my good girl,ā he whispers in your ear, his lips moving against your skin. āYouāre doing such a good job, honey.ā
You keen at both of their praising words and apply more pressure with your tongue against Dana while arching your chest into Jackās hand.
Just as you arch into Jackās hand, he takes his hand away from your breast, caressing the length of your body, from your ribs to your waist to your hip where he squeezes again, pulling moans from your throat that reverberate throughout Danaās body as you continue lapping at her cunt, which has her burying her hand deeper in your hair, tugging on the root, causing more moans.
Itās like a continuous domino effect, and it, paired with Jack and Danaās touch, is on their way to overstimulating you.
āWanna come,ā you moan against Danaās weeping folds before sucking her clit.
āNot yet,ā she says breathily, tugging on your hair once again.
Jack grunts softly in your ear, bringing two fingers down to your clit even though Dana hasnāt given you permission to come yet.
You let out a whine and squirm against his hips. āJack, pleaseā¦ā
āJust making my girl feel good,ā he whispers before kissing your cheek.
With another pathetic whine, you resume your ministrations on Dana, who quickly squeezes her thighs around your head, her clit pulsating against your tongue as you slip a finger inside of her.
āFuck,ā she whispers through gritted teeth. āOh, Jack, you lucky son of a bitch.ā
Dana doesnāt warn you, but the way her cunt clenches around your finger as you move it in and out of her is warning enough. She comes with a deep sigh, clamping down on your finger and slowly cumming on your mouth.
You donāt stop until she pushes you away, her chest rapidly rising and falling as she fights to regain her composure.
āFuck⦠Okay, Jack, you got two minutes to make this girl come, and then Iām stealing you from her,ā Dana says breathlessly.
Jack pulls you closer, and you turn your head back enough so he can angle his lips toward yours. He tastes Dana on your tongue, and he thinks he might come before Dana lets him. He rubs your clit in circles and picks up the pace of his thrusts, soaking in how your body feels against and around his, swallowing each whine, moan, and gasp you let out of your mouth.
āCome on, baby, show Dana how pretty you look when you come,ā he whispers in your ear, his breath hot against your skin.
With a prolonged moan from you in response to his words, your cunt flutters around Jackās cock, your eyes squeezing shut as pleasure washes over your body. In the throes of your orgasm, Dana brings her hand to your cheek, brushing her thumb back and forth across your skin as Jack fucks you through it, his lips moving against your ear again, whispering how good a girl you are, how tight your cunt is around him, how pretty you look with his cock inside of you.
Once itās too much, you cover his hand with your own and pull it away from your clit, bringing his knuckles to your lips.
āSo pretty,ā Dana murmurs, her hand reaching out to stroke your hip.
You shut your eyes for a moment, relishing the gentle touches of both Jack and Dana, then squirm away from Jack, both of you hissing softly as he slips out of you.
āUse him,ā you whisper in Danaās ear before kissing her, wet and sloppy.
She moans into your mouth and tangles her fingers in your hair before crawling over your body towards Jack, who immediately positions her the same way he had you.
āYou ready?ā he whispers in Danaās ear, kissing the back of her neck.
āJust fuck me,ā she replies, and Jack quickly slides inside, desperate to get his dick wet again.
You lie against the pillows and watch the divorced couple fuck like no time has passed.
Itās interesting to watch. Itās probably worlds different from when they were married, but then what do you know? You were in elementary school while they had a joint bank account and Dana was helping Jack learn how to navigate intimacy with one less limb. Theyāll always have that, and as long as youāre with Jack, youāll try to keep from feeling jealous about it.
You watch Jackās fingers reach down to rub Danaās clit and listen to the soft whines he pulls from her lips. She reaches behind and grabs his hip, giving herself some leverage to meet his thrusts.
āYouāre still so fucking tight,ā Jack whispers in Danaās ear, putting a smirk on her face.
āYouāre still too cocky for your own good,ā she shoots back.
Jack pinches her hip in response.Ā
āIs it cocky if it always ends with orgasms?ā
No one responds, and Jack moves his hand up to cup Danaās breast, his fingers kneading at her flesh, sometimes grazing his fingernail against her nipple while his other hand keeps a steady pace on her clit.
Dana whines softly in response and reaches for you. You lie down in front of her, and she pulls you towards her, pulling you in for another kiss while Jack feels her up.
āSo pretty,ā you pant against the older womanās lips. āLook so pretty with my boyfriend inside of you.ā
Both Dana and Jack let out soft moans in response to your words, which only encourages you to go further.
āYeah, you like having your ex-husband inside of you? Hm? Does he fuck as good as he used to? Or did he get better with age?ā
Dana scoffs and smiles at you. āMouthy thing, arenāt you?ā
āTell me,ā you urge, smiling. āIs he better now?ā
Dana leans forward to press another peck to your lips, then leans back again, licking her lips.
āSweetheart, I think itās safe to say heās fermented to perfection,ā she says, and Jack can hear the smile in Danaās voice as she speaks, and it does fucking wonders for his ego, pushing him to thrust a little harder into Dana.
āOh, shit! Yeah, just like that, Jack,ā Dana moans, her hands reaching for your head again, moaning into your mouth. āFuck, Iām gonna come.ā
Itās all the more motivation for Jack to just keep going.Ā
āCan I, can I please come with you?ā he asks, out of breath. āPlease, Dana.ā
Dana pulls back and smiles at you again, her breath coming quicker as you bring your finger to her clit, bumping into Jackās fingers.
āYeah, you come for me like a good boy, Jackie,ā she says before clamping down on his cock, milking him for all heās worth, pulling his long-awaited orgasm from him, both their cum mixing together.
As they regain their composure, Jack gently pulls out of Dana and lies on his back.
You stand from the bed and head into the bathroom to grab a few wet washcloths that you bring back to the bed. You kneel on the bed and gently run a washcloth over Danaās thighs, then gently over her swollen, fucked-out pussy.
Then you turn towards Jack, but he takes the rag from your hand and sits up, cleaning you before letting you get to him.
āSuch a sweet girl,ā he whispers, kissing your sternum.
He takes the other washcloth and cleans himself, then tosses it all to the side. He looks over at Dana, whoās sliding off the bed, searching for her panties with her glass of water in her hand.
