Y’all, do we ever have those days where we wish we could just be normal? I struggle so much in social situations to the point where It’s not even funny. This mostly happens when it’s a social event with people I don’t know or I’m not too close with or familiar with. I try to include myself in a conversation, but somehow, someway, it comes across as awkward and everyone either ignores me or just gets awkward by me. So what do I do? I end up sitting in a corner and drawing or I’m pacing around or hiding out in the bathroom. Drawing can only entertain me for so long in a personally stressful situation. Same as pacing and bathroom time. I wanna have a good conversation with someone, but whenever I try, I can never keep one. Most social events I go to, there’s either no one my age or it’s that everyone that’s my age thinks I’m weird. And sometimes my anxiety gets the better of me and when I want to go talk to someone, I don’t know what to say or I want to say something cool, etc. if I’m ever going to a social event where I’m not familiar with anyone, I need to at least bring someone I know and/or comfortable with or I’m totally internally crashing out at that event. Am I self sabotaging myself? Is this all just from my anxiety or is it something else? I’ve had theories for a while about my mental state, that I’m either bipolar or have autism? I don’t know, I don’t wanna self diagnose myself but it would also be appreciated If I had someone else’s opinion on what they think it might be, you know? heck, it might not even be any of those things. I just need someone to help me figure out what’s wrong with me and how I can do better.
