He sees everything- Winter Anderson
note: another fic yay! and sorry for misspelling etc english is not my first language <3
dedications: @americxn @mrs-march-ahs @mossybank <3 yall are the best
TW: kai being manipulative and not letting the reader and Winter be happy together likeee fan behavior ;/
Words: 1k
To be in love was to be hurt.
To put your all into someone, to desire and admire every part of someone was to be torn to shreds. It was to feel as if your heart had been shattered inside your chest with no means of ever being put back together.
That was something that you knew quite well.
It might be too soon to call it love, you were still confused.
You were figuring yourself out. Experiencing the real world, whether you liked it or not, you caught yourself staring at pretty girls, imagining you hugging them, and holding hands. You simply didn't have time to fall in love when you didn't even know yourself!
You did not want this to happen, but it happened, leaving you with the thought that you fancied girls, but not Winter Anderson. Especially not Winter. The girl was charming and beautiful- but your entire purpose of speaking to her was to talk about the cult.
The cult.
Being another victim of kai felt terrible. Forced to do things you disagreed with, gossiping about it with Winter at the risk of someone finding out and telling Kai, and this fear grew more when you found out that Kai was waiting for you in the basement.
You went down the stairs, preparing for what was coming.
Kai was sitting at the table, shaking his head giving the command that you sit across from him, pulling his pinky, resting his elbow on the table.
Winter was the first one to teach you how the pinky power worked. You thought that it was a dumb way to get secrets out of a person, an unfair game. You took the seat across from him, intertwining your little fingers. “No secrets.” His steady voice break the silence. “i´ll know if you're lying”
You nodded, waiting for him to corrupt you. That he would open your mouth and get the truth out. You were scared, but of what? Kai? or scared that you knew he knew? “What are you afraid of?” This made you feel lighter because it sounded a lot less callous than you imagined, but there were never good times. Many thoughts at the same time overwhelmed your mind, asking you the same question over and over again. And then Winter came to your mind and with her all the thoughts of love were welcomed. You could never love Winter the right way, there would always be an obstacle,a confusion, a belief, Kai. But was Kai really always the villain?
The villain would always be ourselves.
“Myself” You answered Kais question. His eyebrow raised at the confession, but not really satisfied.
“Are you afraid of yourself or are you afraid of love?” He whispered, and there it was. He knew and there was nothing to do about it, than to expose yourself.
“What do you mean by that?” You tried to act dumb.
“You like Winter” You trembled at the mention of Winter or that you in fact did like her. He stood up from his seat, breaking the contact and walking upstairs. Kai could use this information against you, twist the truth for his own will. The relationship you were starting to build with Winter would fall apart with a single word that left his lips. You haven't even talked to Winter nor anyone about being a lesbian.
“Do you like her?” He asked this time before leaving the basement entirely.
“She´s a girl” You whispered. “It isn't allowed” As you pronounce these words he left.
You stood up from your seat, and headed upstairs. You didn't know what to do next...Should you talk to Winter before Kai would? You found Winter sitting in the living room, her crystallized eyes watching the TV without being turned on. You imagined that Kai already told her, disguising the truth as if it didn't matter.
“Winter are you okay?” You asked, not really sure how to start. A lot of things that you wanted to say to her, but not a single word could describe how you truly felt. If you were confused about liking Winter, hearing it out loud made you feel confident and determined about your feelings. But in the end you didn't know how Winter feels about you. You didn't even know if Winter liked girls.
“Kai said something about you” She finally looked at you. “Is it true?” You walked over to her, hands shaking.
A romance wrapped around your heart, drawing lines on your stomach. You have never been so scared.
“Winter, i don't know what Kai ma-”
“No” She interrupted.
“What? Look, it's okay if you don't want to see me anymore, it's just that I'm scared because I don't know if people will accept me” You said as fast as you can. Letting the words lead the conversation as fast as possible.
“I think i may love you too” Her words were intimate, like the first flower to bloom in spring.
You stopped formulating your next words.
“What?”
“Forget it”
“No, i think i want to hear it again” You smiled to be really sure if this was a good thing. The living room was silent, tension in the air as many scenarios played in your mind. “Come on.” You continued. “You´ve been breaking me the whole night, this could mend me.”
A force making your legs, and spine shake making you stood frozen, but smiled. A genuine smile, something that hadn't happened in the whole day. The smile makes your cheeks grow fuller, making them fill with joy, and for the first time you lived in the present and it wasn't a distant hope. Both of you were happy. You could tell by the way Winter´s eyes glimmered.
“Fine,” Winter said slowly “,I like you. I think”
Silence.
Both of you frooze, not sure what to do. Was that a love confession? No, how did we get to love, it was only about liking.
And as fast as the first lightning strikes, announcing the rain, Winter got up from the couch and ran upstairs. You felt that she did not run, she escaped. With a pressure in your stomach you followed her to her room where she closed the door.
Winter strayed far from the door and you had only been scared of this one thing. Please let me in! No Winter refused to. You slid your back against the door, pleading and pleading not really sure when the tears started to spill, wanting to get in, even if it was only to say goodbye that would last forever.
“Let me in” You pleaded “Please”
Winter kept quiet. Her silence was almost as scary as the lightning. Her sighs were heavy, as she listened to you beg. Her throat crystallizing. She felt Kai's presence. It was always Kai.
He was like a nightmare tormenting the most comforting sweet dreams.
“I won't hurt you!” You continued.
“Are you alright?” Kai finally spoke.
“I'm fine, Kai”
“Let her in”
“No”
“Did she hurt you?”
“No” Winter said. “But she will”
“I won't!” You shouted, confused but not really surprised that Kai was in there.
“She wont” Continued Kai.
“We don't know that”
“We won't know unless you let her in”
Three seconds passed and the door opened. A cold breeze of silence was upon the three as you went in.
“I'm sorry, Winter” You went to her side grabbing her hand, uncomfortable by Kais presence.
He left the room, leaving them alone, with a smirk on his face, his plan just beginning.