āHey,ā you whisper, your hand in Jackās hair.
Dana looks up, a hand on her hip.
āStay?ā you ask, giving her your best puppy dog eyes.
She hesitates, so Jack faces her and says, āThe bedās big enough.ā
You reach a hand out, and she takes it, crawling into bed and wrapping her arms around you.
Jack slots in behind you, putting a hand on your hip, his fingertips brushing with Danaās.
Youāre still not sure of the exact reason why you wanted to invite Dana into your and Jackās intimate lives for the night, but you sure are glad you did. Sheās an incredible woman, and you only hope you took some of the stress off her mind, at least for tonight.
Soon, Danaās breath deepens, and you can tell sheās asleep.
Jack kisses the back of your neck and whispers words you didnāt think youād ever hear him say.
āI love you.ā
He isnāt sure why you invited Dana, either, outside of taking care of her needs for the night, but he knows one thing for certain: he still loves her. How could he not? She helped him through one of the hardest times in his life. She made him feel like a person again.
He owes a lot to her, but he also knows this: sheās not you.
Jack and Dana had their time, and heāll always be grateful for it, but at this stage in his life, he needs you. Things are easy with you in a way they werenāt with his first wife or his second wife. Heās a lucky man to get to love three women in his life, and he doesnāt want to lose again.
You slowly turn on your back so you can look at him. Itās dark, but thereās enough moonlight seeping in through the curtains to tell you that heās serious. He isnāt telling you he loves you in hopes of easing any insecurity you may have about his previous marriage with Dana; heās telling you he loves you because itās true.
You reach a hand up to bury it in his hair and lean your forehead against his chest. You kiss the left side of his chest, then look up again and whisper your reply.Ā
āI love you, too.ā
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end author's note: here is the timeline for the events in this story: Jack and Dana go to the same college and meet, Jack enlists in the Army as a medic, does his five years, comes back with the amputation, as he's recovering and rehabbing, he studies for the MCAT, gets accepted to med school, runs into Dana, drinks, hang around for a few months, then they decide to get married, three years married, Dana meets Benji, soon after Jack and Dana divorce, Dana and Benji get married and get pregnant, Jack graduates med school (Dana definitely went to the ceremony), Jack meets canon wife, residency at PTMC while Dana is a nurse, charge nurse and attending, years and years go by, enter reader coming to PTMC her third year of residency, stays on as she becomes attending, she and Jack start sleeping together her second year as an attending, months and months, then exclusivity, then the threesome
guys I looked on The Pitt Wiki and it lowkey only helped a little and I don't watch interviews so if you read this and were disgusted by my timeline I am sorry
Summary: Reader struggles with internalized homophobia, and eventually comes out to Dick.
Warnings: heavy internalized homophobia, angst, comfort.
A/n: Happy Pride month everyone!! I wrote this because I know I struggle with internalized homophobia, and itās hard to understand myself and my sexuality. The internal dialogue is very similar to mine, and I wrote what I wished someone wouldāve told me.
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Normal.
Everyone wants normalcy right? Normal means comfort. Normal means happiness. Normal means warmth. And you were normal. Youād grown up being normal. Youād lived your entire life being normal. All except for one part of you⦠the part you tried so hard to suppress, hide and throw away. You tried brainwashing yourself into thinking it was fine. That it was just your brain being weird, that it didnāt mean anything, except, deep down, you knew it did. You were straight, you told yourself ā because straight was normal, unlike whatever you felt ā, you were straight and the feeling your stomach got when you were around pretty girls was nothing at all.
The normal part of you, the straight part, soon became the only part of you. You told yourself that all it would take for your weirdness to go away was an amazing man who would take whatever thing you had for girls and discard it away into a bin labeled ānot normal do not touch.ā
It wasnāt that being bisexual, or gay or lesbian was something weird. Or something you looked down upon. When anyone else was gay, it was normal. It was okay. But for some weird reason, when it came down to you, it was a disgusting untouchable thing that changed who you were.
Thatās why you had absentmindedly shrunk all your feelings and emotions about this entire topic, and pushed them into an inactive part of your brainā but no matter how hard you attempted, you couldnāt close the window completely.
Then you met Dick Grayson. And everything with him just feels like warmth. It feels like after constantly sinking and drowning, youāve been pulled back to the shore, and immediately comforted by his presence. Dick Grayson has a way of being present that makes everything feel like summertime and happiness. He doesnāt demand versions of you. He just⦠stays.
And somewhere along the way, he becomes your sun.
Not in a poetic way you think about consciously, but in the way your body understands light. In the way you notice it more when itās gone than when itās there. When he laughs, it feels like something in your chest unclenches without permission. When he looks at you, it feels like you are allowed to exist exactly as you are in that moment, no translation needed. He warms you up and gives you energy. He brightens your day, you go to sleep looking forward to seeing his face in the morning. His smile and warmth fixes everything. The only thing it didnāt fix was, well, the only thing that needed fixing. His warmth melted your heart into a puddle, your messes into puddles (that he dried up)ā but it couldnāt melt away your weirdness. It didnāt change the way you felt when you thought about girls.
And because you love him, because he is your sun, you start to think that maybe this part of you is something that makes you less deserving of that light.
So you donāt say it. You donāt even let the idea fully form it into words in your head at first. You just keep it quiet. And in the quiet, it starts to feel like guilt.
You donāt deserve him.
Dick doesn't notice anything. Perhaps he chooses not to. He continues to soak you in rays of love and affection, and you continue to guiltily absorb all his adoration. Thatās the part that makes it harder.
You dont tell him because if you do, it becomes real. You donāt tell him because you donāt want to lose the sunshine you donāt even deserve, and you feel terrible about it. He is still there in the same way he always is, still reaching for you like itās instinct, still smiling at you like you are something uncomplicated and safe. He still talks to you like there is no distance between who you are and who you are allowed to be. Still treating you like youāre fucking normal.
But then, something in you starts to shift around him anyway. You start pausing before answering things that used to be easy. You start choosing silence where you would have spoken not because you are trying to lie to him, but because you failed to successfully lie to yourself. He wouldnāt want to know anyways. Donāt do anything, youāll ruin everything. You donāt deserve himā he deserves someone normal. Be normal or just stop. You felt guilty for letting him love you. And slowly, without meaning to, you begin stepping away. Not in a dramatic sense, not in a way someone would notice immediately, but in small absences. Shorter conversations. Slightly longer pauses before replying. Moments where you sit beside him and still feel like you are somewhere slightly out of reach.
And Dick starts to notice, because heās the sun, he notices everything. He notices when his light doesnāt quite touch your soul.
āYouāve been quiet lately,ā he says one night, voice soft, almost careful.
āIām fine,ā you answer automatically, because you donāt deserve comfort or warmth.
But even as you say it, you feel it land wrong between you.
He doesnāt argue. He just watches you for a second longer than usual, like he is trying to understand what kind of silence youāre hiding inside of. And thatās when you start realizing something you didnāt want to admit.
The sun is still there. But youāre starting to look away from it. And it already feels undeniably cold and wrong.
It continues to build more and more, until itās too hard and unusual to ignore. Thereās no longer common light and comfort between the two of you. Only the freezing realization that itās not the same anymore. That youāre not the same anymore.
Dick starts sitting closer in conversations that feel like they are slipping away from him. He stops accepting āIām fineā as a full answer. Not because he wants to push, but because he is refusing to pretend he doesnāt see what is happening. Youāre his moon, his calming shade when heās forced to constantly bathe in the searing spotlight. The space growing between the two of you has left him feeling a burning pain in his heart. All he needs is for you to cool it.
He sees the pain in your eyes. He sees how cold, miserable and empty you look. He just wants to warm you up.
One night, he doesnāt fill the silence when you donāt speak. He just lets it exist, like heās waiting for you to choose whether youāre going to stay in it or leave it.
āTalk to me,ā he says finally.
And your chest tightens immediately, because there is nowhere safe inside that sentence.
āI am talking to you,ā you try.
But it doesnāt sound like truth. And you both know it isnāt.
Dick exhales softly, shaking his head slightly.
āNo,ā he says. āYouāre staying close, but youāre not letting me in.ā
And it makes your throat tighten. Because heās right. You know heās right and you hate it. You hate that you canāt just take these feelings out of you and throw them away. You hate that you canāt even do that much for Dick, when heād do anything for you, He leans forward slightly, elbows on his knees, eyes steady on you in a way that feels too kind to run from but too direct to survive. Sometimes the only choice you have is to get burned. Thatās what this is. The once warm gaze that comforted you in tough times now feels like itās burning a hole through your heart.
āIām not leaving,ā he says quietly. āNo matter what it is. Just⦠stop doing this alone.ā
That almost breaks you. You flew too far from the sun didnāt you? And now the rays wonāt reach you anymore. That burning you felt wasnāt the sun. It was you. It was the crippling shame that you threw away the best thing you had. So you go quiet again.
The silence is no longer quiet. It feels like a yell that's begging to close this distance, and somehow that makes everything worse. If it were quiet, if it were small enough to ignore, maybe you could have continued pretending. Maybe you could have kept carrying it for another week, another month, another year. Maybe you could have gone your entire life without saying it out loud and let it rot somewhere deep inside of you where nobody could see it. But it isn't small anymore. It has grown too large to fit inside your chest. It leaks into conversations, into the spaces between words, into the way you look at Dick and then immediately away again. It follows you everywhere, this ugly little secret that shouldn't even be a secret. It sits between the two of you now, invisible but impossible to miss.
Dick watches you for a long moment, and you can practically see the concern growing behind his eyes. It makes your stomach twist. Concern means he cares. Concern means he hasn't given up. Concern means he still loves you enough to worry, and somehow that hurts worse than anything else because all you can think about is how undeserved it feels. Guilt sends freezing chills all over your body and no words he says can unthaw it. You have spent so long convincing yourself that this thing inside you makes you different, makes you wrong, makes you less than what he deserves, that every ounce of affection he gives you feels borrowed. Like you're walking around wearing clothes that belong to somebody else, waiting for the rightful owner to come take them back.
"You've been carrying something by yourself for a while now."
His voice is so painfully quiet and it kills you. You want him to scream, and shout and do the things you deserve. Not act like youāre still deserving of his love. You hate how easily he sees through you. You hate how badly you want to let him.
Your fingers tighten together in your lap. The pressure hurts, but not enough to drown out the ache sitting beneath your ribs. All you want to do is tell the truth and then hug him, and hold him and soak in all his love. You just want to feel that tenderness again. And you feel guilty for that too.
You feel guilty for everything. Like somehow every terrible thing is because of one thing:
You like girls.
The thought settles heavy in your heart.
"It's nothing."
The lie sounds weak even to your own ears. Dick's expression doesn't change, and it feels like thatās the worst part. He doesnāt look annoyed or roll his eyes. He doesnāt get frustrated or angry. He just⦠looks sad. Not sad at you, but rather sad for you. Sad because for the first time ever, he doesnāt know how to use his warmth to disintegrate your worries away. Sad like he's watching somebody drown from the shore and can't understand why they keep refusing the hand being offered to them.
"You're miserable."
The statement leaves softly, like all his previous ones. But it lands like a slap against your face.
You look away immediately.
"I'm not."
"You are."
His response comes so quickly that it almost sounds automatic, like he knew what you were gonna say, and he knew your response. The certainty in it makes something twist painfully in your chest.
Because he isn't wrong. You are miserable. You've been miserable for months. Every happy moment comes attached to guilt now. Every kiss is followed by the reminder that you haven't told him. Every laugh feels stolen. Every good day ends with the same thought curling up beside you in bed.
He deserves someone normal. The thought has become so familiar that sometimes it doesn't even sound cruel anymore. It just sounds true.
You stare at the floor.
Dick sighs quietly, and it isnāt dramatic, or with pent up frustration spilling out, itās just tired.
Because Dick has always carried enough burdens for ten people. He's spent his entire life taking care of everyone around him. He shouldn't have to carry you too.
"You know," he says after a moment, "there was a point where I thought maybe you were mad at me."
Your head snaps up immediately at the ridiculous thought. Mad at him? For what? What could he possibly have done to make you mad at him? Sure he did stuff that mad you mad, just not at him. They made you mad at yourself. Because receiving love from him felt like a crime. Like you were stealing it rather than being given it,
"What?"
His mouth twitches slightly.
"Yeah."
"Dick."
"I didn't know."
The small smile disappears as quickly as it arrived.
"I still don't."
The room feels, if itās even possible, even colder. You donāt know how thatās possible when the sun is literally sitting right across from you.
"Dickā"
"No, seriously."
His voice still stays gentle, making you want to scream.
"I don't know what's happening. I don't know why you've been pulling away from me. I don't know why you look like you're waiting for something terrible to happen every time I walk into a room."
His eyes meet yours. And then the same unbearable warmth is there againā itās just unreachable. Itās there along with the horrible kindness and the gut wrenching sympathy.
"I justā I know you're hurting."
Heās right again. He always seems to be right. You are hurting.
And itās not because you're bisexual, and itās not because there's anything wrong with being bisexual. You know there isn't. You would never look at somebody else and think the things you've spent years thinking about yourself.
You wouldn't ever tell another girl she was broken.
You wouldn't dream of telling another girl she was weird.
You wouldn't instill the concept that she deserved less love because of who she was within her.
But somehow those rules have never applied to you. The hypocrisy isn't lost on you.
It never has been. You know it doesn't make sense and yiu know it isn't logical, and yet somehow the feeling remains. Itās stubborn and persistent and settles in you like a faint, permanent ache thatās buried so deep inside of you that it feels fused to your bones.
You wonder if Dick would still look at you like this if he knew. The thought arrives before you can stop it.
Would he still smile at you the same way?
Would he still call you beautiful?
Would he still kiss you and say you're the best thing that's ever happened to him?
Would he still be your sunshine?
Or would the light finally disappear?
The possibility terrifies you. Because somewhere along the way, Dick stopped being something you simply wanted. He became something you needed. And not in an unhealthy way. Not in a way that made your happiness dependent on him. But in the way plants need sunlight. In the way flowers instinctively turn toward warmth.
Life had existed before him. But it had been colder.
Darker.
Lonelier.
And now that you knew what warmth felt like, the thought of losing it felt unbearable.
A lump forms in your throat and you swallow against it.It doesn't move.
Dickās expression softens.
"Hey."
The single word almost breaks you.
"Talk to me."
Your vision starts blurring and you hate that. You hate that youāre crying. You especially hate that youāre crying in front of him. Because Dick always treats your tears like they're important. And you hate it, because he should be disgusted. And that just makes you cry harder.
"I can't."
The words come out as a small, pathetic choked sob. And itās barely audible, but he hears them immediately. His eyebrows pull together.
"Why not?"
Because if you tell him, everything changes.
Because if you tell him, it becomes real.
Because if you tell him, he'll finally realize he could have done better.
You lower your head.
The tears are coming faster now, and itās embarrassing. Itās pathetic. Youāre pathetic. Youāve been pathetic because youāve let all your feelings and emotions escalate over the years. And the things you kept buried quietly now turned into stormy messes of guilt and self deprecation. You can't stop them.
"Dick..."
His name cracks apart halfway through.
And instantly, he's moving closer. And itās somehow, the same amount. Itās not enough to crowd you. Itās just enough to remind you that he's there.
Just enough to remind you that the sun is still trying to reach you.
"Whatever it is," he says softly, "you can tell me."
Your chest hurts. Because he means it. You know he means it.
Dick Grayson has never once made you feel unsafe. Not once. Not ever.
The fear was never that he would scream.
The fear was never that he would mock you.
The fear was never even that he would hate you.
The fear was always simpler than that.
The fear was that he'd look at you differently.
That one day he'd wake up and realize you weren't who he thought you were. That the sunshine you've been standing in all this time would finally belong to somebody else. And suddenly you're so tired. Tired of hiding. Tired of carrying this. Tired of spending every day terrified that the person you love most in the world will stop loving you the moment he sees all of you. Your eyes squeeze shut. The words are right there.
Waiting.
Terrifying.
Simple.
Three words.
Three stupid words that shouldn't matter nearly this much.
You can feel them sitting on your tongue.
And for the first time, you're not sure you can keep them there. Not because you donāt know what they are anymore and itās not because youāre unsure of the shape of them or the way theyāve been forming in your chest for far too long, but because holding them in now feels more painful than letting them go. It feels like standing on the edge of something youāve been circling for months, maybe years, pretending you werenāt already halfway over it. Like your body has already decided whatās going to happen and your mind is just trying to delay the moment it becomes irreversible.
Rip the bandage .
Because once you say it, thereās no taking it back into the quiet. No stuffing it back into the old corners of your mind where you kept it folded up and small and manageable. Once it leaves you, it stops being something you can argue with privately. It becomes real in a way that has shape and weight and consequence, something Dick can hear and respond to and misunderstand or understand too well. And that is what makes it feel like your entire body is bracing for impact even though nothing has happened yet.
Rip the bandage .
Dick is still looking at you like he always does when heās trying to reach you without pushing too hard. That steady kind of attention that used to feel like safety, like being held without being touched. It makes your chest ache now in a different way, because you can see how much of him is still here, how much warmth is still being offered to you so freely, and all you can think about is how unfair it feels that youāre standing in it while carrying something youāve convinced yourself makes you unworthy of it.
The sun is still there.
That thought hits you again, sharp and unbearable in its simplicity. Dick Grayson is still the same person who pulled you out of all those darker places without even trying to make it sound like effort. He still looks at you like you are someone worth staying for, like you are not complicated in the ways you keep telling yourself you are. He is still your warmth, still the thing you orbit without meaning to, still the light you learned to breathe inside of.
And yet something in you keeps insisting you are not supposed to be this close to it.
That youāve been standing too long in something you were never meant to deserve.
Rip the goddamn bandage .
Your throat tightens around the words before you can even consciously decide to speak. It feels less like a choice now and more like surrender, like your body is finally overriding everything youāve been telling it to do for years. The fear doesnāt disappear, it just stops being strong enough to hold the words back.
Just fucking rip the bandage .
āI canātāā you start, and your voice breaks before it can become anything stable, anything usable, anything that would make this easier.
Dick shifts immediately, like that alone is enough to pull all of his attention fully into you.
āHey,ā he says softly, not interrupting, just anchoring. Just waiting.
And that gentleness is what undoes you a little more.
Because youāve imagined this moment so many times in your head, and never once has it included him sounding like that. Never once has it included him still being here with you, still soft, still close, still waiting instead of pulling away.
You swallow hard, but it doesnāt help.
āIāve been trying not to say it,ā you manage, and even that feels like too much already, like the sentence is already spilling out faster than you can control it, like youāre watching yourself from somewhere slightly outside your body and realizing there is no longer any way to stop this from becoming real.
Dick doesnāt move away. He doesnāt interrupt. He just listens, like he always does, like he always has. And that makes it worse in the most unbearable way, because you can feel how much he trusts you to finish.
So you do.
You start to pull the bandage off. And it hurts. But itās too late to close it back up.
You let the words keep forming even though your chest feels like itās collapsing inward with every syllable.
āItās just⦠I donāt think I ever actually stopped feeling it,ā you say, and your voice is shaking now in a way you canāt hide anymore, like your control has finally started to slip completely. āAnd I tried. I really did. I kept telling myself it was nothing, that it didnāt matter, that it would go away if I just ignored it long enough, but it didnāt. It just stayed there, like it was always going to stay there no matter how much I tried to make myself smaller around it.ā
You dread the wound thatās underneath bandage .
Your breath stutters, and you hate how loud it sounds in the space between you.
āAnd I know how it sounds,ā you continue, because now that itās started, it wonāt stop, it canāt stop, āI know it sounds like I shouldāve dealt with it already, like it shouldāve been simple to figure out or fix or whatever, but I couldnāt. I couldnāt make it disappear and I couldnāt make myself stop being scared of it either, because every time I thought about it I just kept thinking that maybe if I was wrong about myself, if I was just overthinking it, then I could still be normal.ā
The word lands heavier than the rest.
Normal. Because normal was supposed to be simple. Normal was supposed to mean you didnāt sit here shaking while trying to explain yourself to the person you love most in the world. Normal was supposed to mean you didnāt have to analyze every piece of yourself like it was something dangerous. You finally force yourself to look at him.
And thatās what almost breaks you completely.
Because Dick doesnāt look angry. He doesnāt look disgusted. He doesnāt look his light is about to go out,
He just looks like heās trying to understand something that hurts because it exists at all, not because it changes how he sees you.
And that realization makes your voice fall apart at the edges when you finally say it.
āI think Iām bisexual.ā
You fucking ripped the godforsaken bandage .
You wait for the world to end.
Not dramatically. Not in any cinematic way where everything suddenly falls apart at once. Itās quieter than that, more internal, more familiar. Itās the kind of ending youāve rehearsed so many times in your head that your body already knows the posture of it. The way your shoulders tense. The way your breathing goes shallow. The way your mind starts cataloguing what comes after, because itās always assumed there will be an āafter,ā and it will be colder than what came before. The sun is about to stop shining. That thought doesnāt arrive as metaphor right now. It feels physical. Like something in the room has already begun dimming even though nothing has moved. Like warmth can leave a space before the source of it actually goes. You can almost feel it in advance, that imagined absence of Dickās presence in your life, the way the world would look if you had just broken something irreversible without meaning to. If you had said too much. If you had revealed too much. If you had finally become too complicated to stay loved in the same way. Thatās how your world ends. A cold, numb death.
You donāt even realize your hands are trembling until you try to clench them still.
āI didnāt mean for it to be like this,ā you say, and your voice comes out strained, like itās being pulled through something tight inside your chest. āI didnāt mean to make it weird or heavy or turn it into this whole thing, I justā I couldnāt keep pretending I didnāt know anymore.ā
The words keep coming because silence feels worse. Because silence feels like waiting tbe judged. And your mind is already filling in what he hasnāt said yet. Heās confused. Heās overwhelmed. Heās realizing something changed. Heās realizing you changed.
āI know how it sounds,ā you continue, and now itās harder to breathe properly, because you can feel yourself slipping into the part of you that always does this, the part that tries to fix the reaction before it happens. āI know people are supposed to just⦠figure this out earlier or cleaner or whatever, but I didnāt. I didnāt have words for it for a long time and when I did I kept telling myself it didnāt matter and that it wasnāt true for me, because it was easier than admitting it did.ā
You swallow, and it hurts.
āAnd I know you probably didnāt expect this from me,ā you add, quieter now, almost apologetic just for taking up space in the conversation, āand I donāt expect you to just understand it, I justā I needed you to know because it was starting to feel like lying every time I didnāt say it.ā
Thereās a pause.
A real one. And in that pause your fear grows teeth again.
The silence that follows doesnāt feel empty anymore, not in the way it did before when it used to sound like something breaking. It feels heavier now, fuller, like the air itself has changed shape around what you said, like the room is still adjusting to the fact that something honest finally exists in it. You keep waiting for it to tip into something worse, for the shift youāve been bracing for your entire life, for the moment where his expression finally turns into something you recognize as rejection.
The sun is about to stop shining.
You look at him then, finally, because not looking feels worse than seeing it happen.
But Dick doesnāt move away.
He just looks at you.
And then, slowly, like heās making a decision about how to hold something delicate without dropping it, he exhales.
āI need you to listen to me,ā he says quietly, not like an order, but like heās asking for a space where he can make sure you actually hear him without your fear translating everything into something harsher than it is. āNot to respond. Not to explain. Just⦠listen for a second.ā
Your throat tightens, but you nod anyway.
Because you donāt know what else to do with yourself. Because this is the part where things usually end.
Dick shifts slightly closer, not closing distance in a way that traps you, just enough that heās fully here with you, fully present in a way that makes it impossible to pretend youāre alone in this moment, or tune him out.
āWhen you told me,ā he starts carefully, āthat youāre bisexual⦠I think what I heard you say was something about yourself being wrong. Or confusing. Or like it changes something fundamental about whether you deserve to be loved the way you are.ā
He pauses, watching your face, like heās checking whether heās close.
And you donāt say anything, because you are.
āI need to tell you something really clearly,ā he continues, voice steady but softer now, āthat has nothing to do with fixing you or correcting you or anything like that. Itās just⦠truth. The kind of truth I wish someone had told me earlier in my life when I was trying to figure out who I was without feeling like I was failing at it.ā
That makes something in your chest shift. Because you didnāt expect that. You didnāt expect him to include himself in this.
āIām not straight in the way people assumeā no one really isāā he says, and he doesnāt hesitate on the words, doesnāt make them smaller or lighter than they are. āAnd Iām not anything neatly boxed either. Iāve had feelings I didnāt understand for a long time. Iāve questioned myself more than once. Iāve stood in the middle of things and thought, āWhat does this make me?ā and the honest answer was always⦠I donāt know yet.ā
Your breath catches slightly.
Dick watches that reaction, then continues anyway, grounding you with how normal he makes it sound.
āAnd what Iāve learned,ā he says, āis that most people are like that. Not just in sexuality, but in everything that has to do with love and attraction and connection. We grow up wanting answers that are clean and final because it makes us feel safe, like we can label ourselves and be done with it. But people donāt really work like that. There isnāt a switch that flips where you become āfully one thingā and stay there perfectly forever.ā
His gaze doesnāt leave you.
āThereās a spectrum,ā he says simply. āNot as a buzzword. Not as something vague. Just⦠the reality that attraction, love, identity, all of it exists in a wide space. Some people sit in one place on it their whole lives. Some people move. Some people donāt understand where they are until theyāre already living it.ā
Your throat tightens again, but this time it isnāt panic.
Itās something else.
Something quieter.
Because youāre looking down at the wound that was under your bandage, and thereās nothing. No blood. No scratches. Just⦠healed skinā¦
āI need you to hear this part especially,ā he adds, and his voice drops just slightly. āThere is no version of you that was supposed to be ānormalā in the way youāre using that word. There isnāt a checklist you failed. There isnāt a right answer you missed. Thereās just you. Figuring yourself out in real time like everyone else is, whether they admit it or not.ā
The word ānormalā lands differently when he says it.
Not like a standard.
Like something that doesnāt actually exist in the way youāve been measuring yourself against it.
He leans forward a little more, elbows resting loosely on his knees, hands relaxed, like heās trying to keep everything about him open instead of overwhelming.
āAnd love,ā he says quietly, āis not something that gets smaller or less real because of who itās directed toward. Itās not conditional on you fitting into some idea of what youāre supposed to be. Itās not something you have to earn by being uncomplicated.ā
Your eyes sting again, but you donāt look away.
āI love you,ā he continues, and itās not dramatic, not sudden, just steady in a way that feels like itās always been there and will keep being there whether youāre panicking or not. āNot because youāre easy to understand. Not because you fit into something predictable. I love you because youāre you. And that hasnāt changed.ā
Your chest tightens so hard it almost hurts. Dickās voice softens further, like heās trying to undo years of something in you he didnāt cause but is still choosing to help carry.
āAnd I need you to stop treating what you just told me like itās something that puts you outside of being loved,ā he says. āBecause it doesnāt. Itās just a part of who you are. A real part. A valid part. Not something shameful. Not something you owe anyone an apology for.ā
That wordāapologyāmakes your stomach twist automatically.
Because youāve already apologized in your head a hundred times.
For existing like this. For saying it. For not being simpler.
āAnd before you even go there,ā he adds gently, āthere is no guilt here. Not from me. Not from you. Not from this. You didnāt do anything wrong by being who you are. You didnāt do anything wrong by realizing it. And you definitely didnāt do anything wrong by telling me.ā
A pause.
His gaze holds yours, steady and unwavering.
āYouāre allowed to exist without punishment,ā he says quietly. āYouāre allowed to be figuring yourself out without it meaning youāve broken something. And youāre allowed to love who you love, in whatever way that happens for you, without it turning into something you have to be ashamed of.ā
Dickās hand reaches for yours.
āIām not going anywhere,ā he says finally, softer again. āNot because I have to prove something, but because thereās nothing about this that makes me want to leave. If anything, it just makes me understand you more. And I love you more honestly for it, not less.ā
The words settle in the room differently now.
And for the first time since you spoke, the sun doesnāt feel like itās about to disappear.
It feels like itās resparkling your entire life. Like everything finally has color again. Thatās what love is, isnāt it? Itās all the shades of you and who you love. No color is normal. Theyāre all unique. They all fill your life with warmth and joy. And for the first time ever, you understand why Dick is your sunshine. Itās because love is sunshine, no matter who you love.
The next morning, you wake slowly beneath a patch of warm sunlight spilling through the curtains. For a few disoriented moments, you remain tangled in blankets and sleep, suspended between yesterday and today, between the version of yourself that had spent years carrying a secret and the version that had finally spoken it aloud. The memory returns gradually. The confession. The tears. The shaking in your hands. The way your voice had broken around words that had lived inside your chest for so long they almost felt permanent. The fear comes back too, though weaker now, stripped of the power it once held. Yesterday, you had stood in front of Dick convinced honesty would cost you everything. Instead, he had listened. He had stayed. He had taken every horrible thing you believed about yourself and treated it with more kindness than you had ever offered it.
You roll over instinctively, expecting to find him asleep beside you, but his side of the bed is empty. The blankets are still messy from where he had been, the pillow dented beneath the imprint of his head, but he is gone. A faint frown pulls at your eyebrows as you sit up. The apartment is unusually quiet, though not completely silent. Somewhere in the distance, you hear movement. A cabinet door. A muffled thud. The sound of someone trying very hard not to make noise and failing. Then something else catches your attention.
The apartment smells sweet. Not breakfast sweet. Not coffee sweet. Sugar sweet. Vanilla sweet. The kind of smell that belongs in bakeries and birthday parties and childhood afternoons spent licking frosting from mixing spoons. Curiosity pulls you out of bed.
The sunlight follows you into the hallway, warming the hardwood floors beneath your feet. The apartment feels different this morning. Lighter somehow. As though yesterday opened a window you didn't realize had been shut for years. Nothing around you has changed, and yet everything feels brighter. The air feels easier to breathe. The walls feel less confining. Even the sunlight streaming through the apartment seems warmer than usual, spreading itself across every surface in long golden stretches.
As you approach the kitchen, the sweet smell grows stronger. You round the corner and stop immediately.
Dick is standing in the middle of the kitchen with frosting on his face.
There is frosting on his cheek. More frosting on one hand. A suspicious amount of frosting on his shirt. The kitchen itself looks like it survived a small baking-related disaster. There is powdered sugar on the counter. A mixing bowl sits abandoned beside the sink. A spatula has somehow ended up on the opposite side of the room entirely. And directly in front of him, sitting proudly in the center of the counter as though it belongs in a museum, is a cake.
A very homemade cake.
The frosting is uneven. One side leans slightly lower than the other. The piping looks like it fought for its life. Across the top sits a large yellow sun made of icing that is unmistakably supposed to be a sun despite looking only vaguely circular. Around it are several sunflowers, each one slightly different from the last, their petals uneven and imperfect and completely impossible to mistake for anything other than something made with love.
Dick notices you standing there and immediately lights up.
"There you are," he says, sounding absurdly pleased with himself.
You stare at him. Then at the cake. Then at the frosting on his face. Then back at him. His grin widens. The longer you stare, the more satisfied he seems.
"What did you do?" you finally ask.
"I created art," he replies confidently.
Your eyes drift back toward the cake. The sun is crooked. One sunflower appears to have significantly more petals than the others. Another looks slightly concerned about its own existence. The entire thing is so objectively terrible that you can feel laughter threatening before you've even fully processed what you're looking at.
"Dick."
"Yes?"
"The sun is leaning."
"The sun is dynamic."
"It looks drunk."
His offended gasp echoes dramatically through the kitchen.
"You are so unbelievably uncultured."
The laugh escapes before you can stop it. It starts small. Then it grows. Just like flowers when theyāre offered sunlight. Then suddenly you're laughing hard enough to have tears gathering in the corners of your eyes.
Dick points triumphantly.
"There it is."
"What?"
"That laugh."
His voice softens slightly.
"I've missed hearing that laugh."
Dick's expression changes as he watches you. The teasing remains, but beneath it sits something gentler. He glances at the cake and then back at you.
"I know yesterday was hard."
The kitchen suddenly feels very still. Sunlight pours through the windows behind him, wrapping itself around his shoulders like gold.
Dick leans against the counter, crossing his arms loosely.
"I know you've probably spent a really long time carrying all of that around by yourself. Longer than I can even understand." His eyes remain fixed on yours. "And I know one conversation doesn't magically make years of guilt disappear. I know it probably doesn't feel fixed."
Dick smiles softly.
"But I wanted you to wake up to something good."
You feel your eyes sting and he notices immediately. His expression softens even more.
"I wanted the first morning after telling somebody to be a happy one."
The tears come then.
And its because you're devastated or overwhelmed. Itās because youāve never seen it that way before. Not as a burden or a confession but as something deserving of happiness. As something deserving of sunshine.
Dick takes a small step closer.
"I was proud of you yesterday."
The tears spill over. His voice remains gentle.
"I'm still proud of you."
You shake your head automatically, years of insecurity responding before logic can catch up.
Dick immediately notices.
"No."
The word is quiet but firm.
"No, we're not doing that."
A watery laugh escapes you.
His expression remains stubborn.
"You don't get to tell me how I feel."
"Dickā"
"I'm serious."
The morning sunlight catches in his eyes.
"You spent years being scared of something that was never wrong in the first place. You spent years convincing yourself that a part of you made you less deserving of love. Then yesterday you looked me in the eye and told me anyway."
His smile returns.
"That's brave."
Your throat hurts. Everything hurts. But in the way a healing bruise hurts. The kind that reminds you recovery is happening.
Dick gestures dramatically toward the cake.
"Therefore, cake."
You laugh through your tears.
He gestures again.
"And sunflowers."
You look down.
Only now do you notice the bouquet sitting beside the cake. Bright yellow sunflowers. Your favorite.
"I knew those would work."
"You got me flowers?"
"Obviously."
The answer comes as though the alternative would have been absurd.
A smile finally pulls across your face.
Dick relaxes slightly when he sees it, as though that expression alone was worth the entire disaster currently occupying his kitchen.
The sunlight continues spilling through the windows, filling every corner of the room with warmth. It catches on the yellow petals of the sunflowers. It glows against the frosting sun sitting crookedly atop the cake. It wraps around Dick as he stands there smiling at you with icing still smeared across his face.
For years, you thought sunshine was something fragile. Something you had to earn. Something that would disappear the moment somebody saw all of you.
Instead, it is standing in front of you holding flowers.
It is covered in frosting.
And it spent half the night making a terrible cake just to make you smile.
Thatās when you realize, everyone deserves love, no matter what shade itās in. No matter how they express it. Everyone needs sunshine. Everyone needs love. Everyone deserves sunshine, and so do you
Hi guys! So I just wanted to say sum stuff! First of all, happy pride month! Second of all, I am so proud of every single person who has come out, and every single person who hasnāt. I feel like weāve really just pressured everyone to stick by a label. I suppose one of the reasons Iām too afraid to admit my sexuality to myself is because of this. Once I admit it, Iām stuck this way. And itās so hard because we should all be able to accept ourselves. Iāve learned that sexuality isnāt one firm position. Weāre all in a vast space, constantly moving and changing. And love, at the end of the day is love! Everyone deserves sunshine.āļø šš§”
synopsis: the fourth of july shift was a mess, both your situationships are a mess, and you somehow find comfort in your friend.
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a/n: I'm not sure if it qualifies as a blurb, a drabble, or something else? it's also my first time writing about Trinity, or a woman in general.
I hope you still enjoy this short whatever that came to my mind while I was daydreaming at work hahaha
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The Fourth of July shift had gone to shit the second day shift walked in. What should have been a routine handoff and a basic summer day had turned into twelve hours of pure chaos. It wasn't unusual for summer shifts to be chaotic, but it had been chaotic on a whole other level. Personal problems and professional disasters tangled together, making everyone a mess while having to deal with a technological shutdown and a constant flow of patients bursting through the doors.
Santos was blown off by Garcia and Al Hashimi was up her ass about her delay in doing her charts, Robby kept being a dick to Mohan for some reason, Emma got assaulted by a patient on her very first day, Whitaker got a $250 overcharge on Uber because he tried to be kind to an old lady who turned out to be a racist bitch and Jesse got arrested by ICE for standing up for a patient.
By the end of the longest shift you've ever had since Pittsfest, everyone was hanging on by a thread.
You weren't an exception to the rule.
Some of your colleagues went to look at the fireworks on the roof of PTMC, but Mel, Santos and you ended up at a karaoke bar. It was one of those dingy, hole-in-the-wall places with sticky floors, dim lights, torn posters and just enough alcohol to take the edge off.
Trinity had claimed the head of the booth like she owned it, while you and Mel sat on either side of her.
"You know what? Fuck them!" Trinity said, banging her glass down on the table. "Fuck them all!" she slurred.
"Fuck Garcia, fuck Robby, fuck Langdon." Trinity continued before taking a swing of her beer. "And Fuck ICE!"
"Yeah!" Mel chimed in a bit awkwardly, trying to sound enthusiastic.
"Robby's not that badā¦" you muttered, playing with your cup.
Trinity snorted. "You only say that because you're fucking him." She leaned back, squinting at you. "Dick's so good you forget what an ass he is?"
"Dr.Robby is a good mentor," Mel started carefully, looking between the two of you. "But he has been rude."
You pressed your lips together.
Because yeah, he had.
You'd seen it all. The sharp tone, the impatience, the way he shut down some of your colleagues. He had been permanently on edge, one wrong word away from snapping at whoever was unlucky enough to be around him at the moment.
But you had also seen him when no one else did. The quiet moments where he couldn't hide the cracks, the glossiness of his eyes when he talked about his sabbatical and the way he observed the ED with concern.
"Yeah," you sighed, bringing your glass to your lips.
"But what about Langdon, though?" you added, not wanting to dwell too long on the topic of Robby.
Mel shifted in her seat, glancing your way.
"Umā¦Nothing much." She answered a little too quickly.
"Come on, don't lie," Trinity cut in.
"Man's been flirting with her nonstop, but he's still married."
You blinked in surprise.
"What?"
"Yeah!" Trinity continued, rolling her eyes. "Something about staying together for their kids, but he follows after Mel like a lovesick puppy."
"It's not like thatā¦" Mel tried, crunching her nose.
Despite Mel trying to play it off, you could see the hurt in her eyes. She might be trying to deny or to hide, but it was written all over her face. The disappointment, the hope she was trying to bury, the hurt she was pretending wasn't there but also the shame that came with being interested in a married man (even if his marriage was on the verge of collapsing.)
"Oh, Melā¦"
"It's okay," she smiled wryly. "He doesn't owe me anything."
She looked down at her glass, tracing the rim. "We're justā¦coworkers."
There was a second of silence before Trinity slapped her hands on the table, making the two of you jump in surprise.
"Nope!"
She grabbed the both of you and dragged you to the stage.
"We're not here to spend the rest of the night feeling sorry for ourselves."
You smiled brightly as you were dragged to the stage, sharing a look with Mel as the first notes of 'You Oughta Know' by Alanis Morissette began playing. A laugh escaped Mel as she grabbed a mic and Trinity another. You smiled and shook your head fondly before grabbing a mic as well.
You weren't entirely sure how you ended up here.
Somewhere between the dingy karaoke bar and the next place Trinity insisted on dragging you to after Mel left, the night had blurred together. The cocktails she kept sliding in your hand certainly hadn't helped.
"Come on, the night's still young!" she'd say.
Music rang loudly through the bar, blasting out of speakers you were standing not too far from, and the room was packed with people. The movement of the crowd pushed you closer and closer until there was barely any space between you two. The July heat was already unbearable, but the temperatures were even higher right nowāor was it because of her body pressing against yours?
Trinity laughed at something you said, her head tipping back for a second and a huge smile you rarely saw spread on her face.
You remembered thinking: "God, she's so pretty."
And she was.
She looked mesmerising.
She had the kind of smile that was never quite the same but still as pretty no matter what. Sometimes it was cocky and confident, sometimes it was sarcastic and teasing, and some other times it could be quieter. Tonight, she looked carefree and relaxed in a way you'd never seen her.
The coloured lights from the dance floor swept across her face, dim and hazy. Blue melted into purple, purple into a warm gold, and each colour change made her look even more unreal.
Maybe it was the alcohol.
Maybe it was exhaustion.
Or maybe you were just seeing her in a new light.
Whatever it was didn't matter, did it? All you could think about in this moment was her and the endless possibilities the night could offer you.
The noise of the bar faded into the background. People danced around you and brushed against you, glasses clinked, and someone laughed too loudly, but it all sounded distant.
It felt like everything was slowing down, and without realising it, you stopped dancing. Trinity noticed almost immediately, glancing up at you.
You didn't know what she saw when she looked at you, but you saw her eyes drop to your lips.
The distance between the two of you disappeared before you realised. You wouldn't be able to say who closed it first.
The kiss was clumsy at first, both of you letting out a laugh when your teeth bumped together, but neither of you pulled away.
One thing led to the other, and there you were, pressed against the front door of the apartment Trinity shared with Whitaker.
The city was still as loud as ever, some fireworks were still cracking in the distance, and the occasional sound of a siren resonated, but all you could focus on was Trinity.
Trinity, Trinity, Trinity.
Her hands rested on your hips as she kissed you, and she had to stand onto her tiptoes to stay close, her whole body leaning into yours.
Your hand had slipped around your waist, exploring the skin under her shirt while your other hand settled at the nape of her neck.
After a moment, she pulled back just enough to catch her breath. Her forehead rested against yours, and you feel the ghost of a smile tugging at her lips.
"This isn't how I imagined my night going." she murmured, her breath brushing against your lips as she spoke.
She looked back into your eyes, sending chill down your skin.
"But I can't say I'm mad about it."
You moved your hand from her neck to cup her cheek, pulling away just enough to look at her.
"Me neither."
Your thumb brushed gently across her skin, admiring her in silence. Trinity stared back at you, eyes searching your face before she spoke again.
"Wanna come up?"
You couldn't help the smile that spread on your lips.